I feel really depressed, please help?!
Question: just a few months i decided not to commit suicide after planning it for 2 years, but i never took any action because the school i go to i really love it, and it`s this hospital school (for mental health) and i didn`t want to go back to the hospital so i was scared to do anything incase it didn`t work, after getting discharged i carried on going to that school and i really love it, but in a few months i`ll be leaving and i don`t know how i will cope, i always planned to try and kill myself because i knew i will soon leave it and i wanted my last days to be at that school because they are the nicest people i met and the happiest time of my life, they really want me to something with my life and make them proud so i decided i would, but i don`t feel happy about the future, no matter how successful i get, and i feel like what do people do with their lives, why do they want to live, i just don`t want to, i`m used to thinking about suicide every day, i don`t know how to cope?
Answers: just a few months i decided not to commit suicide after planning it for 2 years, but i never took any action because the school i go to i really love it, and it`s this hospital school (for mental health) and i didn`t want to go back to the hospital so i was scared to do anything incase it didn`t work, after getting discharged i carried on going to that school and i really love it, but in a few months i`ll be leaving and i don`t know how i will cope, i always planned to try and kill myself because i knew i will soon leave it and i wanted my last days to be at that school because they are the nicest people i met and the happiest time of my life, they really want me to something with my life and make them proud so i decided i would, but i don`t feel happy about the future, no matter how successful i get, and i feel like what do people do with their lives, why do they want to live, i just don`t want to, i`m used to thinking about suicide every day, i don`t know how to cope?
No one can make you want to live. It's very important to find the desire to live from within. I have suffered from suicidal thoughts for most my life and I know alot about how it works. I was very used to thinking those thoughts too and it became addictive thinking. I also have OCD so that figured in on it but I turned to suicide habitually as an option for solving my problems.
It's not an option hon. Please believe me when I tell you you will find something to be happy about again. The more often you come out of the depression and the suicidal thinking the more you will know that there is happiness to be found at the end of the tunnel. Sometimes the hardest part of life is moving on. When we move on we have to let the good things go and there are fears about the loss of those good things. It's ok to be sad about the change that's coming in your life.
I suggest finding something that inspires you to continue on. It can be the most absurd or unlikely thing that takes you into something new. I could be unexpected or something you never thought would interest you. Even if you try something that seems not right and you just keep going you can see things turn around, then before you know it you are inspired.The thing is to keep looking and don't stop. You have to push through the inertia of what seems like unending sadness and committ to living.
It took many years for me to committ to living. One day I woke up and realized I wanted to live and now that I have committed to living, I take it like a promise. Yes, there has been some bleak moments but then I remember that I already decided to live. I'm older and more practiced, I have children which has also kept me going as I do not want to scar them.
My father killed himself when I was 18. Maybe it solved things for him but it solved nothing for anyone else. It simply left us with no choice but to move on in life without him.
Sometimes the things that kept me going were when I gave my self over in service to helping others. I found that when I reached out to give something to others in need I suddenly felt useful and worthy. Also I joined a club for mentally ill. Even if the things we did seemed kinda stupid at the time, like cooking when I already knew how or doing crafts, it was the sense of acceptance and being with others that pulled me through.
Good luck and take care.
Go see a therapist. They will quickly and efficiently diagnose you and hopefully get you the hlep you need. I was about to lose control a few months ago, and I went and talked to my English teacher, who in turn talked to my guidance counselor, who got me the help I needed.
I am now diagnosed with Dysthymia and am currently on 20mg of Prozac.
But to cope, what you need to do is EXERCISE.
Even if you don't feel like it, exercise. It gets endorphines flowing.
well first of all dont commit suicide. mabe you shold go to your parent house(if they are cool and not aggarvatring) or a close friends house for a few days to rest and get your thoughts together. and mabe you should talk to someone about all this. if you have a therepist you might want to let them know this
You need a reason to live. Maybe someone to love you all the time. Someone who makes you feel real important, that without you life would not be the same. A massage at night a flower by your bedside in the morning. Holding hands on a beautiful beach. I feel the same way as you right now, but when someone really loved me, and cared about me, I FELT GOOD.....
I felt the same as you for so long. I am bipolar and everyday is a struggle, and I agree with one of the comments before me. You need a reason to live. Get a dog or a cat, something that is totally dependent of you. It makes a person feel extremely good inside just interacting with animals. They say a person who pets a dog for five minutes a day are less likely to suffer from depression. I don't know how, I am not a doctor... but having a animal is the best therapy. You make a great friend out of it too, one who is loyal and loves you unconditionally. Get plants to, things that need you to survive, and then ultimately you will feel the will to survive. Go to your local humane society and save a animal, many animals need someone to love them... and before you can feel loved you need to give love.
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