A Fighting Chance?!
Question: It seems no matter how hard I try, my life is never on the right track. Depression seems to run in my family. I've read so many self-help books, seen counselors and taken medications, but I always fall back into the same pattern.
It's almost like I fear success. I'm 25, went to university, but dropped out just before graduation. For four years I was in a relationship with an alcoholic drug user. After we broke up he passed away from an overdose. He kept asking me to get back together, so I feel bad about his death.
I now live in a small town. There's nothing here for me, but it's where my current rude boyfriend lives. I go away to Toronto every couple of weeks and model. People say I have real potential.
I feel lonely, but I can't leave or I'll have no one at all. When I first moved here, I thought I would feel safe, but now I'd rather live in a big city even though the thought scares me. Thank you for listening.
Answers: It seems no matter how hard I try, my life is never on the right track. Depression seems to run in my family. I've read so many self-help books, seen counselors and taken medications, but I always fall back into the same pattern.
It's almost like I fear success. I'm 25, went to university, but dropped out just before graduation. For four years I was in a relationship with an alcoholic drug user. After we broke up he passed away from an overdose. He kept asking me to get back together, so I feel bad about his death.
I now live in a small town. There's nothing here for me, but it's where my current rude boyfriend lives. I go away to Toronto every couple of weeks and model. People say I have real potential.
I feel lonely, but I can't leave or I'll have no one at all. When I first moved here, I thought I would feel safe, but now I'd rather live in a big city even though the thought scares me. Thank you for listening.
when you have a nail sticking out of your foot, you can take a medication to cope with the pain, but that only solves part of the problem. The nail has to come out. In the same way, if there is a biological or genetic cause of depression, taking medication solves part of the problem. But you still have to live in a productive way.
Having no one, in comparison to your past boyfriends, is a step up. A drug addict isn't any kind of boyfriend, and neither is a man who puts you down. They are worse than having no one because they take even yourself away.
In The Artist's Way Julia Cameron talks as much about life as about art. She says, "Leap, and the net will appear!" You have contacts in Toronto. Go there. By yourself. If medication helps when you feel down, get it. Surround yourself with vibrant people who make you feel light and positive. Negative people are more than capable of destroying the benefits of medication, counseling, and your own inner light.
As scary as it seems, you might just want to take the risk and make a "new start" in Toronto.
A lot of times a new environment can lead to a new way of looking at life.
You can either leave and start a positive life in toronto, or you can stay where your at and live a miserable life, and then die.. choice is yours
Why not move? Yes , you will be alone at first ... but you're sure to meet people .
Leave your past behind . Look to the future. No husband ,no children , no real ties .
Perfect time to start a new life.