Am I ill mentally? Or just unique?!
Question: I need to go to the hospital soon for a check up.
but I just want to know cuz i'm so confused why they're doing this to me and all.
its just a weird day. and week.
well right now im very happy, though usually im suicidal. so yay uv caught me during a good moment. im obsessed with satanism, till they confiscated my razor i have no way of completing the artwork on me. there is a ratinal side to me of course. i know what im doing is wrong TO THEIR EYES but im in love with doing it. i cut for every mistake i make. I strive to be perfect. and i dunno but my opnions change every hour bcuz im very happy and feel on top of the world and can kill someone and get away with it, but then suddenly i feel i cant do anything and that i should kill myself and get it over and done with. i dont want ppl to think im weird. cuz when im at school i try 2 act like a role model cuz thats' what ppl see me as. not some satan loving freak. am i alright? do i need help? or should i carry on doing whta i love?
Answers: I need to go to the hospital soon for a check up.
but I just want to know cuz i'm so confused why they're doing this to me and all.
its just a weird day. and week.
well right now im very happy, though usually im suicidal. so yay uv caught me during a good moment. im obsessed with satanism, till they confiscated my razor i have no way of completing the artwork on me. there is a ratinal side to me of course. i know what im doing is wrong TO THEIR EYES but im in love with doing it. i cut for every mistake i make. I strive to be perfect. and i dunno but my opnions change every hour bcuz im very happy and feel on top of the world and can kill someone and get away with it, but then suddenly i feel i cant do anything and that i should kill myself and get it over and done with. i dont want ppl to think im weird. cuz when im at school i try 2 act like a role model cuz thats' what ppl see me as. not some satan loving freak. am i alright? do i need help? or should i carry on doing whta i love?
You are mentally ill. It is not normal to want to cut yourself and follow through with it. It is not normal to be suicidal. It is not normal to have up and down mood swings. It is not a matter of "right" or "wrong." What is important to know is that your symptoms signify something wrong with your nervous system and psychological wellbeing. It doesn't make you a "bad" or "evil" person. It makes you someone desperately in need of professional help.
We are all unique, however, what you just described is not the reason you are unique at all. Many, many individuals (increasingly in young people) who have identical symptoms and behave in the same way that you just described. It is called Bi-Polar disorder. Borderline Personality Disorder can also explain it.
You absolutely need help. Please get it as soon as possible.
that si not right for your body
they are doing it to helop you its not healthy or safe
im not really sure i go through the same problems, i feel lonely and depressed at times but usually happy but on the back of my mind i think of suicide, its something that needs to be worked in terms of getting rid of
you need some serious help. Go to this site:
http://psychcentral.com/
You are possible schizophrenic, or something. You need help. Cutting is a sign of instability and trauma. Has something happened to you that you need to deal with? Get your checkup, tell them everything, and get the help you need before you do something you and others might regret. Good luck.
Satan the Enmitous, Satan the Hateful, is the enemy of men...and women...who strive toward God. He messes with them, tries to stop them and block them on their path toward God.
Why and how could you love such a thing?
And why would you want to cut yourself like that?
You need counseling, no doubt. You need therapy...mental therapy.
Your body is a perfect example of natures work and you should not cut it the people from the hospital know this and want to help you stop doing it ~~
consult a doctor
From what i have read there you do seem to be maybe a tad more than unique but it is hard to judge, but plz plz PLZ value your life im sure so many others around you do.
I donno anything about satan. But whenever you feel depressed or feel like cutting yourself then just sit down for a moment somewhere, close your eyes, entwine your fingers with eachother and Just Observe Your Breath. Oh, you'll get lots and lots and lots of thoughts during this. But Cut All Your THOUGHTS Off and Go Back To Observing Your Breath. Do it for as much time as you can. And Before getting up, put your hands on your eyes for 5 seconds. It really helps. A Kid I know used to have the same problem and now he's Ok. Maybe not completely fine, but better than before. You can do this whenever and wherever you want. And the Most Important thing is, have patience. NEVER GIVE IN to the urge to cut yourself. As everyone else said, its not healthy. The process I told you helps stremline your thoughts and consequently your actions. Please Try It.
You might actually be masochistic, wherein you feel pleasure or happiness through being punished or hurt (even by yourself).
Maybe you're just going through a phase. But it may also be possible that you have a chemical imbalance (eg lack of serotonin).
You should really consult a psychologist just to make sure you don't end up hurting yourself or others fatally.