Still imperative I go to an inpatient psychiatric ward if...??!
Question: I've been kind of pondering this for a while...some of it, at least. Sometimes I think about how one day I'll end up having to kill my family to spare them the shame. I think about killing a bunch of random people for the hell of it (kind of like columbine), and I know that it would bring my family a lot of shame, so if I were to kill them as well, they wouldnt have to deal with it, nor my own unavoidable suicide. Now that you know this, my real question is, should I be considering going to an inpatient hospital, even though I'm not currently a danger to myself or others? (though I have taken up self-harm again lately)
*Please, I know these are messed up things to be thinking..so don't bash me for being completely whacked out or tell me about God and his antics.
Answers: I've been kind of pondering this for a while...some of it, at least. Sometimes I think about how one day I'll end up having to kill my family to spare them the shame. I think about killing a bunch of random people for the hell of it (kind of like columbine), and I know that it would bring my family a lot of shame, so if I were to kill them as well, they wouldnt have to deal with it, nor my own unavoidable suicide. Now that you know this, my real question is, should I be considering going to an inpatient hospital, even though I'm not currently a danger to myself or others? (though I have taken up self-harm again lately)
*Please, I know these are messed up things to be thinking..so don't bash me for being completely whacked out or tell me about God and his antics.
You are free to think what ever you want. But if you actually decide to do it then you need to be contained.
You may want to at least see a psychiatrist. Medication may help.
you should
or you should talk to a psychiatrist or therapist. It is not good that you are having these thoughts
You definitely need to check yourself into the hospital. ASAP!!!
These thoughts that you are having are not normal. Sorry to be so blunt but I think you need help. Hopefully everything will work out for you.
Tell me what city you live in, if its riverside California get help, if not then deal with it on your own. I think we all want to kill someone every now and then. Just don't do it around me or my son... good luck buddy.
I was thinking along those same lines, actually exactly along those lines, a year ago.
I spoke up and told people my ideas, they got me help and I worked through it. A year later...I'm here and much happier. Don't get me wrong, sometimes those thoughts cross my mind, but I have learnt to deal with them.
Inpatient is ultimately your choice (and unfortunately your insurances' choice too). But if you think you should go - go. If you want my opinion, yes, I do think an inpatient stay would help you get through the thoughts your having. I know you're not really planning anything, but you never know when things might get out of control and you just snap.