When im sad i feel safe?!
Question: ok so when i feel sad i feel safe & content like as if nothing else can go wrong it can only get better & thats what makes me have hopee & makes me feel a little better... but when im happy i cant even enjoy it because im just anticipating my happiness to end like it always does.. i also always feel like i dont derserve to be happy bc theres so much suffering in the world & why has God chosen me to be happy.. i kno i may sound wierd or crazy but this is how i feel im 17 years old and i feel like i think to much about things im very deep even tho ppl dont think it i dont have a lot of friends because i dont think they think how i think you kno? like im rele deep & connected with myselff well can anyonee help mee? do you feel the same or is it just me.. how can i enjoy my happiness??? all your answers are much appreciated!!
Answers: ok so when i feel sad i feel safe & content like as if nothing else can go wrong it can only get better & thats what makes me have hopee & makes me feel a little better... but when im happy i cant even enjoy it because im just anticipating my happiness to end like it always does.. i also always feel like i dont derserve to be happy bc theres so much suffering in the world & why has God chosen me to be happy.. i kno i may sound wierd or crazy but this is how i feel im 17 years old and i feel like i think to much about things im very deep even tho ppl dont think it i dont have a lot of friends because i dont think they think how i think you kno? like im rele deep & connected with myselff well can anyonee help mee? do you feel the same or is it just me.. how can i enjoy my happiness??? all your answers are much appreciated!!
You're not alone. i understand this feeling. I think there is a strange comfort in sadness particularly if you're used to it. It's safer to be disappointed all the time and just feel bad then get lifted up and then thrown to the ground. The truth is however, that some happiness is lasting, it may have rough patches but it exists. Once you are able to be stable with yourself and know that you're not going to ruin it that will help. Also when you've gotten a tougher skin and can let more things slide you'll realize that you can handle those rough bits and that they don't come as often or as severely and you Can actually allow yourself to be happy and enjoy it. It takes a lot of time but it can happen. It has for me. Don't get me wrong I'm not happy 24/7 but my life and my happiness is a much more stable thing now. I think many people including myself have felt like an outsider for much of their lives. It takes time to find people you really really trust and can let in. Most people have a few really good friends or just one and the rest are casual friends so don't worry too much about that. But as for your inner self that will always be yours and yours alone. Sometimes it's good to find an artistic endeavor that allows you to express it at least to some extent. Good luck and hang in there!
That's whats called being emo (Queer)
Where tight pants, eye liner, side bangs, and walk around listening to horrible bands like My Chemical Romance and Hawthorne Heights.
Then complain while making stupid friendships with people who don't like themselves but in actuality, they don't have it bad at all.
That about sums it up.
i do feel that way at times i feel like if iam deppress i become numb to anything that can or try to hurt me but i also turn my mind on other thing bigger and better things at times because i dont want anyone to defeat me if iam down and out so i think u should turn the posstive in everything u do in your life for the better
I think a lot of people feel this way, but don't admit to it. I think you are questioning a lot of different things and that is normal to do that. I think people can be happy and you shouldn't worry about it. Just try to relax and just be yourself. There is a lot of suffering, so help others by trying to make a difference. You may find people that share similar feelings as you by doing this.
Well, drawing upon one of my recent answers (also in this category), it could be a sort of mental self-schadenfreud. Schadenfreud is when one gets happiness from another's misery. So here's what your situation sounds like to me:
You are only really happy when you are sad, and when you are not sad, you feel the need to be sad again. Right?
This is going to sound old, used, cliched, whatever. But here goes: Enjoy yourself by stopping and smelling the roses. Swing on the swings at the park. Take a walk, but skip. Draw, write, sing, or do something that makes you think of the word "happy." It just takes a little time. You have to think of all the good in the world, instead of dwelling on the bad. Sure, there are sad things in the world, but being those sad things won't help you as a person. I hope this made a difference, and good luck.
this shows your wiser than your age. dont give up and motivation will ehlp you through