I recieved ECT, i feel so bad i did, help?!
Question: Hello, I had 6 ect sessions two years ago. At that time i was depressed and medication didnt help. I gess it did nothing to me, besides of bad memory for awaile.
Anyway, i'm ok now and totally recovered from depression, not because of ect, but because of other things in my life :)
The reason why i'm posting is that i can't get this idea out of my head that i actually underwent this kind of a treatment. I'v seen horror movies where people are tortured with ect and i feel so terrible that it was actully given to me, what a shame. I even think that maybe it damaged my brain somehow, allthough there is now sign it did, but it still feels so bad. My life is going so good right now and this is the only thing that still disturbes me. I feel humiliated of it and don't have guts to tell it to anybody. I just DONT want to think of it anymore.
What do you think, what should i do? Is this some kind of a trauma related symptom? Is it going to heal?
Answers: There is no shame, you needed to try anything to get better-Thank God you are feeling good now focus on the future and let the past stay in the past -Bless You