Help? Anorexia?!
Question: For 4 months now I've been going through a bad time dealing with certain eating disorders. 1 minute I'm fine and I eat like a normal person, but then the thoughts in my head return and I feel like I need to restict food again.
I know all about starvation mode and storing of fat, but it doesn't bother me. I'm prepared to die, if it means I'm thin. I'm getting so depressed because I just can't be normal. It's getting worse too. The longest I've ever been without food is 2 weeks. But then I was force fed by my parents. The thoughts in my head are just too much. It's like I have this other person with me, and she helps me. She tells me what to do, she's a part of me. She controls me and doesn't let me eat until I'm thin enough. I hate my body, and I hate myself. I've eaten today, by choice, but I know that in a few hours I'll look at myself in the mirror and I will hate myself and not eat for 1 week. I spend my life being dizzy, weak and fainting. How can I stop this. I'm so fat though.
Answers: Wow.... You poor thing...
I dont know what your question is..
But why are you letting someone else controll you? Thats definitly not right.
Please get some help. This is not healthy at all for you!
Good luck.