Have any of you ever survived the true torture in your life, like dordtures exis!
Question: because iam right now, im in a dark pit i dont no how to escape.
my nights are as dark as the bottom of a well on a moonless night
seriously.
my goals in life still are to move to spain, or italy or portugal, somewhere sunny near the coast and beach or maybe further out , outside of europe- to start a fresh.......accomplish a good paying job in computers.....find a loving partner....a secure home, financial security etc.
this is my dream still- i deffinetley dont want to stay in england in a council flat on sickness pay owning no possession except a computer & few books.
but i feel trapped, scared that i will - my goals in life seem out of reach - to difficult to reach or it will take a long time...
im already 30 now, i have chronic ptsd and borderline personality disorder.
ive had a really cruel, rough life so far full of tradgedy- ive never been employed - never got any qualifications - never formed any relationships - have a minor criminal record - im at clear disadvantages.
Answers: This question has been posted before, the details are the same. Weren't any o the other answers what you wanted to hear? OK, you are 30 with multiple problems & a horrible history. Welcome to the real world!! Has it occurred to you that while achieving your goals will be difficult, that to remain mired in the place you are now will be even mor difficult?? Yes, it will take time to accomplish, but the time will pass anyway, & you will be happier if you are working toward a goal than just sitting there being a victim. Nothing is easy for most of us, & that's important, because its not about the destination, its about the journey. Set sail, my friend, it will be an interesting ride..