I always feel depressed...?!
Question: like i'll be perfectly happy then like at lunch, someone well tell a story and everyone at the table will be in the sotyr except me, and then i feel so stupid. but this happens everyday and i don't know i just always feel like i'm doing something wrong or dissapointnig someone. and i don't go out with my friends anymore because im too depressed to really do anything, unless i get invited somewhere, which is very rarely since acoording to what some people might say i'm not very "popular" and i don't think anyone wants to be seen with me, unless it's just me being negative again, because that's another thing i don't look at anything from a positive point of view. to me, the glass is never half full it's always half empty.
i lost a lot of my friends due to me being depressed and i don't want to bring this up with anyone because then i'll just feel stupid. i'm also bi-polar
Answers: Do you know what? I think what you're describing there is very familiar to a lot of people. It may seem to you as if everyone else has this amazing social life, and is the life and soul of the party, and you are somehow the outsider looking in.
So many people feel like that! I feel like that, and I know a lot of other people who do. The fact is, the life that you think other people lead is not really the life they do lead. Some are better actors than others, that's all. Underneath it all, we are all desperate to be liked and accepted and wanted.
If I can give you any advice, it would be this: look outwards. Try not to focus on yourself and what others are thinking of you, or what you are thinking about yourself. Focus outwards towards the people you are with. Show an interest in others. As soon as you stop being focused on yourself, people will actually start to take an interest in you too.
Sounds kind of strange, I know, but try it. Show warmth and interest in another person and their life. Be a good listener. In turn, people will be commenting on what a lovely person YOU are! All people really want is someone to take an interest in them. As soon as you do that, people will want to be around you.
I hope this helps in some way. I know depression. I have been there and I have beaten it.
*edit* Ok, I can see you what is happening here. Your envy and bitterness is getting in the way of your being involved in social events. I know this is hard, but step back and look at this from their point of view. At the moment you are completely focused on your own pain and suffering, and you are jealous of their social lives.
Would you invite you along? Sorry to be so blunt, but you need to look objectively at this. Stop focusing on your own pain and start looking outwards to others. If you are miserable all the time, you wont be invited along to things. Only you can break out of this mold you have created for yourself, and you CAN do it! Start a new you, and start it now. Stop envying others' lives and get a good life for yourself.