I'm becoming suicidal!!! AGAIN!!! Please help?(Long)?!
Question: I'm becoming suicidal!!! AGAIN!!! Please help!?(Long)!?
Right, I'm a 15year old male-to-female transsexual living as a guy currently, I fancy girls so I'm straight as a guy and friends and school life is great!.
No when I was around 9 i first started getting urges of wanting to be a girl, I was also getting bullied at the time for no reason, I just wanted to escape, and I attempted suicide, kind of both unfortunately and fortunately, the kids who bullied me wouldn't let me escape that easily, but for a 9year old I think suicide is a extreme!.
Now in the pat 3weeks I've been coming out to my mates, I've fallen out with one and what really pisses me off is she keeps shouting it out that I'm transsexual, I told my exgirlfriend this week, lets just say she's left me heartbroken and our friendship is over, there's still a tiny bit of bullying at school, I'm also single and I the kind of person who starts getting miserable after a week or 2 of being single and after a month I usually end up hating myself!.
Now I've got all this at school and at home my Mum's even worse, I tried coming out to her a year ago, the shouted at me before I'd even finished hoping she'd scared it out of me, she's never in the house, she's either out partying or working and just dumping my sisters on me, the only time she ever talks to me is to shout at me over something that isn't my fault, I mean last night she took the computer off of me cos some retard put their pots in the bowl after I'd washed the pots, so my Mum told me off for not doing the pots when I did!. I f I have something important to tell my mum, she won't listen, she either says, 'Oh you interupted my programme for that' or shouts at me!. At school I'm getting told off cos of her, she won't read my letters from school or sign my journel and I'm getting the blame!.
I just can't cope, and I'm starting to feel suicidal again and trust me, I attempted when i was 9 so I'm 15 now, there's no saying I won't do it again now!. Please help!?Www@Answer-Health@Com
No when I was around 9 i first started getting urges of wanting to be a girl, I was also getting bullied at the time for no reason, I just wanted to escape, and I attempted suicide, kind of both unfortunately and fortunately, the kids who bullied me wouldn't let me escape that easily, but for a 9year old I think suicide is a extreme!.
Now in the pat 3weeks I've been coming out to my mates, I've fallen out with one and what really pisses me off is she keeps shouting it out that I'm transsexual, I told my exgirlfriend this week, lets just say she's left me heartbroken and our friendship is over, there's still a tiny bit of bullying at school, I'm also single and I the kind of person who starts getting miserable after a week or 2 of being single and after a month I usually end up hating myself!.
Now I've got all this at school and at home my Mum's even worse, I tried coming out to her a year ago, the shouted at me before I'd even finished hoping she'd scared it out of me, she's never in the house, she's either out partying or working and just dumping my sisters on me, the only time she ever talks to me is to shout at me over something that isn't my fault, I mean last night she took the computer off of me cos some retard put their pots in the bowl after I'd washed the pots, so my Mum told me off for not doing the pots when I did!. I f I have something important to tell my mum, she won't listen, she either says, 'Oh you interupted my programme for that' or shouts at me!. At school I'm getting told off cos of her, she won't read my letters from school or sign my journel and I'm getting the blame!.
I just can't cope, and I'm starting to feel suicidal again and trust me, I attempted when i was 9 so I'm 15 now, there's no saying I won't do it again now!. Please help!?Www@Answer-Health@Com
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I read 1 of the comments saying that you were a pretty good writer and that's when I thought!.!.!. Hey, better than killin yourself, write about it!. Make it a memoir! Write about it what you are going through and all that stuff!. Who knows, maybe you're going through this hell to help some1 that you will see struggling later on and that will need you to know what they are going through!. You may not see it now but there is a reason for everything and all this will just make you a better person!.
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go to another trusted adult or somebody that will help!. you could get depression pills!. I know what your going through with the suicide thing!. So your not alone=]Www@Answer-Health@Com
sometimes things can only get better the future is always bright even if you cant see itWww@Answer-Health@Com
oh no suicide!?!?!?!?!?!? if you was gonna do it you wouldnt be typing!. proven fact if you was serious you'd just do it!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
I cant possibly know what u r going through!. But, if you don't mind I would like to give u my input if it is ok!. It sounds like you are a wonderful person and it wold be tragic if you took your life!. hings seem like they wont get better!. I promise they will!. As a matter of fact I guarantee it!. If you wait out the bad times it does get better, and you get better too!!! In a couple years you will move out and things will be soo different for you!. here are alot of people just like you and they are usually very happy to accept someone new !. Have you looked for a support group!? there are some who meet on the internet and some in person!. Fifteen is a really hard age!. I was there once and I was miserable!. Everything is confusing!. Now add to that the fact that you are in the wrong body, and life feels like it's a mess!. The future holds many great things for you that you will miss out on if you die!. You will find love, happiness and peace in this life if you let it find you!. Be patient!. I swear to you it will get better, maybe not right away, but you have a whole life ahead of you to live!. This is a great time to be different!. People are becoming so accepting!. You do need help if you are thinking about suicide!. Please tell someone you trust!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
when you own mom is ignoring you, that sucks !.
i feel fo r you man!. well!. i wouold try to find some transgender support group where you can share the trials and tribulations of your plight !. you will make friends there and get comformtable!.
dont let them get you man!. you aginst the world!. you go show them!. you can lick it!. find pople in you situation!. support group,
mental health psoecialst, social services!. etc etc etc!.
good luck!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
i feel fo r you man!. well!. i wouold try to find some transgender support group where you can share the trials and tribulations of your plight !. you will make friends there and get comformtable!.
dont let them get you man!. you aginst the world!. you go show them!. you can lick it!. find pople in you situation!. support group,
mental health psoecialst, social services!. etc etc etc!.
good luck!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
You should be a writer!. What you wrote was pretty interesting reading so you seem to have some talent there!. There are online sites where you can post your stories for free such as sffworld!.com and other sites!. Developing this skill, your creative right!? will get you a career in the future, but starting now is good!. Good reading!. Some people overreact, but don't get mad or upset just because someone overreacted about pots or pans or dishes!. Don't judge them, just stay calm, and be a good person!. Two wrongs don't make a right!. Don't lash out in anger just because that is what they did, over a few dishes!. Doesn't make you in more emotional control at all!.
Insofar as your dating advice I would advice just not dating until you are 18 or 20 perhaps!. Well, not seriously dating!. Maybe dates are fine with people that aren't interested in a serious relationship at 15!.
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What I was trying to say is you grab the attention of your audience and you hold the attention of your audience!. Before!. Not articulating clearly!. When you write!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
Insofar as your dating advice I would advice just not dating until you are 18 or 20 perhaps!. Well, not seriously dating!. Maybe dates are fine with people that aren't interested in a serious relationship at 15!.
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What I was trying to say is you grab the attention of your audience and you hold the attention of your audience!. Before!. Not articulating clearly!. When you write!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
I have read your entire post and there is a way your problem can be solved!. But I'd like to converse with you on a personal level instead of an open medium like this!. My yahoo id is jay_thextreme83 and my email is jay_thextreme83@yahoo!.co!.in feel free to contact me!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
i cant say i agree with the whole transexual deal but my answer will be short and sweet
WHY WOULD YOU LET THEM WIN!?
use the nutz u have (i think) and stand up for yerself yer 15 so the fact you say yer a transexual i dont beleive!.!.i think yer a bit confused but yer 15 you have about 5 more hellacious years before yer years will start going alot faster then u want them to and the school kids will be gone in all seriousness why would u throw it away!?!.!.!.it took me 130 years to make it to 21 and now im 33 which from 21 i swear took about 5 years!.!.!.!.suicide is a cop out from life which should be cherished and when u get up nearer to yer 30su will realize how awesome it really is!.!.!.!.u only get 1 chance at life (that you will remember anyways) my mother was a drunken **** dont let someone that hates life make you hate yers!Www@Answer-Health@Com
WHY WOULD YOU LET THEM WIN!?
use the nutz u have (i think) and stand up for yerself yer 15 so the fact you say yer a transexual i dont beleive!.!.i think yer a bit confused but yer 15 you have about 5 more hellacious years before yer years will start going alot faster then u want them to and the school kids will be gone in all seriousness why would u throw it away!?!.!.!.it took me 130 years to make it to 21 and now im 33 which from 21 i swear took about 5 years!.!.!.!.suicide is a cop out from life which should be cherished and when u get up nearer to yer 30su will realize how awesome it really is!.!.!.!.u only get 1 chance at life (that you will remember anyways) my mother was a drunken **** dont let someone that hates life make you hate yers!Www@Answer-Health@Com
well, I didn't read all of your post here, but I do feel you should seek help if you feel suicidal!. Look up "suicide hotline" on google, and there will be a phone number for you to call!. You can also call your local United Way, and ask for help, they will refer you, and your family does not have to be involved!. If United Way is not there, then you can go to your local government, and there will be a program that will assist you!. Writing on Yahoo Answers will not get you the help you need, and a cry out for help should be answered!. Seek adults you trust, teachers you like, or someone you trust, that you can speak with!. You may want to look into some holistic help, try some 5-HTP, it will level out your serotnin levels, and help you cope with everyday life!. Believe me, there are people with many problems, and we just have to find the right path to salvation!. You will find it, and love life, it is too short to throw away!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
please don't kill yourself, it is not your authority!. God is in control, he is the giver and the taker of life!. I am so sorry that you are going through this terrible time in your life, but you must be strong and just start praying for your will to live, i know you have one!. I am a mother of a twelve year old and i can't imagine the grief that you feel over your mom doing the things you say she is doing!. You are here for a reason, god wants you to live!. It must be so hard for you to grasp but when you feel like ending your life, remember these words that i said!. God is the giver and the taker of life, it is in his time not yours!. I am not certain about what the bible says concerning suicide but i do know that you want to go to heaven, so please don't do this ok, i care about you ok!. and this is what god wants you to hear, tell everyone a stranger saved your life!. Tell them you listened to the voice of someone who cares, tell them that you never actually even heard this person speak, tell your mom that you love her!. Ask god to show you the way!. You better listen to me, this is no accident, icame across your cry for help when i posted a question a bit ago, i wasn't planning on even getting on the computer tonight!. I want to know how you are doing, s!.shivers38@yahoo!.com email me ok, LIFE IS GOOD!Www@Answer-Health@Com
Wow! No wonder you're struggling, there are quite some issues in your 'question'!. Firstly, the transsexual issue - I wonder if this is a more a subconcious desire to be treated like your sisters rather than have the responsibility of them off-loaded onto you!? I think perhaps this issue will become clearer when the other issues are addressed!. Bullying, especially at school is soul destroying and it's very sad you were not only a victim of it, but that it made you feel suicidal!. Teenage romantic relationships are arguably the most intense, and difficult to cope with even without all the other stuff going on in your life!. There is no easy answer other than making helathy relationship choices which lessen the chance of break-up/heartbreak, but we all do go through it!. Your home situation is I suspect the root cause of most if not all your troubles!. Either talk to a relative you can trust about the responsibility your Mum puts on you, and her not listening or supporting you, or talk to a school Counsellor or Social Worker!. Someone needs to be listening to you and supporting you through the minefield that are the teenage years, especially since you are again feeling so desperate!. I sympathise somewhat with your Mum who obviously is struggling herself with her responsibilities, but that doesn't mean it's okay for her to push them onto you!. Please know you are a worthwhile human being who's having a tough time, but with help you will get through this!. I wish you peace and happiness!.Www@Answer-Health@Com