I feel shame all the time?!
Question: I feel shame all the time!?
I was always a very sensitive and shy child and when I went to school I was verbally abused by other children for about twelve years, I did not have any one to talk to so I just bottled up the hurt!.
Now for the previous two years I wake up feeling worthless and with an intense feeling of shame in my heart and abdomen!. I get hallucinations of people looking at me and judging me, this will then be followed by an intense burning feeling it's not physical though it's the kind of feeling you'd get if you realised you'd lost your wallet, I get this about 2-3 times a minute!.
I cannot continue my life like this, I am not threatening to commit suicide I will not do that but if it continues maybe in about five years I will not have my wits around me any more because already I feel like smashing something!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
Now for the previous two years I wake up feeling worthless and with an intense feeling of shame in my heart and abdomen!. I get hallucinations of people looking at me and judging me, this will then be followed by an intense burning feeling it's not physical though it's the kind of feeling you'd get if you realised you'd lost your wallet, I get this about 2-3 times a minute!.
I cannot continue my life like this, I am not threatening to commit suicide I will not do that but if it continues maybe in about five years I will not have my wits around me any more because already I feel like smashing something!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
Answers:
This is one of many very serious outcome of the effects of bullying along with feeling terrible, worthless, and like you have no self esteem!. Bullying can take everything from you even if you do not realize it at the time!.
you are not having hallucinations it is just a paranoid thought that everyone is looking at you and judging you which is from your experiences of being bullied as a child!.
These thoughts and feelings have led many to do terrible things!.
You should go to your school counselor and they will be able to help you and teach you coping mechanisms and ways to deal with your pain !. Just do not do anything stupid, smashing something will not solve anything it actually makes you more prone to aggression and that is never good!.
Just hang in there!. You are Not alone and there are people who can and will help youWww@Answer-Health@Com
you are not having hallucinations it is just a paranoid thought that everyone is looking at you and judging you which is from your experiences of being bullied as a child!.
These thoughts and feelings have led many to do terrible things!.
You should go to your school counselor and they will be able to help you and teach you coping mechanisms and ways to deal with your pain !. Just do not do anything stupid, smashing something will not solve anything it actually makes you more prone to aggression and that is never good!.
Just hang in there!. You are Not alone and there are people who can and will help youWww@Answer-Health@Com
You have obviously recognised you have a problem , which is the first step to getting your life back on track
Seek proper medical help , first from your GP , who should then ensure you get the proper counselling
Its a real shame that this wasn't spotted whilst at school; as by now you would be living a much happier life
However it is certainly not too late so seek that help now
Good LuckWww@Answer-Health@Com
Seek proper medical help , first from your GP , who should then ensure you get the proper counselling
Its a real shame that this wasn't spotted whilst at school; as by now you would be living a much happier life
However it is certainly not too late so seek that help now
Good LuckWww@Answer-Health@Com
yeah, I see what you are up to!. I had this problem too!. Well, back in the days, I was paranoid and I had this same feeling of people judging and criticizing me!. Well, time passed on and now I don't really care what people say!. Let people say whatever they want!. All you have to do is to ignore it!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
Gosh you poor thing! You are the perfect ex of why kids should not pick on others! Sounds like you need to see a Therapist to talk about some of your feelings!. They will also get you on some medication that will help too!. In the mean time, hang out with some ppl that love you!.
*hugs*
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im really sorry that you feel this way!. i know it must be horrible t o live that way!. all i can say is that i felt that way at one time!. but after a long time of drug abuse and other things, i became a christian and no lie!. my shame has disapeared!. sure i feel bad about things sometimes, and guilty, but as far as shame ,that went away as soon as i accepted christ!. you may not be a christian, or may have heard a lot of things about " so called christians" but this stuff is for real and it really is a life changer!. so if there is any thing that i can help with let me know!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
As I've said in one of your last posts, I'm pretty sure that you are quite young!.
Trust me, these feelings will pass as you get older!.
Don't fret, son!. Seriously!. Chill!.
There are people far worse off in this world than any of us on here!.!.!.!. take it easy!.
If you are feeling vulnerable, "Crankers" answer is most certainly not the way forward!. Smoking pot makes you paranoid!.!.!.!. I know from past experience, and I most definitely wouldn't recommend anything stronger!. Your avatar looks like it might be Amsterdam!.!.!. pot capital of Europe!.
If you smoke pot too much, all of your anxieties will be amplified many, many times!.!.!.!.and you only have yourself to blame!. Give that sh!t up!. I did!.
Honestly!.
I know!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
Trust me, these feelings will pass as you get older!.
Don't fret, son!. Seriously!. Chill!.
There are people far worse off in this world than any of us on here!.!.!.!. take it easy!.
If you are feeling vulnerable, "Crankers" answer is most certainly not the way forward!. Smoking pot makes you paranoid!.!.!.!. I know from past experience, and I most definitely wouldn't recommend anything stronger!. Your avatar looks like it might be Amsterdam!.!.!. pot capital of Europe!.
If you smoke pot too much, all of your anxieties will be amplified many, many times!.!.!.!.and you only have yourself to blame!. Give that sh!t up!. I did!.
Honestly!.
I know!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
I strongly recommend you seek help from a trained counselor, possibly via your doctor who may be able to refer you, or by contacting a support group where you will be able to talk out your feelings with others who have gone through similar traumas!.
As for support groups, I'm guessing you're about 19 or 20 years old!. There are sure to be groups and people out there that can help you with self-esteem issues caused by bullying!. Please do an online search and either phone or email whoever runs a local group to have a preliminary chat so they can help you build the confidence to visit the group (whoever runs it should certainly be able to spare time for a new member needing reassurance to come along to their first meeting)!.
Please do seek help in some way as by talking about all you have gone through and learning from others with similar experiences, you will come to realise you are a good person with so much to give and enjoy from the world!. Even if that seems a million light-years away now, take the first step by finding a support-group and / or visiting your doctor!. If your doctor prescribes drugs rather than referral to a counsellor, I'd suggest giving them a miss and sticking with the support-group as drugs rarely help in the long run!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
As for support groups, I'm guessing you're about 19 or 20 years old!. There are sure to be groups and people out there that can help you with self-esteem issues caused by bullying!. Please do an online search and either phone or email whoever runs a local group to have a preliminary chat so they can help you build the confidence to visit the group (whoever runs it should certainly be able to spare time for a new member needing reassurance to come along to their first meeting)!.
Please do seek help in some way as by talking about all you have gone through and learning from others with similar experiences, you will come to realise you are a good person with so much to give and enjoy from the world!. Even if that seems a million light-years away now, take the first step by finding a support-group and / or visiting your doctor!. If your doctor prescribes drugs rather than referral to a counsellor, I'd suggest giving them a miss and sticking with the support-group as drugs rarely help in the long run!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
I know how you feel,
don't worry,
no one will be looking and judging you in a bad way,
you are just hallucinating,
if you don't want to think about it,
then THINK HAPPY THOUGHTS,
think anything that makes you happy in a general way that
makes you feel motivated and thoughtful!.!.!.
I know how it feels,
but the next time you feel like that,
try to draw your feeling onto a piece of whiteBLANC paper,
it feels good,
or Try Praying,
Praying Works, and God will help you overcome all your problems,
God Bless your heart forever and ever,
God Bless and Loves you!.!.!.
For you are a Very much Special Human being!.!.!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
don't worry,
no one will be looking and judging you in a bad way,
you are just hallucinating,
if you don't want to think about it,
then THINK HAPPY THOUGHTS,
think anything that makes you happy in a general way that
makes you feel motivated and thoughtful!.!.!.
I know how it feels,
but the next time you feel like that,
try to draw your feeling onto a piece of whiteBLANC paper,
it feels good,
or Try Praying,
Praying Works, and God will help you overcome all your problems,
God Bless your heart forever and ever,
God Bless and Loves you!.!.!.
For you are a Very much Special Human being!.!.!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
i've got the same thing- and i thought the only way i could get over it was drinking and smoking weed!.!.!.
but i still felt like all eyes were on me, sizing me up and judging me!.!.!.
i tried hanging out with people that look very outrageous and then wore drab clothes so i would fade into the background-
i panic before leaving the house, im not afraid of outside-
i just don't want to have to see or deal with alot of people!.!.!.!.
smoking helped!.!.!. but i quit!.!.!.
uhm
maybe you could try one of the things that failed meWww@Answer-Health@Com
but i still felt like all eyes were on me, sizing me up and judging me!.!.!.
i tried hanging out with people that look very outrageous and then wore drab clothes so i would fade into the background-
i panic before leaving the house, im not afraid of outside-
i just don't want to have to see or deal with alot of people!.!.!.!.
smoking helped!.!.!. but i quit!.!.!.
uhm
maybe you could try one of the things that failed meWww@Answer-Health@Com
You seem to be suffering form Post Traumatic Stress Disorder!. I highly suggest seeing a therapist!. Specifically one who specialists in Cognitive-Behavioral Therapy!. They help sort out your distorted thoughts that were probably created by the abuse!. I am a very sensitive person as well so even if i wasn't being called bad names but was criticized in some way i would crumble!. So to avoid these feelings i began to avoid people!. But then i got help and I'm better then i was before!. I also was put on Paxil by a psychiatrist!.
oh and that 'i lost my wallet' feeling is a panic attack which can be decreased with medicationWww@Answer-Health@Com
oh and that 'i lost my wallet' feeling is a panic attack which can be decreased with medicationWww@Answer-Health@Com
It sounds like part of what you are experiencing is anxiety!. There are all kinds of anxiety disorders!. I would guess that when you were teased and verbally abused as a child, you felt ashamed and maybe also anxious when you anticipated it was going to happen!. Now as an adult you are remembering that on a physical level - maybe not conciously thinking about it, but still your body is remembering what it was like to experience that and feel those emotions!.
Have you had therapy!? It might be good now to go back and talk about what it was like to go through that and work through some of that and find out what is making you feel so shameful!. There are lots of medications that can help you with the physical stuff you are experiencing, but ultimately, those feelings will not go away unless you acknowledge them and work through them, sorry to say! Please do something about it now and don't waste any more time!. I wish you luck and hope things get better for you!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
Have you had therapy!? It might be good now to go back and talk about what it was like to go through that and work through some of that and find out what is making you feel so shameful!. There are lots of medications that can help you with the physical stuff you are experiencing, but ultimately, those feelings will not go away unless you acknowledge them and work through them, sorry to say! Please do something about it now and don't waste any more time!. I wish you luck and hope things get better for you!.Www@Answer-Health@Com