Self injury/cutting & burning?!
Question: Self injury/cutting & burning!?
so i guess i'm depressed & crazy!. if i get even just a little upset i freak out then cut!. my mom and her best friend (my teacher) already know, they found out my mistake about a month ago!. noone was ever supposed to find out, no i am not doing this for attention or lying to myself!. this morning my mom told me before she went to work that we had an "appointment" this afternoon & i reallly dont want to go!. i have been so much no one could even begin to imagine!. and i have finally found something that helps!. cutting and burning is what gets me through life!. & i dont want to stop!. i have been soing this since the 7th grade when i was 12!.!. is was off & on but now it's an everyday thing that is addicting and getting deeper; i am 15 in 10th grade!. idk what to do!.!. i have really bad mood lashes too like i'll be the happiest person ever then out of nowhere i'll totally freak out & go crazy!. i have bad dreams every night & flash backs of the worst things!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
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first of all you aren't crazy!. unfortunatly self-injury is all to common!. I just stopped it a month ago after almost 5 years of doing it!. I started when I was 12 and I'm almost 17 now!. It took a very long time before anyone found out!. There are many reasons to why I started cutting/burning!. The main reason people cut is because they would rather hurt physically then emotionally!. Emotional pain hurts so much more and so much deeper than any physical pain ever could!. Believe me I know what you are going through!. I would cut over anything that made me even slightly upset even if that meant I spilled a cup of coffee on the counter!. It is actually physically addicting!. This is because when you're body gets hurt physically it releases endorphines and adrenaline!. Your body becomes addicted and dependent on your natural body chemicals!. I also was one person that no one ever expected it from!. I appeared to be one of the most together, happy, mature teenager!. I was happy on the out and screaming on the in!. Most people that cut aren't the typical people that everyone thinks are!. People think the only people that SI are the "goth" type people!. When in reality a majority of SIers are people that are popular, well liked, nice, and seemingly happy with nothing wrong!. I have had nightmares and flash backs ever since I was younger!. The more stuff that has happened the worse the nightmares have gotten!. I now have to live with scars as a constant reminder of a terrible, terrible time in my life!. Take that in to considerationg to, scars aren't something that will just go away once the cutting/burning stops!. There are some support websites you can also go on for people that SI!. It is so, so encouraging to talk to other people who are in the same boat!. It is said that 1 out of 4 teens in the US has done some kind of self injury!. I really encourage you to check out a couple websites like: www!.self-injury!.net, www!.gabrielle!.self-injury!.net!. The self-injury!.net I think will help you understand a little bit more about cutting and stuff!. www!.gabrielle!.self-injury!.net is a forum for people who Si, who have friends or family that SI, etc!. Check em out I think you'll find them really helpful!. If you ever need anyone to talk to or you want me to explain more of why I cut(I didn't want to get in to public detail) just e-mail me!. hang in there hun!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
Therapy will help you cope with life - so that you do not need to cut in order to "get through life!." As you've noted, self-injury is addicting, but you can break this cycle and learn new ways to survive day to day without permanently harming yourself!. It isn't hard, but it is very worth it!. The pain and relief you receive from cutting lasts a few hours!. The scars will last you your life!. Trust me!.
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Get some counseling and do not be afraid to go!. They are there to help you and in the end your life will be much better!. Release your anger or pain in some other ways than hurting yourself!. You need to open up about what you are going through!. Don't deny a great opportunity for help, many don't get the chance!.
And remember, you might think your life is bad!. But the harsh reality is it's probably not as bad as you think!. Think of all the people that are REALLY in a shitty situation!. Soldiers with PTSD, kids dieing of starvation, etc!.!.!.
Good luck!. The glass is half full not half empty!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
And remember, you might think your life is bad!. But the harsh reality is it's probably not as bad as you think!. Think of all the people that are REALLY in a shitty situation!. Soldiers with PTSD, kids dieing of starvation, etc!.!.!.
Good luck!. The glass is half full not half empty!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
****, it's like looking at my own diary (if I kept a diary, which I don't)!.
You sound a lot like me!. I've had severe anxiety for thirteen yrs!. It eventually lead to depression in which I was/am suicidal and commit self harm!. (I dig holes in my legs!. Lovely!.) I have violent dreams every time I'm asleep and have never believed I'd live through my twenties!. I'm twenty yrs old right now!.
Nobody even guessed I had depression!. I was an expert at masking it--and still do on occasion!.
This thing you say about flash-backs interests me!. Email me about that, 'cause if it's what I think it is (something I have) you Really need some help!. Not that you don't already, sweetie!. ^^; It's just!.!.!.yeah!. Just email me about that flashback thing!.
I'm getting treated!. Have been for over a year now!. I'm seeing a counselor, a psychiatrist, and now a psychotherapist because the first two are at a loss for what to do with me!. ^^; I'm complicated!.
I know what you're saying about the self harm!. It's really a tension releaser!. It's funny, I only do it a little now, not nearly to the extent that i used to!. Now, looking back, I remember doing it; I remember the pain/relief it brought!.!.!.!.but for the life of me, I can't remember what it LOOKED like!. O!.o S'crazy!.
Go to the thing this afternoon!. You'll hate it at first!. Hell, at other appointments later on, you'll hate it!. But not all the time! It's that depression mood-swing!. I have unipolar depression which makes me jump from highs to lows to everywhere in between!. It's sort of like bipolar but without the mania!. (Damn!. I could use some mania) jking!.
Anyway, go to this thing!. Cooperate as best you can!. I'd been gouging for over 3 1/2 yrs!. It took me over another year--with psychiatric help--before I was able to get to the point am I now where I'm only doing it a little!.
And know what else!? I've got scars!. BAD scars that will never go away, completely covering my legs!. I have to wear a bathing suit, skirts, and shorts at some point (it can get hot where I live)!. You know what kind of looks I'm getting from people!? What questions they're going to be asking!? My mom wants me to get laser treatment but the damage is too extensive!. These things will be here for the rest of my life, reminding me of a horrible time in my life when the only way I could find "happiness" was mutilating myself!. Not a pleasant reminder!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
You sound a lot like me!. I've had severe anxiety for thirteen yrs!. It eventually lead to depression in which I was/am suicidal and commit self harm!. (I dig holes in my legs!. Lovely!.) I have violent dreams every time I'm asleep and have never believed I'd live through my twenties!. I'm twenty yrs old right now!.
Nobody even guessed I had depression!. I was an expert at masking it--and still do on occasion!.
This thing you say about flash-backs interests me!. Email me about that, 'cause if it's what I think it is (something I have) you Really need some help!. Not that you don't already, sweetie!. ^^; It's just!.!.!.yeah!. Just email me about that flashback thing!.
I'm getting treated!. Have been for over a year now!. I'm seeing a counselor, a psychiatrist, and now a psychotherapist because the first two are at a loss for what to do with me!. ^^; I'm complicated!.
I know what you're saying about the self harm!. It's really a tension releaser!. It's funny, I only do it a little now, not nearly to the extent that i used to!. Now, looking back, I remember doing it; I remember the pain/relief it brought!.!.!.!.but for the life of me, I can't remember what it LOOKED like!. O!.o S'crazy!.
Go to the thing this afternoon!. You'll hate it at first!. Hell, at other appointments later on, you'll hate it!. But not all the time! It's that depression mood-swing!. I have unipolar depression which makes me jump from highs to lows to everywhere in between!. It's sort of like bipolar but without the mania!. (Damn!. I could use some mania) jking!.
Anyway, go to this thing!. Cooperate as best you can!. I'd been gouging for over 3 1/2 yrs!. It took me over another year--with psychiatric help--before I was able to get to the point am I now where I'm only doing it a little!.
And know what else!? I've got scars!. BAD scars that will never go away, completely covering my legs!. I have to wear a bathing suit, skirts, and shorts at some point (it can get hot where I live)!. You know what kind of looks I'm getting from people!? What questions they're going to be asking!? My mom wants me to get laser treatment but the damage is too extensive!. These things will be here for the rest of my life, reminding me of a horrible time in my life when the only way I could find "happiness" was mutilating myself!. Not a pleasant reminder!.Www@Answer-Health@Com