What can i do???? I am in a massive hole?!


Question: What can i do!?!?!?!? I am in a massive hole!?
I have had OCD for 4 years and life is a nightmare!. i have also been diagnosed with being bi-polar and lately i have been getting majorly paranoid about my weight and havent been eating properly!.I have self harmed for 2 years!. I have been in hospital i see psycologists all the time and nothing helps!. I am trying my best to get better but i cant seem to be able to!. I am always at the doctor and lately my mum has been getting fed up with me!. I know it is very hard on her too but she doesnt seem to get that i cant just stop it!. She feels like i am doing it despite her!. i have spoken to her about it and other people but helps!.
when i have highs my mum gets so annoyed she says she will kick me out!. when i have lows she says i am too much work and she wil kick me out!. I have ben on thousands of tablets but none help and i have just been taken off some for side effects!. I shower for 4 hours per day so my skin is red raw and i am always so tired from my ups downs and worrying!. what can i doWww@Answer-Health@Com


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You poor thing, what hell you must be going through!.I can understand a lot of what you are saying as i have been battling depression for many years and many people do not really understand the seriousness of it!. Unfortunately for you, you are obviously really suffering and i can imagine you are feeling trapped and like there is no way forward!. I have found myself wondering over the years if this is all there is to life and you can probably understand that when you really analyse something you become obsessive and ultimately the answers you come up with are not favourable!
You don't say (and i can understand fully that it is difficult to mention in depth details to the world!) whether there was a trigger for your OCD and Bipolar!. Seeing Psychiatrists will only help if you let them in, and i don't mean only letting them know a bit of you, you have to let them understand exactly who you are however silly you may think you sound!. As for pills etc, many have views on this!. I for one think that anti depressants helped to unfog things so i was able to move forward!. I am not cured and i deal with demons on a regular basis!. I have self harmed, i have tried to overdose, i have highs and lows, so you are not alone!.
I presume your mum must care for you an awful lot, she has been through all this with you and yes, she is probably so frustrated that she cannot take the pain and suffering away from her child!. Its no wonder she lashes out at times saying she will throw you out!. Understand that she is going through it to and when she bought you into the world she would have done anything to keep you safe and out of harms way!. She can see that she can't do that and probably feels useless!. I know my Mum did!.
You must try and focus on the positives in your life, speak to the counsellors, take the pills and above all, believe you are worth something!. I don't pretend that it is easy, it's not, but you have come this far and the fact that you have sat and written on this forum shows that you are open to help!. Be honest with yourself and honest with others about how you feel and why you feel the way you do!.
I used to think Counsellors and psychiatrists were a load of crap!. They sit there pretending to undersdtand and you sit there thinking, "you're getting paid to listen to me moan" you don't trust them and as a result you never move forward!. Contrary to what you might think, they are there to help, and a good one is worth their weight in gold!. If you are not happy with your current ones, go elsewhere until you find someone you feel that you connect with!.
Don't be too hard on yourself, you are obviously suffering and you need to find a way to release this without harming yourself or others around you!. Again, easier said than done, but it can be done!.
I will probably be on medication for the rest of my life and i still have bleak moments but remembr your family, friends and others who care and love you!. You are no doubt a very special person and you need to maybe take some time out for yourself at a sanctuary of some sort!. Ask your counsellor about this and they may recommend places!. I did this, but chickened out at the last minute, i actually went and stayed with my counsllor for a week! Being away from the norm helped, but knowing my family and friends were only 15 minutes away was reassuring!.
I don't know if i have helped at all, but you are not alone and things will get easier, you have to put your trust in your self!. Feel free to email me!.
I hope you are able to move forward and beat your demons!. Best wishes xWww@Answer-Health@Com

This is never easy, you have reached rock bottom by the sounds of it !.!.!. and now you need some help, go and speak with a doctor and get some help before things get any worse !.!.!. there is help out there and it does work !.!.!. I know how it feels having been there myself !.!.!. I really can do no more than that and wish u the best of luck !.!.!.Www@Answer-Health@Com

Maybe in-patient treament is what you need!. maybe you need to be in a facility that can handle your illness and give the maximum treatment you sound like you need!.Www@Answer-Health@Com





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