How do I do this?!
Question: How do I do this!?
I've been diagnosed with Post traumatic stress, paranoid personality disorder, major depression, borderline bipolar, and had a bout with post partum from a miscarriage, i get the results of the MMPI next friday and find out what other personality disorders i may or may not have!. I turn 18 in 2 weeks!. Its really depressing to hear that my life is never gonna be normal probably and that i cant have a relationship with people becaue i always think theyre trying to hurt me!. i was raped several times, and have been abused by 2 of my boyfriends, and thats why i cant trust people!. even people i know that love me!. Ive hurt people because i didnt trust them and wouldnt let them help me, and sometimes i said hurtful things to them because i thought they were against me!. some women at my church tried for so long to help me until they found out that i had psychological problems beyond depression!. one of them is the one i was so hurtful towards and she's also the one i confided everything in!. onlyWww@Answer-Health@Com
Answers:
Wow!. You have certainly been through a lot and have a lot to deal with as you seek to move forward!. I too will pray for you!.
You are in therapy, and that's good!.
It is not surprising that you have trouble trusting others!.
I'm bi-polar and have been on Lithium for 20 years, and I wouldn't be without it!. It took away my depressions, and they have never come back!
On what to say to the lady, with whom you used to be able to talk!. I'm a little confused; is she the one you were close to and wound up hurting!? I will assume that!. Please feel free to modify my quote (coming next) if you need to!. I would say something like this: "Please forgive me!. I was wrong!. I said hurtful things!. I miss so much talking to you!. Will you give me another chance!?" And later, "Can I have a hug!?"
You have so much going on, some many problems to fight against, you definitely need to maintain therapy and probably medication too--you're probably already doing that!.
I will add two things:
1!. I would strongly recommend that you learn and become skilled at cognitive therapy!. You can do this yourself!. A lot of our feelings depend on how we are thinking!. So a key to feeling better is to change your thinking!. These book will help you do this, the first is shorter!. Both are great, but you have to do the written exercises, not just read the book!. The exercises are not hard but they do take some work, not necesssarily a lot!.
http://www!.amazon!.com/Ten-Days-Self-Este!.!.!.
AND
http://www!.amazon!.com/Feeling-Good-Handb!.!.!.
2!. Human beings are resilient, including you, and can come back from terrible experiences, even worse than yours too, and have relatively normal lives (none of us are completely "normal")!. You can overcome your problems!. You can!. And you can have a good life!. You will need an exceptional, gentle and wise, not to mention patient and caring man!. He exists, but this kind is not frequent in the populace! I would lay off of relationships (romance, etc!.) for a while, even though you will want one for the comfort it might give you, but it can also bring paint, and that's the last thing you need right now!. Work on, focus on you!. Don't give up your faith!. Continue to exercise faith in God!. He will help but His help doesn't always come right when we want it!.
Meanwhile, work at taking joy in the small things and events that occur daily!. You obviously (I think) are an emotional person and need people (this may be a reason, one of them, you have been abused in the past, out of your need for affection), so be careful how you treat others!. When you get a friend, treat her like a treasure, like royalty!.
Best wishes!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
You are in therapy, and that's good!.
It is not surprising that you have trouble trusting others!.
I'm bi-polar and have been on Lithium for 20 years, and I wouldn't be without it!. It took away my depressions, and they have never come back!
On what to say to the lady, with whom you used to be able to talk!. I'm a little confused; is she the one you were close to and wound up hurting!? I will assume that!. Please feel free to modify my quote (coming next) if you need to!. I would say something like this: "Please forgive me!. I was wrong!. I said hurtful things!. I miss so much talking to you!. Will you give me another chance!?" And later, "Can I have a hug!?"
You have so much going on, some many problems to fight against, you definitely need to maintain therapy and probably medication too--you're probably already doing that!.
I will add two things:
1!. I would strongly recommend that you learn and become skilled at cognitive therapy!. You can do this yourself!. A lot of our feelings depend on how we are thinking!. So a key to feeling better is to change your thinking!. These book will help you do this, the first is shorter!. Both are great, but you have to do the written exercises, not just read the book!. The exercises are not hard but they do take some work, not necesssarily a lot!.
http://www!.amazon!.com/Ten-Days-Self-Este!.!.!.
AND
http://www!.amazon!.com/Feeling-Good-Handb!.!.!.
2!. Human beings are resilient, including you, and can come back from terrible experiences, even worse than yours too, and have relatively normal lives (none of us are completely "normal")!. You can overcome your problems!. You can!. And you can have a good life!. You will need an exceptional, gentle and wise, not to mention patient and caring man!. He exists, but this kind is not frequent in the populace! I would lay off of relationships (romance, etc!.) for a while, even though you will want one for the comfort it might give you, but it can also bring paint, and that's the last thing you need right now!. Work on, focus on you!. Don't give up your faith!. Continue to exercise faith in God!. He will help but His help doesn't always come right when we want it!.
Meanwhile, work at taking joy in the small things and events that occur daily!. You obviously (I think) are an emotional person and need people (this may be a reason, one of them, you have been abused in the past, out of your need for affection), so be careful how you treat others!. When you get a friend, treat her like a treasure, like royalty!.
Best wishes!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
Really sorry to hear about your situation!. The good thing is that you express yourself very well, and if you do find a couple of support groups in online forums, I'm sure you will get help and sympathy; difficult for the hug though! For that you need to join a local 'real life' group!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
i am sure there must be a chat format for someone in your situation, try typing in bipolar chat rooms and see what you get, your post is heart-breaking and I will say a prayer for you!Www@Answer-Health@Com