I hate myself, I just want to die.....?!
Question: I hate myself, I just want to die!.!.!.!.!.!?
I'm 15 and I hate myself and my life so much!. I have hated my life ever since I was 11!. I starting cutting myself at 11, I still do, I'm addicted to it!.
I started hating my life because my parents got divorced, and my mother became an alcoholic , she is ALWAYS drunk!. She yells at me and treats me like dirt!. She is not the same loving mother I used to have!. She calls me things like "worthless loser" and makes me feel terrible and currently she has a boyfriend who beat me up a few months ago for calling him a b*stard, and my mom knows it and she doesn't give a sh*t!. She hates me!.
And recently I have been suicidal because I lost the only good thing in my life, my girlfriend!. She knew about my sh*tty home life, she would always comfort me and make me feel loved!. but she dumped me and now I have nobody!. She told me that we could be just friends and she would call me everyday if I needed to talk!. It's been A WHOLE WEEK!. The b*tch never calls me!. Sorry if I sound whiny but I feel like sh*t!.!.!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
I started hating my life because my parents got divorced, and my mother became an alcoholic , she is ALWAYS drunk!. She yells at me and treats me like dirt!. She is not the same loving mother I used to have!. She calls me things like "worthless loser" and makes me feel terrible and currently she has a boyfriend who beat me up a few months ago for calling him a b*stard, and my mom knows it and she doesn't give a sh*t!. She hates me!.
And recently I have been suicidal because I lost the only good thing in my life, my girlfriend!. She knew about my sh*tty home life, she would always comfort me and make me feel loved!. but she dumped me and now I have nobody!. She told me that we could be just friends and she would call me everyday if I needed to talk!. It's been A WHOLE WEEK!. The b*tch never calls me!. Sorry if I sound whiny but I feel like sh*t!.!.!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
Answers:
You're in a crisis situation, which means that something must be done immediately!. As messed up as you think you are, you are the most normal person in your life!. That makes YOU the most important person in this situation!. You must take care of yourself FIRST, before you can be useful enough to help anyone else!.
Cutting yourself indicates that you were abused or severely neglected when you were young!. The fact that you do it now suggests a Borderline Personality Disorder, not that giving the storm in your head a name makes it any more pleasant to bear!.
1!.You need to get out of that house ASAP!. Your mother is sucking the life out of you--you need your strength!. Social services should be able to get you the support & counseling you need to climb out of this sh!thole!.
2!.Don't blame your gf!. She gave you all the support she could before it became too much to bear!. She's not as strong as you are!. She served her purpose in your life and may yet return when her emotions are recharged!. She still loves you!.
Forget her for now!.
3!.You have a long road ahead of you, but for the sake of your mother, (and father - I read your poem), yourself and your girlfriend, you need to make the effort to recover!. Do it for love--do it for hate; do it for yourself, whatever it takes to get you out of bed everyday!. Don't let this bury you; you're better than that and you didn't deserve to be treated like garbage!.
"Whatever doesn't kill us makes us stronger!."Www@Answer-Health@Com
Cutting yourself indicates that you were abused or severely neglected when you were young!. The fact that you do it now suggests a Borderline Personality Disorder, not that giving the storm in your head a name makes it any more pleasant to bear!.
1!.You need to get out of that house ASAP!. Your mother is sucking the life out of you--you need your strength!. Social services should be able to get you the support & counseling you need to climb out of this sh!thole!.
2!.Don't blame your gf!. She gave you all the support she could before it became too much to bear!. She's not as strong as you are!. She served her purpose in your life and may yet return when her emotions are recharged!. She still loves you!.
Forget her for now!.
3!.You have a long road ahead of you, but for the sake of your mother, (and father - I read your poem), yourself and your girlfriend, you need to make the effort to recover!. Do it for love--do it for hate; do it for yourself, whatever it takes to get you out of bed everyday!. Don't let this bury you; you're better than that and you didn't deserve to be treated like garbage!.
"Whatever doesn't kill us makes us stronger!."Www@Answer-Health@Com
Things change in life all the time!. You'll learn that!. You can change your situation!. Start a new hobby, start volunteering!. Do things you have a passion for!.
You don't have to let your mom get you down!.
If that guy every lays a finger on you again, call the police immediately!. And tell your mom that you will do exactly that if he touches you again!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
You don't have to let your mom get you down!.
If that guy every lays a finger on you again, call the police immediately!. And tell your mom that you will do exactly that if he touches you again!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
Why you hate yourself, you didn't do anything wrong!.
You are innocent!. There is no reason to hate yourself!.
Why not call police and tell them that you want
to live in a foster home!.!.!.!.
and that you have been physical abuse and verbal abuse!.
oh forget about your girlfriend, she is too young to
know what to do to help you!.
Get an adult to help you!.!.!. go seek help!.!.!. call police!.!.!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
You are innocent!. There is no reason to hate yourself!.
Why not call police and tell them that you want
to live in a foster home!.!.!.!.
and that you have been physical abuse and verbal abuse!.
oh forget about your girlfriend, she is too young to
know what to do to help you!.
Get an adult to help you!.!.!. go seek help!.!.!. call police!.!.!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
im sorry!.
you sound like you need someone to talk to!.
i dont know if u will like this but i have 2 songs i want you to listen to!.
the first one!.!.!.
http://youtube!.com/watch!?v=Rs8H41Q0-QM
the last one!.!.!.
http://youtube!.com/watch!?v=2A2Jt4WOxN8
and you should add details and vent more because even though i cant respond i will be sitting here reading it and i'll understand and care!.
PeaceWww@Answer-Health@Com
you sound like you need someone to talk to!.
i dont know if u will like this but i have 2 songs i want you to listen to!.
the first one!.!.!.
http://youtube!.com/watch!?v=Rs8H41Q0-QM
the last one!.!.!.
http://youtube!.com/watch!?v=2A2Jt4WOxN8
and you should add details and vent more because even though i cant respond i will be sitting here reading it and i'll understand and care!.
PeaceWww@Answer-Health@Com
Oh I'm very sorry to hear that but you don't want to kill yourself over it!
I've thought about killing myself plenty of times but you just need to get away!
find another relative to live with don't get held down by this!Www@Answer-Health@Com
I've thought about killing myself plenty of times but you just need to get away!
find another relative to live with don't get held down by this!Www@Answer-Health@Com
Get out of that house!. Stay with friends until you're 18, then get your own place!. It's only three more years!. You've gone four already, you can do three more!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
Please email me!! kend0rk@yahoo!.com!!!
I want to talk to you!
Please!
PS: I saw your other question and I love your poem!.!.
PSS: EMAIL me because I need to talk to you!Www@Answer-Health@Com
I want to talk to you!
Please!
PS: I saw your other question and I love your poem!.!.
PSS: EMAIL me because I need to talk to you!Www@Answer-Health@Com
suicide is stupidWww@Answer-Health@Com
Well the Police can help, but odds are your not going to do that [ just about all teens that know they can call them but don't ]
find someone you trust, anyone [ grand mother, friend, aunt etc ] and move in with them, away from all that drama!.
Things may not be the same, but they can get worse, and will if you do not do something about it!. Killing yourself may seem like an answer but it's not!. Your mind is just clouded right now!.
Remember nothing is going to be spoon fed to you, your going to have to take action, and work hard, maybe harder than you have ever worked in your entire life, every day!.
now that addiction to cutting may be best if that's the first thing to go!. like quitting smoking that wont be easy ether!. but if you do screw up and cut yourself your going to need to try harder and try again not to!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
find someone you trust, anyone [ grand mother, friend, aunt etc ] and move in with them, away from all that drama!.
Things may not be the same, but they can get worse, and will if you do not do something about it!. Killing yourself may seem like an answer but it's not!. Your mind is just clouded right now!.
Remember nothing is going to be spoon fed to you, your going to have to take action, and work hard, maybe harder than you have ever worked in your entire life, every day!.
now that addiction to cutting may be best if that's the first thing to go!. like quitting smoking that wont be easy ether!. but if you do screw up and cut yourself your going to need to try harder and try again not to!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
Well i am 14 and i was suicidal!. I cut myself once so deep that i had to go to the hospital because i lost so much blood!. I recommend you get therapy and a psychiatrist!. Also tell the therapist your situation!. I know that sounds lame but it really does help!. And about your gf!. There are lots of girls out their that would be dieing to meet you!. Trust me!. :) Well hope i helped!. And please don't hurt yourself!. I know i don't know you but believe me i do care about you!. If you want to talk e-mail me!. :)Www@Answer-Health@Com
your situation is a sad one, and i understand why you feel the way you feel!.!.!.no, i dont understand, ive never been through what you have been through, so i dont know!. all i know is, is that your life isnt worth giving up so early in your life!. though life sucks sometimes, or in your case alot of the time, it will get better!. things will work out, maby not the way you want or the way you plan, but they do work out none the less, all you have to do is believe they will, and let god take care of the rest!. just a question of my own, but do you believe in god!? if you need anything, email me at zackfair171@yahoo!.com, i will write back, and dont worry, im a nice guy, and im only 19, so its not like your talking to some creepy old guy!.Www@Answer-Health@Com