SHOULD I REALLY KILL MYSELF?!
Question: SHOULD I REALLY KILL MYSELF!?
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I am considering quietly murdering myself because of several issues that have mounted on top of each other in a large unsolvable stink of a pile!.
1!. I have a very extensive criminal record that is for the most part not sealable!. I have never murdered anyone, but i have a felony that I am a fugitive from - a drug charge from over seven years ago!. I was not dealing, but we did have medication in a car I was in!. I have a few misdemeanors on my record!. I also have several dismissed cases that I cannot afford to get sealed!.
2!. I am disabled by state approval, it is hard for me to work!. I am highly antisocial and do not get along well with anyone!.
3!. I am ugly and skinny and male!. I am an adult!. Because I have no money to take care of my teeth, the deep scars on my face, and my body getting older, I have serious issues all around!. I am balding, I have distended muscles!. Most of my problems come from damage in aging and I have no support from others to help me back to mental and physical health!.
4!. I have ABSOLUTELY no family support and no friend support!. As a result of something my parents did to me in my life, I have suffered immeasurable trauma, which has caused serious further issues!.
5!. I am likely 100,000 dollars in debt and I own NOTHING worth equity!. My debt includes repossessions and loans insurmountable b/c I cannot work a job!. The debts are only getting worse but luckily I can't afford much any more!.
6!. I have no degree worth more than minimum wage, noone will hire me b/c of a criminal background unexpungable, and b/c I am in such poor health!.
7!. B/C I have no money except for the disability check I get each month and food stamps, I have little left for myself and for anything extra!. It is nearly impossible to wash clothes, or do anything else but sit at home and let the bills rack up!.
8!. I am in current criminal trouble b/c someone took advantage of my living situation!. I wrote a bad check from a closed bank account that I had, I did not know I wrote the check on the closed account!. When I found out the person was trying to steal from me, I reported it!. However, they reported the check to the police later!. I cannot afford small claims, an attorney, assistance, phone calls, and I cannot afford probation!.
9!. I would rather not be homeless!. I live in a small shack of an apartment and I live alone!. I cannot afford a pet!.
It is true that I am looking for a simple answer, or if the answer is not simple - then just one answer that will make it all better!. Perhaps there IS NO ANSWER!. I don't care if there are plenty of others like me, I don't care about them, I care about me!. If I cared about them and if I had anything to offer the homeless or others, I would!. I don't care about 'having an attitude of gratitude', that makes things worse and doesn't pay bills!.
Based on these issues, I feel like killing myself could be one possible solution that would make everything be solved!. Since I don't have any family looking after me or wanting me to be part of their lives, and since I don't have a circle of friends, death is one viable answer!. That is to say that I don't foresee myself becoming someone who is going to be socially acceptable any time soon because of severe physical issues and physical damage, my debt issues, my issues with trauma and people, and my overall life with finances and legal issues!.
I realize that I am looking for something that will finally amount to anything in my life!. Everything that I have had in my life has either gone, turned on me, or turned into something not worth having!.
I am looking for one answer, possibly, that would make a difference in my life!. Working at min!. wage job at my age, in my thirties, is hardly an option b/c i do not want to be around others who are of the same poor health, or teenagers who wine, or people who are needy!. I am sick of people who see that I am damaged and further try to damage me or steal from me!. Yes, I am paranoid of people b/c I live in the USA and we are taught to be needy and selfish to others; entrepeuneurial or whatever!. I am alone and only older people who are worse than me seem to want to hang out!. I write a little bit, but it just seems as if when things sometimes may start to look upward, something else always happens!.
God is NOT going to help unless IT finally reveals ITSELF to me after thirty and more years of praying and nothing happening and feeling guilty for something that does not exist, praying does not help, and I have played the lottery and not won!. I do not feel down or as if I am being irrational, I am not being pessimistic here but I am being rational about solutions!. I am tired of being at the bottom of everything!. I want a difference in my own life that does not relate others trying to help me as if I owe them anything!. I am not looking for acceptance, just something that says I matter here, because there is just one bad thing after another in my long life of bull!. I understand that if I tackle one problem at a time I will be okay, but I'm just tired of doing that!. I don't want to wait and wait for problems to get better!. I need something that will make one noticeable difference in my life, and something that will give me incentive to take all of the other harsh things in my life in stride so much that they will get solved quicker!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
I am considering quietly murdering myself because of several issues that have mounted on top of each other in a large unsolvable stink of a pile!.
1!. I have a very extensive criminal record that is for the most part not sealable!. I have never murdered anyone, but i have a felony that I am a fugitive from - a drug charge from over seven years ago!. I was not dealing, but we did have medication in a car I was in!. I have a few misdemeanors on my record!. I also have several dismissed cases that I cannot afford to get sealed!.
2!. I am disabled by state approval, it is hard for me to work!. I am highly antisocial and do not get along well with anyone!.
3!. I am ugly and skinny and male!. I am an adult!. Because I have no money to take care of my teeth, the deep scars on my face, and my body getting older, I have serious issues all around!. I am balding, I have distended muscles!. Most of my problems come from damage in aging and I have no support from others to help me back to mental and physical health!.
4!. I have ABSOLUTELY no family support and no friend support!. As a result of something my parents did to me in my life, I have suffered immeasurable trauma, which has caused serious further issues!.
5!. I am likely 100,000 dollars in debt and I own NOTHING worth equity!. My debt includes repossessions and loans insurmountable b/c I cannot work a job!. The debts are only getting worse but luckily I can't afford much any more!.
6!. I have no degree worth more than minimum wage, noone will hire me b/c of a criminal background unexpungable, and b/c I am in such poor health!.
7!. B/C I have no money except for the disability check I get each month and food stamps, I have little left for myself and for anything extra!. It is nearly impossible to wash clothes, or do anything else but sit at home and let the bills rack up!.
8!. I am in current criminal trouble b/c someone took advantage of my living situation!. I wrote a bad check from a closed bank account that I had, I did not know I wrote the check on the closed account!. When I found out the person was trying to steal from me, I reported it!. However, they reported the check to the police later!. I cannot afford small claims, an attorney, assistance, phone calls, and I cannot afford probation!.
9!. I would rather not be homeless!. I live in a small shack of an apartment and I live alone!. I cannot afford a pet!.
It is true that I am looking for a simple answer, or if the answer is not simple - then just one answer that will make it all better!. Perhaps there IS NO ANSWER!. I don't care if there are plenty of others like me, I don't care about them, I care about me!. If I cared about them and if I had anything to offer the homeless or others, I would!. I don't care about 'having an attitude of gratitude', that makes things worse and doesn't pay bills!.
Based on these issues, I feel like killing myself could be one possible solution that would make everything be solved!. Since I don't have any family looking after me or wanting me to be part of their lives, and since I don't have a circle of friends, death is one viable answer!. That is to say that I don't foresee myself becoming someone who is going to be socially acceptable any time soon because of severe physical issues and physical damage, my debt issues, my issues with trauma and people, and my overall life with finances and legal issues!.
I realize that I am looking for something that will finally amount to anything in my life!. Everything that I have had in my life has either gone, turned on me, or turned into something not worth having!.
I am looking for one answer, possibly, that would make a difference in my life!. Working at min!. wage job at my age, in my thirties, is hardly an option b/c i do not want to be around others who are of the same poor health, or teenagers who wine, or people who are needy!. I am sick of people who see that I am damaged and further try to damage me or steal from me!. Yes, I am paranoid of people b/c I live in the USA and we are taught to be needy and selfish to others; entrepeuneurial or whatever!. I am alone and only older people who are worse than me seem to want to hang out!. I write a little bit, but it just seems as if when things sometimes may start to look upward, something else always happens!.
God is NOT going to help unless IT finally reveals ITSELF to me after thirty and more years of praying and nothing happening and feeling guilty for something that does not exist, praying does not help, and I have played the lottery and not won!. I do not feel down or as if I am being irrational, I am not being pessimistic here but I am being rational about solutions!. I am tired of being at the bottom of everything!. I want a difference in my own life that does not relate others trying to help me as if I owe them anything!. I am not looking for acceptance, just something that says I matter here, because there is just one bad thing after another in my long life of bull!. I understand that if I tackle one problem at a time I will be okay, but I'm just tired of doing that!. I don't want to wait and wait for problems to get better!. I need something that will make one noticeable difference in my life, and something that will give me incentive to take all of the other harsh things in my life in stride so much that they will get solved quicker!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
Answers:
No!. Killing yourself is never the answer!. Sometimes life is good, sometimes its hard, and sometimes it completely sucks!. But one thing you have to realize is that it will go on!. I'm not gonna give you a bunch of quotes or religious sayings telling you why you shouldn't kill yourself!. Sometimes you need to just look beyond those things, and look for the positives in life!. By killing yourself, you'd be taking the easy way out, and telling yourself that you aren't good enough!. I don't have too much to say, but everyone faces hard challenges in their lives!. The hardest one is facing your hardships!. If your able to push yourself through the hard times, all the other challenges in life will just be road bumps!. There's always someone out there to help you, even if it seems like there isn't!. Make the right choice and don't take the easy way out and "loose" against yourself!. Good luck Www@Answer-Health@Com
friend, really, DONT DO THAT! PLEASE! life is only one and GOD can help you and you will suceed! peace friend!Www@Answer-Health@Com
SHOULD I REALLY KILL MYSELF!? -- No!Www@Answer-Health@Com
Wo is you!. Your not the bad off!. You could get a job if you tried!. You could go to small claims because everyone has a right to an attorney!. You could get your life back together but its a matter of you wanting to!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
ok, i'm not going to say that by just praying to God is going to make everything better, or by going to Church is going to make it better!. not to offend anyone, but if you want to get your life back together, you need to start!. taking the easy way out will not do anything, it will only prove that you were not good enough to overcome the obstacles in your way, DO NOT TAKE THE EASY WAY OUT!. ITS NOT WORTH IT!There is no one decisive answer that will solve everything, killing yourself will not solve anything, its a permanent solution to a temporary problem, as said by the guy above me!. The ONLY way to start getting your life back together is by one step at a time!. EVERYTHING will not be solved in a single say, no, i will not bs you on that part!. but i promise you, PROMISE you, things will get better, its all of a matter of starting!.
ok for number 1 and number 8, everyone has the right to an attorney, EVERYONE does, that may help with the criminal record thus greatly aiding you with getting a better job!.
and for number 3, being ugly, in your mind at least, is definitely tolerable, not worth killing yourself AT ALL!. and no money to take care of your teeth!? spend like 5 bucks on a tooth brush and tooth past, 5 bucks, you said you had a little money left over for yourself, right!?
and for number 2, antisocial can be worked on, just try to make an attempt to reach out to people, the worst that can happen is that you are right back where you started!. and there are many jobs out there that do not require a lot of social activities
for number 4, ok, what done is done, whatever your parents did to you was not ok, but you cant change what they did to you, you cant change the past, but you can change the outcome of your life, you really can, all it requires is a start, as i said before!. as for the friend thing, again, back to starting and striving toward to interact with other people!. there are millions and millions of people out there, i guarantee you that will find a friend, just try to start one and see what happens, again, the worse thing that can happen is that you're back to square one!.
i really hope anything i said has change you're mind, i really do!. i'm not saying its going to be easy, not at all, but i'm telling you that it will be worth while whence you succeed, it will be a great feeling that you have come all this way!. please do not kill yourself, please, please do not!!!Www@Answer-Health@Com
ok for number 1 and number 8, everyone has the right to an attorney, EVERYONE does, that may help with the criminal record thus greatly aiding you with getting a better job!.
and for number 3, being ugly, in your mind at least, is definitely tolerable, not worth killing yourself AT ALL!. and no money to take care of your teeth!? spend like 5 bucks on a tooth brush and tooth past, 5 bucks, you said you had a little money left over for yourself, right!?
and for number 2, antisocial can be worked on, just try to make an attempt to reach out to people, the worst that can happen is that you are right back where you started!. and there are many jobs out there that do not require a lot of social activities
for number 4, ok, what done is done, whatever your parents did to you was not ok, but you cant change what they did to you, you cant change the past, but you can change the outcome of your life, you really can, all it requires is a start, as i said before!. as for the friend thing, again, back to starting and striving toward to interact with other people!. there are millions and millions of people out there, i guarantee you that will find a friend, just try to start one and see what happens, again, the worse thing that can happen is that you're back to square one!.
i really hope anything i said has change you're mind, i really do!. i'm not saying its going to be easy, not at all, but i'm telling you that it will be worth while whence you succeed, it will be a great feeling that you have come all this way!. please do not kill yourself, please, please do not!!!Www@Answer-Health@Com
That sounds like tons to deal with!. BUT suicide is a permanent solution to temporary problems!. Things will get better!. Somehow, it will!. God will help you if you don't give up hope, I know you don't think so, but something good will happen!.!.!.I really don't have great advice here, but please please please, don't go through with this!. Trust me, there is somebody out there thinking of you, who really cares about you, even if you don't realize it!. I'm going to say a prayer for you!.
Please don't kill yourself!Www@Answer-Health@Com
Please don't kill yourself!Www@Answer-Health@Com
dont focus on the negatives! focus on the positives!
& killing yourself wont solve anything!. it will only make things worse!
if you kill your self, you will go to hell!.
All you need is God my friend!. He will help with everything!
all if you have to have is some faith!
if you dont have a bible, please try to get one from somewhere!.
and read it!. get your life back on track!.
God will help you if you let him!.
Just please sir, dont kill yourself!.
I also urge you to pray to God and go to church
those are the other steps in makin your better!
Good Luck & God Bless you!Www@Answer-Health@Com
& killing yourself wont solve anything!. it will only make things worse!
if you kill your self, you will go to hell!.
All you need is God my friend!. He will help with everything!
all if you have to have is some faith!
if you dont have a bible, please try to get one from somewhere!.
and read it!. get your life back on track!.
God will help you if you let him!.
Just please sir, dont kill yourself!.
I also urge you to pray to God and go to church
those are the other steps in makin your better!
Good Luck & God Bless you!Www@Answer-Health@Com
I wrote a really long answer to you and it didn't come up!.
I can't write it all again!. Your situation breaks my heart!.
I don't have a quick fix answer for you!. Everything you need to do to make your life better will take a bit of time!. But if you are serious about making your life better, it's worth the time!. Don't kill yourself!. You're an intelligent guy!. You're a brilliant writer!. I think you could make a wonderful contribution to society!. I don't know you yet, I believe in you!.
Don't look to "God"!.!.!. Look into yourself!. You are the only person that can change your life!. Don't give up!. I think you have the strength to do it!. Rise up out of it!.
Good Luck!. X
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I can't write it all again!. Your situation breaks my heart!.
I don't have a quick fix answer for you!. Everything you need to do to make your life better will take a bit of time!. But if you are serious about making your life better, it's worth the time!. Don't kill yourself!. You're an intelligent guy!. You're a brilliant writer!. I think you could make a wonderful contribution to society!. I don't know you yet, I believe in you!.
Don't look to "God"!.!.!. Look into yourself!. You are the only person that can change your life!. Don't give up!. I think you have the strength to do it!. Rise up out of it!.
Good Luck!. X
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