What do you think is the root cause for my depression...?!
Question: What do you think is the root cause for my depression!.!.!.!?
This is my case I am severely depressed!. I am now 26 years old and throught out my life I have had many traumatic things happen to me, my parents divorcing when I was nine, my brother dying when I tweleve, moving from a great school in middle school to a dangerous one where I had to change my dress style and attitude so I wouldn't be picked on, two of my much older brothers moving in on my mom and me with their families so I never had a room to myself, and on and on!.!.!. Not to mention seeing my father in a mental institution a couple times when I was younger, he is manic depressive!. BUT through it all I gathered myself together and made the best of it and kept focusing on the positive!. yes, I was sad about these things like any other human would be, but never did I wallow in it! Now I am 26 and I am with the father of my two boys!. He is constantly downing me and calling me names like, you worthless piece of ****, you *****, you lazy ***, your stupid, etc!.!.!. my self esteem is gone!. I tell myself I deserve this and the other night I told him I deserve whatever you do to me as long as I am with you and he said yes you do!. I know that he doesn't love me, because this isn't love!. I feel like from the get go I have been trying to prove myself to him, his friends, and family!. They don't like me and he listens to what they have to say about!. I have always tolerated them not liking me and being around them and still that is not acknowledge nor appreciated by him!. If your wondering he has hit me!. I was pregnant once and I was so sick I lost like 15- 20llbs and I am a tiny person!. My stomach would hurts so bad that I couldn't eat or get out of bed!. He kept telling me I was lazy and I should get out of bed!. Well, when I finally told him to take me to the emergency room I found out my baby had been dead inside me for 2months and had I waited a day more I would have died from the toxins in my body!. He treated me like **** through that ordeal!. I am at the point I don't get out of bed and to completely honest I have lost the interest and energy to clean, cook, or do anything for that matter!. I know I am worthless at this point and he thinks by calling me it more it will prompt me to get up and do something, but it makes me feel worse! Last year we seperated I didn't file child support, but he sent me some money!. I got a full time job, a baby sitter, and rented a room from the baby sitter!. When it was time for me to get an apartment I asked for a little more money so that I could rent one and barely get by!. He said he couldn't afford to do it so, I had no choice but to move back in with him!. Now he treats me worse than before and while we were away he slept with a Tijuana whore!. I asked him to go to a clinic to take an hiv test!. He hasn't and when I bring it up he gets mad at me!. When all is said and done the blame for everything is my fault and I deserve to live with the added worry of aids!. I know depression is hereditary at times, but as much as I have been through in the past and over come it, this just beats all!. I do good without him and he makes fun when I say that and says sure you do when your not with me how do i know that cause your worthless when your with me!. I am considering contacting a womans shelter so, that I can file childsupport and most of all leave!. he know if he doesn't move out and we live together I can't file childsupport!. he really is trying to trap me!. Please understand i don't come from a wealthy family infact some of my family is barely making it and live 5 states away!. So, right now it's up to me to do something here and I don't have a vehicle either!. Please give me advice!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
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It is possible for depression to be hereditary!. However you are being abused and that will make anyone depressed!. You do not deserve to be treated like this!. From the sounds of it you already recognize what is going on here!. You just need to find the strength to change it!. You have already made it through a lot of things in your life, and you can make it through this too!. You do need to act, not just for yourself, but for your children!. They depend on you, and I'm sure that you do not want them growing up like this!. Please do something!. Contact the women's shelter, you are being abused and that is what they are there for!. They have the resources to help you!. Move 5 states away if you have to!. You will figure out what you need to do, just get out of this situation!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
I think you need to think seriously about your situation!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
I think you already know exactly what's causing your depression and pretty much what you would probably need to do to get out of your situation its just that its very difficult going from a situation you know into the great unknowns involved with trying to find a new life!. Especially if finances are not on your side!.
Best advice!? Save!. Save as much as you can as quick as you can and give yourself a chance elsewhere!.
Okay he's not good for you, but you're not doing yourself a service either while you're sticking with him!. Find a way!. I know its hard trying to look for a new life with very little money but if you can't improve the situation you're in now day by day, month by month, I think you'd probably have better chances improving your lot else where however humble your beginnings have to be!.
Maybe you could look for people who have been in your situation and find out how they got out!? I'm sure there are thousands out there!.
Good luckWww@Answer-Health@Com
Best advice!? Save!. Save as much as you can as quick as you can and give yourself a chance elsewhere!.
Okay he's not good for you, but you're not doing yourself a service either while you're sticking with him!. Find a way!. I know its hard trying to look for a new life with very little money but if you can't improve the situation you're in now day by day, month by month, I think you'd probably have better chances improving your lot else where however humble your beginnings have to be!.
Maybe you could look for people who have been in your situation and find out how they got out!? I'm sure there are thousands out there!.
Good luckWww@Answer-Health@Com