Am I psycho, or it something common?!
Question: Am I psycho, or it something common!?
I am not suicidal!. I do not have a death wish!. However, I am constantly looking for meaning in life!. Generally, I am a very nice, cheerful/funny guy and my friends love to hang out with me!.
However, I am also a very sensitive guy!. Sensitive to my surroundings!. I have also written some very deep poetry (sounds cheesy for a guy)!. Sometimes, I get depressed (or completely hollow); just like that, without any reason (or with reason that is not clear to me)!. I have this insatiable need to get 'highs' 24 x 7!. I am also a bit rebellious to all kinds of norms of any society (whether that be the US or Nigeria: I travel a lot), but sometimes don't show it to people (friends and family included) afraid to how they might react about my changes in mood (which is why I'm always happy and funny around my friends)!. I do not take drugs, although I have tried a few first-timers!. My philosophy is to try everything once in a lifetime!. Sometimes, I get wild with my friends; other times I'm completely numb!. I am not suicidal, but feel the need to look at death from a close distance!. Sometimes I just imagine for the sake of imagining what it may be like if I died early, or died and my friends are there witnessing the scenes!. Sometimes I wish I could be a hero, or someone who would get noticed!. I guess this could be the effect of TV coupled to my sensitive nature!. Sometimes I subconsciously think that I'd rather live a short life of meaning, rather than live a long hollow life!.
I recently traveled to Europe and met this fantastic Italian girl!. She was the only one who I could completely relate to!. We smoked a bit in a cafe, and had one of my wildest nights ever!. She was funny, cute and even wilder than me, and then I started thinking I was missing out so much in life!. I've had only one girlfriend in my life, and she was my soul-mate!. We had a great time together, but she was nothing like the Italian girl!. Sometimes I felt I couldn't express myself fully to her, without her getting freaked out!.
I am 21 years old, from the US but travel a lot!. I am a liberal minded guy, love all sorts of people (from all cultures) and respect them, and truly adore them if they can relate to me somehow!. I have a very successful academic life, with no problems of booze or drugs!. But my best friends have always been those who have been in trouble, academically, socially and otherwise!. I feel that I can relate to them a bit more, because I have seen all kinds of places; and seen the best and the worst of the world!. I feel that while the people in the US have no troubles in their lives, there is so much else going on in the rest of the world!. Something that appeals to me a lot more!. These ellipses of depression I have, are infrequent; yet I feel somehow thinking about them sometimes!. Am I psycho!?
I realize I might give people the wrong impression with my question, but could not frame my question any better!. I would appreciate logical answers from people who would try to understand my question, and answer it earnestly!.
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However, I am also a very sensitive guy!. Sensitive to my surroundings!. I have also written some very deep poetry (sounds cheesy for a guy)!. Sometimes, I get depressed (or completely hollow); just like that, without any reason (or with reason that is not clear to me)!. I have this insatiable need to get 'highs' 24 x 7!. I am also a bit rebellious to all kinds of norms of any society (whether that be the US or Nigeria: I travel a lot), but sometimes don't show it to people (friends and family included) afraid to how they might react about my changes in mood (which is why I'm always happy and funny around my friends)!. I do not take drugs, although I have tried a few first-timers!. My philosophy is to try everything once in a lifetime!. Sometimes, I get wild with my friends; other times I'm completely numb!. I am not suicidal, but feel the need to look at death from a close distance!. Sometimes I just imagine for the sake of imagining what it may be like if I died early, or died and my friends are there witnessing the scenes!. Sometimes I wish I could be a hero, or someone who would get noticed!. I guess this could be the effect of TV coupled to my sensitive nature!. Sometimes I subconsciously think that I'd rather live a short life of meaning, rather than live a long hollow life!.
I recently traveled to Europe and met this fantastic Italian girl!. She was the only one who I could completely relate to!. We smoked a bit in a cafe, and had one of my wildest nights ever!. She was funny, cute and even wilder than me, and then I started thinking I was missing out so much in life!. I've had only one girlfriend in my life, and she was my soul-mate!. We had a great time together, but she was nothing like the Italian girl!. Sometimes I felt I couldn't express myself fully to her, without her getting freaked out!.
I am 21 years old, from the US but travel a lot!. I am a liberal minded guy, love all sorts of people (from all cultures) and respect them, and truly adore them if they can relate to me somehow!. I have a very successful academic life, with no problems of booze or drugs!. But my best friends have always been those who have been in trouble, academically, socially and otherwise!. I feel that I can relate to them a bit more, because I have seen all kinds of places; and seen the best and the worst of the world!. I feel that while the people in the US have no troubles in their lives, there is so much else going on in the rest of the world!. Something that appeals to me a lot more!. These ellipses of depression I have, are infrequent; yet I feel somehow thinking about them sometimes!. Am I psycho!?
I realize I might give people the wrong impression with my question, but could not frame my question any better!. I would appreciate logical answers from people who would try to understand my question, and answer it earnestly!.
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Answers:
I don't think there is anything wrong with you at all!. I think what you have expressed is entirely normal musings on life!. Who doesn't wonder these things!? You just sound to me like a highly intelligent man who has not had the privilege of knowing many others who you could relate to on the same level of intellect!. Of course this will leave you with questions and make you a bit of an outsider!. You say that you could never truly relate to the woman you called your "soulmate" - I don't mean to question you, but I wonder if she was really your soulmate if she did not understand you fully and couldn't relate on the same level that a girl you knew for a day could!.
You sound like a very interesting, nice, intellectual guy!. It also sounds like you make friends easily, and you have a financial situation that allows you to travel a lot!. You are in a very lucky position!. You're also young!. I have no doubt that you will meet people eventually who suit you better and who you can relate to!. I also don't have a doubt in my mind that you will meet a girl who you will be able to relate to and who you can love and who will love you!. If you find that, the emptiness that you worry about now should be gone!. Life is not always about having as many crazy experiences as you can (though there's certainly a place for that); sharing a single moment with a person who you love and who understands you fully can be much more exciting than anything else!.
I think that what you're feeling may come from spreading yourself too thin!. Trying so many new things and trying to spend time with so many different people that you don't allow yourself to focus on a few things that are really important to you!. You may find more meaning in cultivating several passions than in having tried thousands of things!. You have many friends but no one who you really relate to!.
I know that I was the same way before I met my boyfriend!. I made friends pretty easily but always felt that we would never truly understand each other!. There have been two people in my life who I felt on the same intellectual plane with, my boyfriend and my great uncle!. Other people I may love and enjoy being with, but I've never felt exactly on the same level!.
I guess my advice to you is to focus on the things that you really love and find to be most important!. Slow down a bit and really think about what it is that you want out of life and what would make you happiest!. I know that's easier said than done, but if you can really figure out what you want to do, I think you'll feel less empty!. And be patient!. Eventually you'll meet people who you can relate to, and when you do, don't let go of them!.
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You sound like a very interesting, nice, intellectual guy!. It also sounds like you make friends easily, and you have a financial situation that allows you to travel a lot!. You are in a very lucky position!. You're also young!. I have no doubt that you will meet people eventually who suit you better and who you can relate to!. I also don't have a doubt in my mind that you will meet a girl who you will be able to relate to and who you can love and who will love you!. If you find that, the emptiness that you worry about now should be gone!. Life is not always about having as many crazy experiences as you can (though there's certainly a place for that); sharing a single moment with a person who you love and who understands you fully can be much more exciting than anything else!.
I think that what you're feeling may come from spreading yourself too thin!. Trying so many new things and trying to spend time with so many different people that you don't allow yourself to focus on a few things that are really important to you!. You may find more meaning in cultivating several passions than in having tried thousands of things!. You have many friends but no one who you really relate to!.
I know that I was the same way before I met my boyfriend!. I made friends pretty easily but always felt that we would never truly understand each other!. There have been two people in my life who I felt on the same intellectual plane with, my boyfriend and my great uncle!. Other people I may love and enjoy being with, but I've never felt exactly on the same level!.
I guess my advice to you is to focus on the things that you really love and find to be most important!. Slow down a bit and really think about what it is that you want out of life and what would make you happiest!. I know that's easier said than done, but if you can really figure out what you want to do, I think you'll feel less empty!. And be patient!. Eventually you'll meet people who you can relate to, and when you do, don't let go of them!.
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no you are not a psycho!. you are normal!. i know how you feel!. I get that way to and know go to therapy!. maybe you should go to one too!. It made me feel a little more better about myself!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
I cant really answer I have no credentials but if you think it is a problem then it is a problem so see a professionalWww@Answer-Health@Com
Dwelling constantly on different/weird problems that take away from you living your life normally can be a sign of psychosis!. Don't worry greatly if you are doing other things than sitting dwelling on these problems you may just be curious and need to put questions that have no definite answers to the back of your mind, if you can't do this then doesn't mean you defiantly have psychosis or may even just have a very slight case so if you can't leave the 'unknown' be then it may be time to see a doctor!. Natural psychosis depression etc is nothing to be ashamed of and defiantly doesn't mean they will immediately lock you up it can happen to anyone!. Www@Answer-Health@Com
Dude, you're as normal as any other guy!. You're just more honest (and vocal) to your emotions, that is why!. There is nothing wrong with you!. You're definitely not a psycho, I'd rather call you an emo, if you don't mind!. I'm 23 years old, a Filipino, and it's quite interesting that I am not alone in thinking that way!. I should say we have a common perspective in most things, even with the cultural differences!. Maybe it's the quarter life crisis that we're experiencing!. But who knows!?Www@Answer-Health@Com
You're not crazy, you're an INFP or ENFP!. (Do a Google search if you have no clue what I'm talking about!.)Www@Answer-Health@Com
Mate I am just like you in every way that you were talking about, I think im going to die like every day, I think I have cancer and other diseases and I wonder what people would think if I died and stuff, im all happy one day then im morbid as ***** the next for no foreseeable reason whatsoever and im not quite sure if its normal but if you wanna have a wee chat about it with someone that gets the same **** send me a message Www@Answer-Health@Com