I feel like my life is falling apart and I don't want to go on. How can I ge!
Question: I feel like my life is falling apart and I don't want to go on!. How can I get a grip!?
Here's my story!. At 13 I became anorexic, then at 14 bulimic!. I cut myself, ran away from home, wore men's clothing and didn't wash!. I couldn't speak to anyone, I had barely any friends!. I had an abusive boyfriend!. I had been head and shoulders above the other kids in my year!. I played 4 instruments and was very academic!. In my GCSE mocks I got 5 A*s, 4 As and 1 B!. The teachers discussed with my Dad in front of me whether I'd be better off in Cambridge or Oxford!. But by the time I did my GCSEs I'd become so ill I couldn't keep up!. I got much lower grades than in my mocks!. The teachers forgot about me!. They didn't praise me anymore and when they picked people in my sixth form to visit Oxbridge I wasn't given a mention!. I scraped through my A-levels and got into uni on clearance!. I wanted to do a music degree!. I had got 88/90 on my composition module in my music A level!. But no university would take me on!. So I took a degree in English and Film studies!. Once I'd got away from home (Cumbria) to Manchester my confidence started to increase!. I got rid of the abusive boyfriend and willed myself out of bingeing!. By the time I was 19 I was no longer bulimic!. I worked hard at uni and secured a high first!. I was the top of my year, won an award and was given a scholarship to do an MA!. I had a minor breakdown in the middle of my undergraduate degree and became agoraphobic!. I had always been social phobic so I didn't have a social life!. My doctor prescribed some medecine and I started working on CBT!. By the time I was 20 I was very confident!.
I dropped out of my MA!. I was exhausted and depressed!. I kept colapsing (I was doing filmmaking - this isn't good on set) and I couldn't concentrate!. I began a temping job!. Quit that and looked for permananet work!. For months I was unemployed despite my best efforts!. I lost my flat and had to sleep on my Mam's dining room floor!. I got a job in admin a couple of months ago and now have my own place!.
Sorry for the long history but I want you to understand where I've come from and why I'm so unhappy!. I'm mostly confident and happy nowadays!. I'm good with people and I work hard!. I've never had trouble getting a boyfriend and people seem to really like me!. But as soon as one minor thing happens I'm back to square one!. Recently I slept with a guy and he started seeing someone else soon after!. I've skipped two days of work and I can't stop crying!. I don't even like him that much it's just that I can't cope with anything anymore!. I'm frustrated and unhappy in my life!. I have no opportunity to use my brain anymore!. I miss doing challenging work!. I want to be a broadcast researcher for television!. I know I could succeed in the role!. But I need to secure unpaid work to get experience before anyone will take me on!. This means working 6-7 days a week because I can't leave my paid work!. But I can barely motivate myself to get out of bed as it is!. I feel like I've worked and worked and everything always goes sour!. I just want to be given a chance in life but it seems it's always taken away from me!. I'm so capable and nobody wants to know!. Guys always fall in love with me, I'm pretty and I make a good girlfriend and I try to always be the best person I can be!. But in the end they leave me!. They get bored, or they meet someone else or I never find out the reason!.
I'm just so frustrated!. I feel like I have no control!. I don't want to have to work in such a simplistic job when I have so much to offer, I don't want to get rejected all the time!. I don't want to be pushing against the urge to binge or cut myself!. I just can't see the light at the end of the tunnel anymore!. I can't see how I could get into a better life!. Please help me to help myself!. I don't want to go down the same path I did as a teenager!. Www@Answer-Health@Com
I dropped out of my MA!. I was exhausted and depressed!. I kept colapsing (I was doing filmmaking - this isn't good on set) and I couldn't concentrate!. I began a temping job!. Quit that and looked for permananet work!. For months I was unemployed despite my best efforts!. I lost my flat and had to sleep on my Mam's dining room floor!. I got a job in admin a couple of months ago and now have my own place!.
Sorry for the long history but I want you to understand where I've come from and why I'm so unhappy!. I'm mostly confident and happy nowadays!. I'm good with people and I work hard!. I've never had trouble getting a boyfriend and people seem to really like me!. But as soon as one minor thing happens I'm back to square one!. Recently I slept with a guy and he started seeing someone else soon after!. I've skipped two days of work and I can't stop crying!. I don't even like him that much it's just that I can't cope with anything anymore!. I'm frustrated and unhappy in my life!. I have no opportunity to use my brain anymore!. I miss doing challenging work!. I want to be a broadcast researcher for television!. I know I could succeed in the role!. But I need to secure unpaid work to get experience before anyone will take me on!. This means working 6-7 days a week because I can't leave my paid work!. But I can barely motivate myself to get out of bed as it is!. I feel like I've worked and worked and everything always goes sour!. I just want to be given a chance in life but it seems it's always taken away from me!. I'm so capable and nobody wants to know!. Guys always fall in love with me, I'm pretty and I make a good girlfriend and I try to always be the best person I can be!. But in the end they leave me!. They get bored, or they meet someone else or I never find out the reason!.
I'm just so frustrated!. I feel like I have no control!. I don't want to have to work in such a simplistic job when I have so much to offer, I don't want to get rejected all the time!. I don't want to be pushing against the urge to binge or cut myself!. I just can't see the light at the end of the tunnel anymore!. I can't see how I could get into a better life!. Please help me to help myself!. I don't want to go down the same path I did as a teenager!. Www@Answer-Health@Com
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I think the first thing you should do is understand that you're not alone in this!. I know it sometimes feels like it's the whole world versus you!. so what I think you should do is go see a therapist if you can or join a support group!. One thing I have noticed is that you look for external approval to feel good about yourself!. There is nothing unusual about that either because it's something I for one do unconsciously!. I have to tell you, you can never put your life in other people's hands and trust them wholeheartedly!. I am not saying you should alienate yourself I just think you should look for fulfillment from within first!. Give dating a rest for a while!. It's common for people to take advantage of people they perceive as vulnerable and I've had to learn that the hard way!. Never let your romantic endeavours be a measure of who you are!. I am not trying to take the moral highground here, I'm just sharing the knowledge I got from life!. You are smart obviously and I can understand how your problems can pose an obstacle in realizing your dreams!. Just try to take things one step at a time!. I think for you to get to where you want in your life you have to rise above your problems and I think that's doable!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
You have some serious personal issues that should be discussed with a therapist!. Tell your regular doctor about these problems and they can refer you to someone!. You could also check to see if there is an Mental Health Mental Retardation (MHMR) facility near you!. They have you pay on a sliding scale, according to your income, and give you access to psychiatrists, therapists, and medication if needed!. Good luck to you!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
Before this gets any worse you need to go and talk to a qualified psychologist, they will help you get your life back in order, it may even help you just to talk about things worrying and frustating in your life, they can also give you strategies to use in everyday life and teach you the power of positive thinking and relaxation!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
There are many complex issues here!. It's not surprising that 'one minor thing happens' and you feel you're back to square one!. But you're not really back to square one at all - that's your negative side telling you that!.
In my opinion (and I'm no doctor) I think you are also suffering from depression right now: not being able to get out of bed, feeling low, making generalising black and white statements like 'I feel like I have no control' and 'everything always goes sour'!. Don't be so hard on yourself girl! Make a list of all the positive things you have acheived - it'll be a long list! I think you need some help from a therapist to sort out the depression!. If you can lift that fog, all the other worries you currently have will, I think, be much easier to tackle!. With a clearer head, your goals will seem more acheivable and you'll be more willing to do what it takes to fulfill them!.
You can do it! And you don't have to do it alone! Www@Answer-Health@Com
In my opinion (and I'm no doctor) I think you are also suffering from depression right now: not being able to get out of bed, feeling low, making generalising black and white statements like 'I feel like I have no control' and 'everything always goes sour'!. Don't be so hard on yourself girl! Make a list of all the positive things you have acheived - it'll be a long list! I think you need some help from a therapist to sort out the depression!. If you can lift that fog, all the other worries you currently have will, I think, be much easier to tackle!. With a clearer head, your goals will seem more acheivable and you'll be more willing to do what it takes to fulfill them!.
You can do it! And you don't have to do it alone! Www@Answer-Health@Com
I suggest looking for someone you love , gaining the confidence to approach them and you making the first move !. Try something different !.
Im sorry to hear about all of this dear, it sounds ruff but that is life!. Lots of people have lives less than perfect!.
Your choice of men sounds like they come to use you, not to love you!. Find real love and be happy!. Www@Answer-Health@Com
Im sorry to hear about all of this dear, it sounds ruff but that is life!. Lots of people have lives less than perfect!.
Your choice of men sounds like they come to use you, not to love you!. Find real love and be happy!. Www@Answer-Health@Com
i think that your issues are a bit too indepth for the people on yahoo answers!.!.!. but this is a start!.!.!. you have admited that you need help and that your not happy with your life!. some people just pretend that they are happy and they try to convince themselfs that they are having the time of their lifes!.
but you need to go and see a therapist hunny!. you know that you can pull yourself through this and your a strong person!. you are alot smarter than alot of people and you need to look at the positive things!.!.!. you havent started taking drugs so thats a major accheivment because getting pulled into taking drugs when you are down is so easily done!.
you know in your heart that you can do this, and if you need any help talk to your mum about it and let her know that you need to go and see someone to get you out of this state and im sure she will help you through this, clearly your life cant be like this for much longer!.
you said that you dont have much of a social life so this may be why the men you fall for get bored but when you have sorted yourself out you can go out alot more and these fantastic men that your with will see that you are a really fun person aswell as being loving and caring!.
as for this guy you slept with he is a man slag and they get all of us at some point but you just need to keep your head high and smash your way through the wall that they put up infront of you!.
when you say that you dont match up to other girls this is a good thing you dont want to be the same as all of these other girls you stand out if your different!. i really do hope this has helped and that you can make your life better!.
good luck xWww@Answer-Health@Com
but you need to go and see a therapist hunny!. you know that you can pull yourself through this and your a strong person!. you are alot smarter than alot of people and you need to look at the positive things!.!.!. you havent started taking drugs so thats a major accheivment because getting pulled into taking drugs when you are down is so easily done!.
you know in your heart that you can do this, and if you need any help talk to your mum about it and let her know that you need to go and see someone to get you out of this state and im sure she will help you through this, clearly your life cant be like this for much longer!.
you said that you dont have much of a social life so this may be why the men you fall for get bored but when you have sorted yourself out you can go out alot more and these fantastic men that your with will see that you are a really fun person aswell as being loving and caring!.
as for this guy you slept with he is a man slag and they get all of us at some point but you just need to keep your head high and smash your way through the wall that they put up infront of you!.
when you say that you dont match up to other girls this is a good thing you dont want to be the same as all of these other girls you stand out if your different!. i really do hope this has helped and that you can make your life better!.
good luck xWww@Answer-Health@Com