I Really Wish I Could Just Disappear =/?!


Question: I Really Wish I Could Just Disappear =/!?
(Im female, nearly 18 years old),
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I suffer with bad depression and anxiety, it started at the beginning of this year, just after my grandad passed away in my arms and i had to try and revive him while on the phone to the paramedics!. (I grew up with my mum at my nan and grandads, he was more like a father to me as I haven't met mine)!. I've never really thought about what makes me so depressed, but my grandad passing away might have something to do with it I don't know, also i was bullied in school for a few years which I know has affected me badly, when I'm out and i see a group of people laughing I automatically think they're laughing at me and just want to go home!.!.also something bad happened to me (sexually) when i was about 6, I didn't tell anyone, and blocked it out my whole life but keep thinking about it recently!.!. I can't actually describe my feelings to anyone, looking in the mirror makes me cry, i'm a complete failure, I hear my mum talking to my little brother about me all the time saying horrible things!.!.but I don't think my depression is like other peoples!.!.I constantly think about sex, like all day and if someone offers me sex I just can't turn it down, my last boyfriend use to say he was really worried about me coz of the amount of times I need sex isn't normal!?
Everything in my life is f*cked and I really really don't want to be alive anymore, but I don't know what to do,
Any advice would be much appreciated, please try not to take the p*ss if you answer :/
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Answers:
Hey, to start things off, you're pretty!.
It's never easy to lose somebody close to you!. I won't ask you to get over it - instead, try to accept his death!. It had nothing to do with you and I believe you tried your best to resuscitate him!.

It has been hard for you but don't live like this anymore because you don't want to get sympathy from anyone - yourself or others!. It's hard to see this but the choice is always with you!. Make the best of the limited choices you have!.

It seems that there is a lot of fear in you!. However, don't be mistaken!. What you fear isn't other people or what their perception of you might be!. It is you!. You're quite lost and you need to know if you're gonna be alright!.

Laugh at yourself!. Laugh with them and get out of your comfort zone!.
I encourage you to talk to somebody about the abuse you suffered in childhood!. Its repercussions should not be borne by you!.
You can find comfortable shelter behind the web, and I'm sure there are people willing to listen to you!. Please tell!.

Lastly, take better care of yourself and do get off casual sex!.
It is the only thing you have to change to be fair to yourself!. Everything that has happened isn't your fault and not yours to bear!.

You can talk to me if you want to!.
Love!.Www@Answer-Health@Com

wow i thought i had it bad im 17 to will be 18 in 2 more weeks my mom is an alcoholic n she yells all the time she dosnt even know how to talk in a normal voice ha i dont know who my real dad is either i have a step dad tho he does act like a real dad to me but has some really bad anger probs and i also got bullied alot in school and beat up n i didnt have any friends but try and look at the positive things thats wat i do wen im feeling down ur life will get better try getting a job n meetin ppl or goin to college n u r a very beautiful girl and y dont u teel someone about wen u were 6 u will feel alot better getting it out u can im or email me n talk if u want Www@Answer-Health@Com

Your Grandad's passing can trigger depression, which can make you start feeling and worrying about what has happened to you!. I'd say, regardless of your Grandad's passing, you would go through some phase of depression!. When someone's life is that hard, it will affect them at some point, it could have been 10 years ago, 10 years from now, 10 years from there, etc!. When your depressed you often don't feel like eating, or over eat, drug abuse (including alcohol), lack of, or over sleeping, and like you said an unusually large sex drive, or no sex drive at all!.

Im very sorry to hear you feel the way you do, Im going through a rough time too, my dad's got cancer and it isnt looking good at all!.!.!. I can relate!. The fact is, when you block things out in your life like you did when you're six, it often can affect you later in life, just like if you didn't grieve your Grandad now, I can guarantee you would later in life!. All I can say is research depression, maybe antidepressants but they can also be the wrong move, and lastly find someone you can confide in, who can relate to you, that helps me a lot!. And find the best way to deal with depression, try not to hide behind alcohol or self pain!. I use pot personally, it works great!. Gets my mind off anything once I smoke a joint with a buddy, but thats just me, you have to find your escape!. Good luck and feel free to message me if you need to!. Www@Answer-Health@Com

Go see a Doc to get evaluated to get you on the right meds!. I am an anxiety stricken woman too!. im 22 with a toddler and a husband to take care of!. I had the same symptoms as you and i got on SSRI and a mild tranquilizer, which seems to help to get my life back!. Please seek some help so you dont hurt yourself!. You still have a lot of life left and there is too much to see in this world!. Please take care of yourself you will make it!.Www@Answer-Health@Com

you just need someone to help push you and guid you!. i was at rock bottom a few years ago and now im almost back 100% its a tough f--ing road but it is worth it when you see tha change and the way you fought back to get your life on track again!. im hear if you need to talk!. hang in thereWww@Answer-Health@Com

Awwww I really wish I could just give yas a hug : ) I am recovering from depression right now actually so i know how bad it sucks!. For starters, DON'T EVER wish you weren't alive! I have felt like that and it sucks but just talk to people about it!. I know it sounds stupid and really cliche'd, but its true!. Talk to friends about how ya feel and in time you WILL feel better, trust me!. I went through it all!. Send me an email : ) I'll help ANY way I possibly can!. We can be like pen pals or something : ) You'll make it through this!.Www@Answer-Health@Com

what you need is to see a therapist!. and quite possibly a psychiatrist for meds to treat your depression and bi-polar!. you don't need to go through this all by yourself!. it doesn't sound like you have much of a support group in your life!. i am sorry about your granddad!. that is rough!. no young person should have to go through that!. please do yourself a favour and seek the help that you need so badly!. many blessings to you!.Www@Answer-Health@Com





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