I think I'm depressed again...?!
Question: I think I'm depressed again!.!.!.!?
I have had a big history of depression and self harm since the age of 10 for a number of reasons!. iv been to different types of therapy and to many different psychiatrists over the time period of 6 yrs up to my current age of 16!. it seems to be an on and off thing!. iv never had any real friends in my life!. over the past 4 months iv been extremely down!. I met a girl n she asked me out!. i accepted!. i wasn't really into her but i begun to to like her more and more over time!. I fell in love with her unintentionally and she dumped me bang flat like that and i didn't get a reason why!. a month later she contacted me through Msn n said she wanted to be friends!. i went along with it because i thought she was trying to connect again!. i hung around with her but she got sum1 else round which turned out to be her boyfriend!. i was devestated but bottled it up!. we had a major argument a week ago n now she h8s my guts!. my 1 true friend and 1 love!.
Iv been at english college for three weeks and havent met any1 and the course i applied 4 isnt what i expected!. its dreadful!. Lately iv lost all interest in everything i found enjoyable, completely lost me appetite and eat out of neccesity rather than want!. I find no happyness in anything and iv begun to hate myself!. who i am in personality and body!. a few week ago i tried to overdose!. I took a mix of 18 Ibuprofen and paracetamol tablets!. my body threw em back up within an hour!. my parents found out and think im a EMO nutter!. they wanna chuck some more drugs down me(antidrepressants) to keep me happy and they hope my sadness will go away!.
Eversince i tryed to OD iv turned to cutting to try to cope with my emotional pain!. C!.U!.T!.!.!.!.!.Coping untill tomorrow!.
So all in all!. no friends now!. no girlfriend!.in a course that is terrible!. parents are ignorant of my emotional pain!. I Feel completely numb!. I hate who and what i am!. My only way to cope with emotional pain is cutting which i find is a suprisingly good release!. To feel the pain and see my own blood spill because i know i deserve it for being me!.
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Iv been at english college for three weeks and havent met any1 and the course i applied 4 isnt what i expected!. its dreadful!. Lately iv lost all interest in everything i found enjoyable, completely lost me appetite and eat out of neccesity rather than want!. I find no happyness in anything and iv begun to hate myself!. who i am in personality and body!. a few week ago i tried to overdose!. I took a mix of 18 Ibuprofen and paracetamol tablets!. my body threw em back up within an hour!. my parents found out and think im a EMO nutter!. they wanna chuck some more drugs down me(antidrepressants) to keep me happy and they hope my sadness will go away!.
Eversince i tryed to OD iv turned to cutting to try to cope with my emotional pain!. C!.U!.T!.!.!.!.!.Coping untill tomorrow!.
So all in all!. no friends now!. no girlfriend!.in a course that is terrible!. parents are ignorant of my emotional pain!. I Feel completely numb!. I hate who and what i am!. My only way to cope with emotional pain is cutting which i find is a suprisingly good release!. To feel the pain and see my own blood spill because i know i deserve it for being me!.
Any suggestions!?Www@Answer-Health@Com
Answers:
OMg! That is terrible! The girl is so bad! I feel bad for you!.!.!. :(Www@Answer-Health@Com
dont worry, everyone is an emo at least once their life :PWww@Answer-Health@Com
I suggest you find God and let him tell you what to do!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
ah, don't fret i'm EMO i chose to be that, and if you get down find something that makes you happy!.Www@Answer-Health@Com