I think im depressed again...?!
Question: I think im depressed again!.!.!.!?
I have had a big history of depression and self harm since the age of 10 for a number of reasons!. iv been to different types of therapy and to many different psychiatrists over the time period of 6 yrs up to my current age of 16!. it seems to be an on and off thing!. iv never had any real friends in my life!. over the past 4 months iv been extremely down!. I met a girl n she asked me out!. i accepted!. i wasn't really into her but i begun to to like her more and more over time!. I fell in love with her unintentionally and she dumped me bang flat like that and i didn't get a reason why!. a month later she contacted me through Msn n said she wanted to be friends!. i went along with it because i thought she was trying to connect again!. i hung around with her but she got sum1 else round which turned out to be her boyfriend!. i was devestated but bottled it up!. we had a major argument a week ago n now she h8s my guts!. my 1 true friend and 1 love!.
Iv been at english college for three weeks and havent met any1 and the course i applied 4 isnt what i expected!. its dreadful!. Lately iv lost all interest in everything i found enjoyable, completely lost me appetite and eat out of neccesity rather than want!. I find no happyness in anything and iv begun to hate myself!. who i am in personality and body!. a few week ago i tried to overdose!. I took a mix of 18 Ibuprofen and paracetamol tablets!. my body threw em back up within an hour!. my parents found out and think im a EMO nutter!. they wanna chuck some more drugs down me(antidrepressants) to keep me happy and they hope my sadness will go away!.
Eversince i tryed to OD iv turned to cutting to try to cope with my emotional pain!. C!.U!.T!.!.!.!.!.Coping untill tomorrow!.
So all in all!. no friends now!. no girlfriend!.in a course that is terrible!. parents are ignorant of my emotional pain!. I Feel completely numb!. I hate who and what i am!. My only way to cope with emotional pain is cutting which i find is a suprisingly good release!. To feel the pain and see my own blood spill because i know i deserve it for being me!.
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Iv been at english college for three weeks and havent met any1 and the course i applied 4 isnt what i expected!. its dreadful!. Lately iv lost all interest in everything i found enjoyable, completely lost me appetite and eat out of neccesity rather than want!. I find no happyness in anything and iv begun to hate myself!. who i am in personality and body!. a few week ago i tried to overdose!. I took a mix of 18 Ibuprofen and paracetamol tablets!. my body threw em back up within an hour!. my parents found out and think im a EMO nutter!. they wanna chuck some more drugs down me(antidrepressants) to keep me happy and they hope my sadness will go away!.
Eversince i tryed to OD iv turned to cutting to try to cope with my emotional pain!. C!.U!.T!.!.!.!.!.Coping untill tomorrow!.
So all in all!. no friends now!. no girlfriend!.in a course that is terrible!. parents are ignorant of my emotional pain!. I Feel completely numb!. I hate who and what i am!. My only way to cope with emotional pain is cutting which i find is a suprisingly good release!. To feel the pain and see my own blood spill because i know i deserve it for being me!.
Any suggestions!?Www@Answer-Health@Com
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wow and i thought i was the only one with a bad life!. i am just getting over the fear of my brothers because when i was 10 or 11 i was sexually abused by one and about 2 months ago one of my other brothers did the same thing to me!. my father is an alcoholic and my mom has had a staff infection in her mouth for the past 5 years i kept it locked up for a long time and i started to get depressed and my parents didn't really care so i thought that i was alone in this world in till i decided that i wasn't going to let my family or my problems ruin and run my life for me i decided i wasn't going to give up on my life i was going to take it and straighten it out and make the best of it!. i was sick of hiding from what was true and accept it i have a bad life!. and one day i went to school and i found a note in my locker and it said, "why don't you try coming to my youth group" it told me what the church was so i was like what could it hurt so i went one wednesday an i kept going and i realized i had friends even when i didn't know it i just had to step out of my little bubble and look at the world in a different perspective in the perspective of a new born christian and i realized that the reason that hey i cant do anything about my life right know but i can give it shot and have fun with the people that care about me!.
so i guess what i am trying to say is atleast try finding a youth group that will acept you the way you are and try to stop cutting yourself i have a friend who did that and she got sick and it took her a long time to get better and it was really scary!. hope i helped you and seriously if you need help keep in contact with me ill help you as best i canWww@Answer-Health@Com
so i guess what i am trying to say is atleast try finding a youth group that will acept you the way you are and try to stop cutting yourself i have a friend who did that and she got sick and it took her a long time to get better and it was really scary!. hope i helped you and seriously if you need help keep in contact with me ill help you as best i canWww@Answer-Health@Com
i have been like that!.nothing new!.many people in world suffered!.there could have been worst!.so try to stand and fight again!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
Just suck it up!. Nobody gives a **** that you're depressed, live with it!. That's what I do and it makes me no longer depressed after I realize that telling people that you're depressed is just a cry for attention!. Www@Answer-Health@Com
don't listen to the man infront of me, hes just on here to be a B*****
cutting can lead onto terrible things, like death and it can become an addiction!. so i wouldn't recommend that you keep doing that!. To deal with your emotional pain i would start by going to a local christian youth group, even if your not very religious, it helps!. Your class that you hate doesn't last very long!. maybe a semester im guessing!? so that is kinda close to be done and it's not going to last forever!. Try going around you college campus and make new friends!.During lunches go head up to a local coffee shop and make a conversation with someone!. Good Luck =DWww@Answer-Health@Com
cutting can lead onto terrible things, like death and it can become an addiction!. so i wouldn't recommend that you keep doing that!. To deal with your emotional pain i would start by going to a local christian youth group, even if your not very religious, it helps!. Your class that you hate doesn't last very long!. maybe a semester im guessing!? so that is kinda close to be done and it's not going to last forever!. Try going around you college campus and make new friends!.During lunches go head up to a local coffee shop and make a conversation with someone!. Good Luck =DWww@Answer-Health@Com