Is it just me, or am I turning insane?!

I sleep 5 hours a day, I do my homework at 10:00 P!.M!., I talk to myself, I don't have any friends, I get beat up at home, nobody at my school trusts me (not even the teachers), my family is divorced, I have a hostile attitude towards everyone, I always make someone that likes me hate me after a day, I give things to people to the extent where I don't have anything left, I lie a lot to avoid doing things that I don't like to, I always think that I'm sick when I feel warm, I complain a lot to my friend (which I think will make her hate me), I am lazy, I don't have much money (anymore), I try and do things, but I sit around on the computer and eat junk food all day, I hate my family, I'm quiet, I'm shy, I get distracted easily, I can't keep focus on one thing, I have a tendency to look away from the person who's talking unless they are on the "lock" on my head, I hate fat people, but I'm a bit chubby myself, I don't like it when someone tells me that I can't do something, I don't like it when someone accuses me of something, I'm always telling someone (at least twice a day) that I will kill them when I grow up so then they won't die by a stranger, I'm always threatening someone that if they do something that I don't like or not keep a secret, I'll break their neck, I don't trust adults, I don't eat lunch, I feel like I'm in my own little world every day, there are friends who like me, but whenever I see them with someone else besides me, I feel jealous and hurt!. I think that I have a "post traumatic disorder", but I don't know!. I'm always coping too, make fun of others too much, and whenever I hear someone cuss, I make humour out of the situation and laugh on the inside while I stare at them!. I look on the ground way too much!. My school counselor told me last year to go to a psycholotrist, but my mom thinks that I'm insane not because of her beating, but because of something else!. I feel like I'm smarter than my mom and I hate her!. My mom isn't going to bring me to a pycholotrist because it costs too much money and because my mom doesn't care unless I get good grades!.

Is there some sort-of medicine for me to take or something!? I feel like I'm normal and everyone else is weird rather than vise-versa!. How much do anti-depressants cost!? Do you have to have a prescription to get those!? Can anyone buy them!? Or do I have to get back on my own feet by my own strength!?Www@Answer-Health@Com

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