Depression and suicide....i need to vent (sry)?!


Question: Depression and suicide!.!.!.!.i need to vent (sry)!?
also, what are some things i could think to myself when i am feeling suicidal or really sad!?!? !.!.!.!.b/c i keep having these thoughts lately

like when i was walkin by a pool today i suddenly thought "what if i just fell in!?"
and i have also been continuously been thinkin of ways i could, and what i would write in my note!.!.!.!.

i know things will probbly get better but i have been depressed for a really long time and i really dont think anyone cares that much about me or what i do or what i have to say!. I just feel like i dont exist at all, so im not sure it will matter that much i really dont exist anymore!.

for the last 4 years i always begin getting really depressed after school has been in fo a coupe of months, and usually begin feeling better when school is almost out!.
Idk if it is seasonal or if it is just because after a few months of trying to stay happy and confident after school gets in, i just give up on myself and get depressed, and then when school is almost out i start feeling better because i like the vacation time!.

i have one really good friend and my parents and a brother and sister!. I would never want to hurt them, i love them so much
!.!.!.but im afraid one day i might just do something stupid like walk in front of a car, but idk
i know i will never have anyone in my life after i leave home!. i am just too different and quiet!. i dont want an empty funeral but i believe there is a reason i am here, and dont want to let that go!.!.!.


and please dont tell me to tell anyone or get help b/c that is the last thing i need, to embarras myself infront of ppl and then more attention!. errr!.!.!.!.
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Keep reminding yourself of what you have already said; you do believe that there is a reason that you are here, and you don't want to give that up!. You don't want to hurt your loved ones!. You also said that you know that things will probably get better; they WILL get better!. But composing a good-bye note, thinking of falling into a pool, and worrying that you would walk in front of a car one day are very dangerous thoughts; you have serious depression!. The way your mood is changing every few months may mean it could be even something more complicated than that!.
No one can answer this question without telling you that you need to get help!. And you are at a point where you need help NOW; you are thinking of ways to kill yourself!. The fact that you wrote this question actually means that you do want to be helped!. And you can do this without embarrassing yourself!. Any counselor, psychiatrist, or psychologist would not tell anyone else anything you say!. They are not allowed to!. You can start with your regular doctor and ask for a recommendation!. Or, if this would involve your parents too much for you, you could start with your school counselor and see what he/she could help you with!. And please please please call a suicide hotline if you need to: The National Suicide Prev Hotline is 1-800-273-TALK
They may be able to help you get help with finding a mental health providor as well!.

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you'll be fine!.!. dont let things that dont matter get the best of you!. just try to remind yourself each day is a new day and that there is hope in the future!. giving in would be the easy thing to do; it takes a strong person to learn how to live through life without bein killed!

"some good things fall apart so better things can fall together"Www@Answer-Health@Com

If you wanna talk or vent email me!.!.!. im on my lap itop about 15 out of 24 hours in the day so!.!.!.!. if you wanna talk about anything email me and maybe i can help!.!.!.!. easier to talk to a stranger right!?
Mika C ^_^Www@Answer-Health@Com

if you need to talk im hear!. hope you feel betterWww@Answer-Health@Com

Well, here's a thought!. Go to the morgue and tell them how you are feeling and you want to actually see what
dead people look like!.
Or go to a funeral home and go look at all the dead people in the caskets!.
Or go to an Emergency hospital and hang around by
where the ambulances come in and see the excruciating
pain that injury and death can cause!.
If you feel that death is your only option, then you have no pleasure in life!. You have no meaning to yourself!.
You feel like a failure (even before you get started!.)
What is there in your life (and don't just toss the thought away!.) that would make you happier than you have ever been!? What animal could you love more than yourself!? Where would you want to live that would make you happier than now!? what school would you rather go to than the one you attend now!?
There is a central reason why you are feeling the way you do and all you need to do is find it--and change it!.
When I was 18, my answer was to get the hell out of where I lived and away from all my relations!.
I got on a bus and headed for California and never looked back!. I also never went back into that pit of hell either!. I have lived my life as a different and happy person!. Www@Answer-Health@Com

Think of something you really love to do and get doing it! You are so young and it is sad to read that someone so young can have such sad thoughts of hurting yourself!. Once you have found something that you are passionate about, that you absolutely love doing you will find that bit of happiness that will help get you out of this rut you are in!. There must be something that you love doing/a hobby/a sport/music something that you love to do and just do it all the time!. Get back into learning to laugh again, just laugh like you are crazy and insane and you will start to remember how it feels to laugh your guts out, laugh until it hurts in your stomach!.!.!.!.go ahead just laugh out loud for no reason at all!.!.come on!.!.I don't hear you!.!.!.!.!.:) Now, think of something you love to do and get doing it and do it everyday until you feel happiness again!.!.!.you can do it and you owe it to yourself to take advantage of the world in front of you!. You have lots to give the world, so don't take yourself out of it!. LAUGH NOW!!!Www@Answer-Health@Com

I'd recommend that you think through what will happen to a person's body, or you, what would go through your mind, if walked in front of a car, jumped into a pool (are you a swimmer!?) etc!.

Some methods don't leave you any time to re-consider and can take a long suffer-time to terminate (imagine being hit by a moving vehicle, getting severely injured (open fractures, lacerations, soft tissue injuries), but not loosing consciousness!? Drowning and the associated hypoxia (lack of oxygen in the blood) causes severe anxiety, the last minutes of such a life are not 'fun'!.

Most people do not die in a matter of milliseconds as is portrayed in movies!. Dying is actually a process, it can take a life time, or cruel minutes!.!.!.

Everyone's mind crosses over these thought at some point in their life (or the majority does), but it could be an indication of a mental disorder that can be treated (depression being one of them)!. Acting up on these feelings/thought due to the mental illness would be indeed sad, not just for you! Like I said, because many of its causes, the mental illness, can be treated!. Suicide in contrast can't be treated!.!.!.Www@Answer-Health@Com

Let me tell you something!. I have lost two classmates, one of which was a friend to suicide!. My mother has also tried to commit suicide half a dozen times!. Depression with suicidal thoughts is a serious illness and should be treated as such!. Would you avoid going to the doctor for possible cancer from your genital area just because you were embarrassed!? That is a stupid excuse!. Depression can kill, and if you want to live, then see a doctor!. Don't make up stupid excuses!. And what is this "no one will go to my funeral" crap!? Trust me, even people who don't know you very well will be very saddened and upset by your death!. All your classmates regardless of whether they know you or like you will be upset by it!. Losing anyone to suicide is much worse to deal with than taking care of someone with mental illness!. People care!. They may not show it, but they care!. Even the people who dislike you care whether or not you die!. Saying you don't think people care is your depression speaking!. Stop make stupid excuses and get help!. This is a serious illness, not a personal failing!. There's nothing to be embarrassed by!. It's also perfectly treatable by a doctor!. Www@Answer-Health@Com

i understand that you need to vent!.!. im not sure how old you are!.!. but you sound like you are still in highschool!? I kinda went through the same thing that you are!.!. and i never wanted help either!.!.!. and you will find someone as beautiful as you are!.!. there is someone out there for everyone! Make sure you do a lot of things that you enjoy!.!. and go to college and major in something that you have always dreamed of doing!.!. make yourself happy!.!. and know that people do care about you!.!. highschool is rough as hell !.!.!. college is way better!.!. trust me!! P!.S!. Dont forget to pray and tell god how you feel, he will make you better as wellWww@Answer-Health@Com

There is a book about people who have attempted suicide and failed!. They survived!. Each one of them tells the story of why they wanted to end their life!. They go on the admit that they are very happy that they did not die, because they learned what their life was all about!. There is something they can add to society by existing on this earth!.

Just remember: Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem!.

Your life is worth living!.Www@Answer-Health@Com

What you think is the last thing you need is exactly what you need!. When a person is depressed they don't do the things that would make them feel better!. They can't, the sense of hopelessness you feel is the depression clouding your judgment!. If left untreated you probably will hurt yourself or worse!.!.!. You may have a bipolar disorder which if you do absolutely requires treatment!. You say you only have only friend and that you don't think you matter!. That is the depression talking not you!. It sounds like you've been going through this a long time!. Well is it getting better!? No, and it won't without treatment!. I take an antidepressant everyday!. I have a chemical in-balance in my brain!. I didn't do anything to bring it on it just is!. I'm not embarrassed, I'm happy because I am being treated!. I have a great life and a wonderful family!. You could to if only you would tell someone (besides us on Yahoo Answers) what your feeling!. Try talking to a school counselor if you don't think you can approach you parents!.

You have no idea how many lives you touch everyday!. You probably have a lot of people in school that like you a lot but may not feel your approachable!. You would see that more clearly if you were being treated for your depression!. Life is too short to be so miserable and sad!.

And lastly, suicide is a selfish act!. Sure you'll be out of pain but the pain you would inflict on your family is immesurable!. They would blame themselves for not knowing you needed them!. They would always wonder what they did wrong!. Do you want your family to go through that kind of hell!? You have to tell someone who can help you, NOW!!!

I don't know you but I care, I really do!. My son has Asperger's Syndrome (high functionin autism)!. He is brilliantly smart by lacks the social skills to make deep lasting friendships!. I monitor him very closely as I have discovered through research that Asperger kids have a much higher rate of depression than others do!. The depression comes from lonliness, being a social outcast and from bullying!. If you were my son, I would want to know you were hurting so I could help you!. It's not embarrassing, you didn't do anything wrong, you can't help it!. Just tell you mom!. Please!!Www@Answer-Health@Com

i'm so sorry to hear this!. I can only imagine how you feel!. First off when you're feeling depressed tell yourself everything you like about yourself!. Also if you killed yourself you would break your family's hearts dont do that to them!. Think of all the things that God has blessed you with you're healthy, you have a family that loves you and a really good friend, a house, lots of things!. You said you know theres a reason you're here, you're right God puts everyone on Earth for a reason if you weren't suppost to be here you wouldn't be!. God makes everyone the way they are for a reason!. You might feel so small in the world and that no one cares but He does and He loves you unconditionally!. There are also people out there who love and care about you!. Maybe you just don't no it yet!. I don't even know you, but i care!. If i found out you killed yourself I would cry and feel i didn't try hard enough to stop you!. So please don't do that!. There's a reason you exsist, God has a plan for you!. Please don't do anything!.!. If you want you can add me if you need someone to talk to, I'm here!.Www@Answer-Health@Com

there was a time in my life when i felt that way too!.!.!.were i just thought to myself!.!.!."if i just got hit hard enough!.!.!.!."!.!.!.!.or "if i just fell!.!.!.!."
but then i decide that i wanted to just stop!.!.!.while i was still in my sences!.!.!.and i talked to my friend that i have known for 6yrs!.!.!.!.she taught me that
you may not be able to lose anything more but that only means you have everything to gain, that may take time but in the end everything turns out the way you want it to
im not saying that you need to tell just some random person!.!.!.or an adult like your parents or anything!.!.!.!.
but if you just think about all the people in your life!.!.!.!.!.and think about how each one of them might react!.!.!.
if you have any good guy friends!.!.!.!.!.guys are really good listeners!.!.!.
girl ----friends no matter how close you are!.!.!.can sometimes take it the wrong way
and then it may make you feel worse
you dont even have to come right out and say it!.!.!.!.just vent!.!.!.everyone needs to
trust me!.!.!.it wont cause attention!.!.!.just pick the right person
!.!.!.hope i helped you!.!.=lWww@Answer-Health@Com





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