Why am i like this? please helppppppp xxxxxxxx?!
Question: Why am i like this!? please helppppppp xxxxxxxx!?
So ive always been unhappy for as long as i remember, well since my mum left my dad and i didn't get to see him anymore!. i was 7 then, Alot of stuff happened when i was younger, i dont want to go into much detail about it, but my mums "friend" was a child molester and short memories keep flicking back in my head, ive only told 1 friend about it, i dont want to tell my mum because she will feel guilty!. I dont feel as if im normal, the thoughts i have arnt normal!.
About a year ago i began a mad eating disorder, ive been diagnosed with BDD (body dysmorphic disorder) because i spent years of getting bullied about my nose!. ( its horrible )!. and gaining weight was the last thing i could do!. Bulimia kicked in and i had a huge fall out with 2 friends at school (its dumb i no, people always fall out) but i get attached and fall outs kill me i swear, and i took an overdose!. Since that day i never returned to school as i had huge problems there!. after months of the constant eating disorder people started to notice just how thin i was getting, and my mum heard me binge n purge one night, she put me under phsyciatric help, i got better, and now im eating ok again!. before all of this id slept with 2 people ( well 1, im not sure if the other one counted because it was too painful ) (the one that i did sleep with i was in a relationship with) and i kept myself to myself!. after i got better, something in me changed, i became aggressive to people, and i cut myself short!. I then slept with another guy who put me through hell, he was my friend for a year, and he made comments about me which i asked him not to mention to people, but he did!. and we had an aweful fall out!. this was in october, and he still hasnt spoke to me since!.!. One night, i went out and got totally drunk, a really disgusting guy i know carried me when i callapsed, and slept with me!. i was in no fit state to say yes or no, he is so disgusting, he is a horrible person, and he is so aweful looking and it makes me wanna puke all over myself!. since that night i really went down hill, i was so moody, so depressed, and the only happy thought i got in my head was of me dying!. I pictured in my head how i was gunna stab myself!. thats how disgusting it is!.
I got nasty, and moody, and i cried alot, i then started seeing another guy who is so lovely, and my best mate started going out with my best friend!. Ive slept with both!. please dont leave me a comment telling me im a sl*t, i already no that, and i cant control it!. Ive cheated on my bf, with my best firends bf!. this isnt me and now ive done it i just wanna be under a bus or something!. I spoke to my dad last night, after a long time, i had to force his number out of my grandmar because he didnt alow us to ring!. and loads of trouble come out of it!. how can i sort this out!.!. please help, ive turned into someone that i hate!.
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About a year ago i began a mad eating disorder, ive been diagnosed with BDD (body dysmorphic disorder) because i spent years of getting bullied about my nose!. ( its horrible )!. and gaining weight was the last thing i could do!. Bulimia kicked in and i had a huge fall out with 2 friends at school (its dumb i no, people always fall out) but i get attached and fall outs kill me i swear, and i took an overdose!. Since that day i never returned to school as i had huge problems there!. after months of the constant eating disorder people started to notice just how thin i was getting, and my mum heard me binge n purge one night, she put me under phsyciatric help, i got better, and now im eating ok again!. before all of this id slept with 2 people ( well 1, im not sure if the other one counted because it was too painful ) (the one that i did sleep with i was in a relationship with) and i kept myself to myself!. after i got better, something in me changed, i became aggressive to people, and i cut myself short!. I then slept with another guy who put me through hell, he was my friend for a year, and he made comments about me which i asked him not to mention to people, but he did!. and we had an aweful fall out!. this was in october, and he still hasnt spoke to me since!.!. One night, i went out and got totally drunk, a really disgusting guy i know carried me when i callapsed, and slept with me!. i was in no fit state to say yes or no, he is so disgusting, he is a horrible person, and he is so aweful looking and it makes me wanna puke all over myself!. since that night i really went down hill, i was so moody, so depressed, and the only happy thought i got in my head was of me dying!. I pictured in my head how i was gunna stab myself!. thats how disgusting it is!.
I got nasty, and moody, and i cried alot, i then started seeing another guy who is so lovely, and my best mate started going out with my best friend!. Ive slept with both!. please dont leave me a comment telling me im a sl*t, i already no that, and i cant control it!. Ive cheated on my bf, with my best firends bf!. this isnt me and now ive done it i just wanna be under a bus or something!. I spoke to my dad last night, after a long time, i had to force his number out of my grandmar because he didnt alow us to ring!. and loads of trouble come out of it!. how can i sort this out!.!. please help, ive turned into someone that i hate!.
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I'm so sorry! It sounds like you're seriously depressed!. You've lost the will to live and make up for it in sleeping with guys that you don't necessarily want to sleep with!. I think that you should find help, and soon! Having your happiest thought be death is the worst thing that can happen to you! You have to think about the bright side, and if you can't right now, you need to change your life so that you can!.
http://www!.healthyplace!.com/Communities/!.!.!. Here's a link to a website that can help you!. Good luck! :)Www@Answer-Health@Com
http://www!.healthyplace!.com/Communities/!.!.!. Here's a link to a website that can help you!. Good luck! :)Www@Answer-Health@Com
i have been to the dark place you are at the one good thing is you can talk about it!.Your first place to go is to your doctor when you talk to him or her it will all pour out ,he will probably give you some antidepressants these will help you and sleep better too,he may send you to see some who can help you more and knows more about your illness because that is what it is!.It takes along time to get to the place you are at right now there is a way back but it will take time but you will get there in the end i did good luck to you on your journeyWww@Answer-Health@Com
Well there is a way *Sigh* you have to come forth to all the people involved and tell them exactly what you did, state a reason if you have one, and then apologise!.
That may hate you, or sympathise with you, but at least you can't hate yourself as much and with it out in the open you can soon get self-help and perhaps make her friends, or rekindle with the old ones with a much more clear conscience!.
Nobody said this was going to be easy and painless, sorry, I hope you feel better!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
That may hate you, or sympathise with you, but at least you can't hate yourself as much and with it out in the open you can soon get self-help and perhaps make her friends, or rekindle with the old ones with a much more clear conscience!.
Nobody said this was going to be easy and painless, sorry, I hope you feel better!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
i think you need someone to talk to you are not a slut, you are a good person you have just had some hard times in your life!.
If I were you I would take a look at the things that are bothering you and ask your self why you think that way, write it down!. When you have you answer you should then think of what it means to you and why it bothers you!. Then write down what what you just wrote down means to you and why it bothers you!. Next make up a person who has the same problems and have a conversation with them on the paper!. give them advice!.
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If I were you I would take a look at the things that are bothering you and ask your self why you think that way, write it down!. When you have you answer you should then think of what it means to you and why it bothers you!. Then write down what what you just wrote down means to you and why it bothers you!. Next make up a person who has the same problems and have a conversation with them on the paper!. give them advice!.
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ok i am not sure of your age but i hope you getr help soon!. I think you should be admitted to a hospital because you are a danger to yourself!.!. Ususally suicidal thoughts are of overdoses h, hanging but it is a first i hear of stabbing self! The way you are going through life shows abnodament that and hole s of pain you are trying to fill with binging, disorders and sleeping around!. You are so afraid to get hurt that you find a way to subbatoge realtionship that are near to you so you can feel safe emotionally!. So they don;t leave you but you leave them with an excuse!. You NEED to talk to someone to arrange something for you ASAP! Hope you feel well and hope you get better soon!@Www@Answer-Health@Com
hey!. number one: u r not a sl*t!. number 2: its not ur fault!. number 3: i have a friend at school who went through almost the same stuff that you went through!. she is almost like a "sister" to me!. what you need to do is to go to a psychiratrist and talk about this!. he can help!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
Wow it sounds like you've been through a lot!. It sounds like you need someone to talk you through this it d oesn't mean your crazy it means you care about yourself enough to get help!.
You've been through a lot and keeping that in for that long isn't good PLease do yourself a favor and go talk to someone!. Www@Answer-Health@Com
You've been through a lot and keeping that in for that long isn't good PLease do yourself a favor and go talk to someone!. Www@Answer-Health@Com
Im so sorry for everything you've been thru!.
Please for urself, see ur doctor!. Tell ur friends and family about whats been going on and how you feel!. get help!. people online cant help!.
all the best and good luck!. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxWww@Answer-Health@Com
Please for urself, see ur doctor!. Tell ur friends and family about whats been going on and how you feel!. get help!. people online cant help!.
all the best and good luck!. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxWww@Answer-Health@Com