SOS stress call: I can't help but keep becoming suicidal?!
Question: SOS stress call: I can't help but keep becoming suicidal!?
I really don't want to kill myself but I just can't shake off the feeling that it's TOO LATE for me to do anything, despite of the fact that many people told me that it's never too late for improvement!.
Why too late!? See, I have a huge time management issue and can't stop wasting time!. Even when I study and work I can't concentrate, causing ineffectiveness, so I found it pointless and end up not to study and work at all!. I am literally wasting my life away yet I still can't make the most effective and efficient of time, and since lost time can never be recovered this is what I mean by too late!. I'm also condemned with the sin of sloth; many times I'm too indifferent and apathic to do anything productive even if everything is falling apart (which is another reason why it's "too late" for me since I'd let many opportunities go while doing nothing about it)!. Three months ago I met a mentor-mother figure, who has been my sunshine and tries her best to help me, I love her so much and promised her that I will improve, only to fail my promises again and again!. All these failures only make me to hate myself more!. I know that when one learns to forgive and love oneself the real healing begins but I simply can't forgive and love myself!. There's no reason to forgive and love myself with all my failures, only hate!.
PLEASE HELP!?!!?! I am only 21 and I really don't want to die! How do I make the most effective and efficient of time!? How do I convince myself that it's not too late even though so much time and opportunities were lost!? How can I live up to my mentor-mother's love and hopes!? THE MOST IMPORTANT OF ALL, HOW CAN I LET THE REAL HEALING BEGINS BY LEARNING TO FORGIVE AND LOVE MYSELF DESPITE OF ALL MY FAILURES!?
Thanks for listening, I'm sorry if it's too long, I just really need some help!. If you don't feel like answering all just answer the last one----how to forgive and love myself and let the real healing begins!? Www@Answer-Health@Com
Why too late!? See, I have a huge time management issue and can't stop wasting time!. Even when I study and work I can't concentrate, causing ineffectiveness, so I found it pointless and end up not to study and work at all!. I am literally wasting my life away yet I still can't make the most effective and efficient of time, and since lost time can never be recovered this is what I mean by too late!. I'm also condemned with the sin of sloth; many times I'm too indifferent and apathic to do anything productive even if everything is falling apart (which is another reason why it's "too late" for me since I'd let many opportunities go while doing nothing about it)!. Three months ago I met a mentor-mother figure, who has been my sunshine and tries her best to help me, I love her so much and promised her that I will improve, only to fail my promises again and again!. All these failures only make me to hate myself more!. I know that when one learns to forgive and love oneself the real healing begins but I simply can't forgive and love myself!. There's no reason to forgive and love myself with all my failures, only hate!.
PLEASE HELP!?!!?! I am only 21 and I really don't want to die! How do I make the most effective and efficient of time!? How do I convince myself that it's not too late even though so much time and opportunities were lost!? How can I live up to my mentor-mother's love and hopes!? THE MOST IMPORTANT OF ALL, HOW CAN I LET THE REAL HEALING BEGINS BY LEARNING TO FORGIVE AND LOVE MYSELF DESPITE OF ALL MY FAILURES!?
Thanks for listening, I'm sorry if it's too long, I just really need some help!. If you don't feel like answering all just answer the last one----how to forgive and love myself and let the real healing begins!? Www@Answer-Health@Com
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HA! When you lifted your hands to type that, you had a way big reason!.!.!.to inform us you want to get the message out!.!.!.now, put it in a poem, and let's go, let's go!.!.!.down to Junior's Farm!.!.!.see!?
Wake up with tunes in your head, and keep em guessing!!!Www@Answer-Health@Com
HA! When you lifted your hands to type that, you had a way big reason!.!.!.to inform us you want to get the message out!.!.!.now, put it in a poem, and let's go, let's go!.!.!.down to Junior's Farm!.!.!.see!?
Wake up with tunes in your head, and keep em guessing!!!Www@Answer-Health@Com
its not the end of the world you just got too much in your life!. try to work oh a schedual and always make sure you make time for yourself to relax and think things throughWww@Answer-Health@Com
I suggest that if you really would like to kill yourself--go jump off the nearest bridge-this way you will not have to continue writing the same- thing on your computer every couple of weeks!.
YOU GO NOW!Www@Answer-Health@Com
YOU GO NOW!Www@Answer-Health@Com
This is not the place to obtain real help for a very serious problem!. You need a professional to guide you!. Have your mentor help you find a group where others are going through the same type of problem!.
At the very least remember that you are not alone!. Everyone has felt this way at one time or another!. I send you sincere wishes and a virtual shoulder to lean upon!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
At the very least remember that you are not alone!. Everyone has felt this way at one time or another!. I send you sincere wishes and a virtual shoulder to lean upon!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
Ok i see that you mention quit a bit that your a failure!. thats your very first mistake, your mind is like a spunge what you say and hear when you say these things will only lead you to get worse!. you cannot expect to get any bettter with the state of mind your in when you say these things about yourself!. Know your worth i know that it can be difficult when that part of you say that your not worth!. been there almost did that believe me change your thoughts about yourself and begin to change your life!. Stare in the mirror for 5-10min a day and look at yourself deeply speak to yourself about your positives in life!. (I know you may think this is wierd but it had saved me years ago, i am also 21)
You focus entirely tooo hard on the expectaions you didn't live up to!. Do you know EVERYONE is fails t one point!. this doesnt mean that we are failures this just means that we have made a mistake, but the beautiful thing about life is that you live another day to fix your MISTAKES!. The fact that you cannot concentrate says to me that this is just much more than feeling like a faiure or wanting to die!. there is a deeper issue that has caused you to feel this way!. it has taken hold of your life!. If you don't do the mirror thing then i suggest that you write down everything your feeling when you feel worthless!. Don't be suprised when you get 4 or 5+ pages lol!. I used to write a book every night!. If you want some other tips or you just want to talk about this more then you can email me if you want!. im in school for psychology and I defenately have years of experience in your shoe i used to be the same way!. if not maybe speak with licenesed pro!. God bless you!Www@Answer-Health@Com
You focus entirely tooo hard on the expectaions you didn't live up to!. Do you know EVERYONE is fails t one point!. this doesnt mean that we are failures this just means that we have made a mistake, but the beautiful thing about life is that you live another day to fix your MISTAKES!. The fact that you cannot concentrate says to me that this is just much more than feeling like a faiure or wanting to die!. there is a deeper issue that has caused you to feel this way!. it has taken hold of your life!. If you don't do the mirror thing then i suggest that you write down everything your feeling when you feel worthless!. Don't be suprised when you get 4 or 5+ pages lol!. I used to write a book every night!. If you want some other tips or you just want to talk about this more then you can email me if you want!. im in school for psychology and I defenately have years of experience in your shoe i used to be the same way!. if not maybe speak with licenesed pro!. God bless you!Www@Answer-Health@Com