I really need help...I'm not Okay...?!
Question: I really need help!.!.!.I'm not Okay!.!.!.!?
Okay, I'm nearly 13, and I've never been a really happy person!. I've always felt like I've never really!.!.!.comprehended why I'm here, what I'm good for!.!.!.I just feel like I'm worthless sometimes, well, most of the time!.!.!.!.
I've self harmed since November 2 of last year and, I'll be honest, the first time felt good!.
I can't ask for help, even if my parents realized I was sad all the time, even if I told them what I was doing, they don't believe in therapy or anything like that, they think it's a total waste of money!.
I've had dreams were I die, and where I am the reason I am dead, and sometimes, people don't care, and sometimes, they are just so upset in these dreams!. I've told two of my friends about it and they are concerned for me!.
I've been crying so much lately, I moved to Middlesboro, KY nearly 2 years ago and I HATE it, I used to live in Romulus, MI!. I've been especially upset lately, my friends sister recently died in a car crash, and today, a really nice boy from my 7th period class, was killed in a fire, along with his younger brother!. I'm so scared for myself, and I have so many other reasons that make me feel like I was put on this world so that I could build things up, things that I love, only to lose them in the end, and sometimes I think, why should I be apart of the terrible ending!?
I have been called emo and goth so many times, it's really not funny!. I mean I love the style emo and goth, but I really don't think that I am apart of it even if I look like it!.
So, please, what do you think I should!? I'm really scared, and I know I need help, and I also know that help is not going to come!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
I've self harmed since November 2 of last year and, I'll be honest, the first time felt good!.
I can't ask for help, even if my parents realized I was sad all the time, even if I told them what I was doing, they don't believe in therapy or anything like that, they think it's a total waste of money!.
I've had dreams were I die, and where I am the reason I am dead, and sometimes, people don't care, and sometimes, they are just so upset in these dreams!. I've told two of my friends about it and they are concerned for me!.
I've been crying so much lately, I moved to Middlesboro, KY nearly 2 years ago and I HATE it, I used to live in Romulus, MI!. I've been especially upset lately, my friends sister recently died in a car crash, and today, a really nice boy from my 7th period class, was killed in a fire, along with his younger brother!. I'm so scared for myself, and I have so many other reasons that make me feel like I was put on this world so that I could build things up, things that I love, only to lose them in the end, and sometimes I think, why should I be apart of the terrible ending!?
I have been called emo and goth so many times, it's really not funny!. I mean I love the style emo and goth, but I really don't think that I am apart of it even if I look like it!.
So, please, what do you think I should!? I'm really scared, and I know I need help, and I also know that help is not going to come!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
Answers:
Well I don't really know what to say :[ I have the same issues sorta (I don't har- screw that I do sometimes) But I think maybe you should talk to a councilor at school (I should too but I'm to scared to tell anyone I don't want to be judged plus my councilor at school is a retard)!. I wish I could tell you but the light is to far away and I don't feel that I will ever get to it!. I think that I'm bipolar but everytime I try and tell my mom she tells me how much worse it was for her (I go from deeply depressed and sort of suicidal to extremley happy)!. So I am afraid I don't know :[ and I am here if you need someone!. I will try my best to make you feel better!. I'm sorry I really am!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
see a school guidance counselor as soon as possible!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
my parents dont believe in counselling either, so I went to kidshelpphone!.com when I needed to talk to someone!. they're really good :)Www@Answer-Health@Com
You're not worthless,honey :)
What people label you does not matter-because they're just immature stereotypes-You've got friends who love and concern you,that's what's most important!.
You will get help-be hopeful, i really hope you get the advices that are helpful to you!.
talk to your school counselor in privately,they will recommend someone professional who will give you guidance!.
goodluck!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
What people label you does not matter-because they're just immature stereotypes-You've got friends who love and concern you,that's what's most important!.
You will get help-be hopeful, i really hope you get the advices that are helpful to you!.
talk to your school counselor in privately,they will recommend someone professional who will give you guidance!.
goodluck!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
as a mother of five children and having had to deal with some pretty horrible things in my life i wish that your parents would listen to you and realize that sometimes outside help is necessary!. My parents were the same way and so i really do understand what you are saying!. My help suggestion to you would be to find a school counsellor that you can somewhat trust and let them know how you are feeling and what you are doing!. You are a beautiful person that God created for His purpose and ours is not to try and figure out why we are here!. There are alot of bad things in this world and it is for you to to take control of your life!. Go to your counsellor and try to get help!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
Ok I no this will be hard to overcome and I hope I say nothing offensive while I answer the question & if I do I'm sorry I'm just trying to help!. U need to tell ur parents how u feel & about ur self harm!. It doesn't matter if they don't take u to therapy if u tell them they will be there for u even if they don't take u to therapy!. Trust ur parents they will most likely to what is best for u!. They luv u :) try to think positive!. About the self harm, take up a martial that way u can get ur anger out without hurting yourself!. It's is terrible to see people doing that to them selves!. Everybody has there place in the world even u!. U r sepecial!. Trust me, u r needed! I'm so sorry for your loses!. As they saying hoes "s**t happens" all the time & it makes me so sad to think about it!. But don't dwell in the past!. Celebrate the futur!. I'm not saying to forget about the past just don't get to depressed about it coz that is when things can start to spiral & although I don't no u I don't want that to happen to u!. Try to stay positive!. Remember that u r loved & needed!. I hope I helped :) I really doWww@Answer-Health@Com
Well if it helps you are not alone, there are many young, middle aged, and older people who have feel this way!. The sad thing is no one needs to feel like this!. There is many people out there who could help you if you go for help, either a teacher, student councellor, talk to a friends mother or call the emergency at the hospital and ask who you can see!. It sound like you are depressed or something has happened in your life that you can't handle and need to talk it out with someone you truth, it could be a thyroid imbalance or many other things!. The good thing is you are young enough that you can get help and put this all behind you and have a much happier life!.
It is really hard to do this when your parents don't support you and if your sure they don't, then take the steps to get help, you won't be able to do it on your own!.
Life is difficult but it is not impossible and you have so much to live for
Remember there is only one of you in this whole wide world, no one can take you place, you were put on this earth for a reason!. Gentle spirited people are rare and I get the sense that you are one of these people, this makes you special and you will do many wonderful things with your life, perhaps this is the foundation for you to grow for now, but calling a mental health professional to ask for help is usually free and many other resouces are out there, don't waste your precious life!.
Until you get the help you need, think nothing but positive things about yourself, as a matter of fact, every night, sit down and write ten positive things about yourself, you can do it and who know, your calling my be to help save someone else who feels like you do!.
Good luck sweetheart, my prayers are with you!.!.!.!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
It is really hard to do this when your parents don't support you and if your sure they don't, then take the steps to get help, you won't be able to do it on your own!.
Life is difficult but it is not impossible and you have so much to live for
Remember there is only one of you in this whole wide world, no one can take you place, you were put on this earth for a reason!. Gentle spirited people are rare and I get the sense that you are one of these people, this makes you special and you will do many wonderful things with your life, perhaps this is the foundation for you to grow for now, but calling a mental health professional to ask for help is usually free and many other resouces are out there, don't waste your precious life!.
Until you get the help you need, think nothing but positive things about yourself, as a matter of fact, every night, sit down and write ten positive things about yourself, you can do it and who know, your calling my be to help save someone else who feels like you do!.
Good luck sweetheart, my prayers are with you!.!.!.!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
Don't worry about what others call you, they are just as lost and wandering as the rest of us, they are just trying to hide it!. Everything will be okay, it's all right!. 13 is sometimes a very emotional age to go through!. Sounds like you have been through the mill, huh!? Have you ever tried meditation!? Or exercise, like yoga, (I know it sounds strange, but maybe it will help)!. Try try to find a trustworthy adult in your life to talk about these things with, please!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
The teen years, especially, can be very difficult, but things have a way of sorting themselves out, as you reach early adulthood, so just stick it out!. Life gets better, with a degree of maturity!. View the suggestions on what to do about self harming, in section 16, at http://www!.ezy-build!.net!.nz/~shaneris and contact them, when you feel the need to self harm/cut!. Use one of the alternatives shown!. There is much information, and useful weblinks in the website: far too much to fit in the allowable space here!. Seek therapy, to help you address the actual cause of those problems, rather than using an inappropriate method of treating the symptoms, which others have found, doesn't work, in the longer term, and that leaves behind the extra problem of scarring to deal with, then!. There is also a selection of treatments for scarring shown!. So, are you aware of why you self harm!?
The general reasons given are: depression (see section 2, at ezy build; page R first, then page V, young women's depression, & teen!? depression; eventually the rest) anger (see section 4; page C first), attention seeking, or boredom (suggestions for both are in section 16)!. Consider taking up amateur abstract, impressionist, or surrealist art, clay modelling, designing and/or making fashion, or jewellery!. Journalling those thoughts, and feelings, poetry, or story writing are some more options!. No-one has to see them, but you may well surprise yourself at how good you become, with experience!. Even if not, and you are totally dissatisfied with every single effort, it will still have served its purpose!. Use that emotional energy, and allow it expression, through an activity other than self harm!.
Teen resources are shown in section 13, on pages A, K, & T!. Free US calls!. Visit your school counselor on a semi-regular basis!. ONLINE THERAPY: http://www!.psychology!.com & http://www!.onestepatatime!.com & www!.kasamba!.com & www!.onlinecounselingtherapy!.com &
http://www!.counselingservicesonline!.org & http://onlinecounsellingservice!.co!.uk/ (email, instant chat, or V!.O!.I!.P!.) & http://www!.asktheinternettherapist!.com/ (telephone, email, chat, and audiovisual counseling mediums) & www!.onlinecounseling!.co!.za AT: http://www!.freeonlinetherapy!.net/ the first 20 minutes is free!. SKYPE: http://directory!.skype!.com/en/skypeprime!.!.!.
Options: Try: http://www!.mayoclinic!.com/health/meditat!.!.!. or http://www!.healthjourneys!.com/free_audio!.!.!.
Daily practice of a relaxation technique, including the ones in section11, at ezy build will help!. "I'm so scared for myself" - View section 6; page N first, and try the EFT, in section 53!. Self esteem is addressed in section 38!.
Make a list of all your good points, strengths, and achievements!. Put it somewhere so you can easily refer to it, from time to time; perhaps on the refrigerator door, or print it; (large typeface, or capitalise) have it framed, and place in your bedroom, or in a position of prominence, such as on the television, or lounge room wall!. Consider volunteering, even from home, at first - "I've never really!.!.!.comprehended why I'm here, what I'm good for!.!.!." this comes later, but, in the meantime, you can make yourself useful, and boost your self esteem!.
It's also a form of occupational therapy, and provides a realistic basis for the daily affirmations: "I am a good person, who is valued by my community, because I!.!. (insert activity here)!.!."!. Section 47 also refers!. Learn to identify, and confront your fears: a fear confronted is a fear reduced, but a fear avoided is a fear strengthened!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
The general reasons given are: depression (see section 2, at ezy build; page R first, then page V, young women's depression, & teen!? depression; eventually the rest) anger (see section 4; page C first), attention seeking, or boredom (suggestions for both are in section 16)!. Consider taking up amateur abstract, impressionist, or surrealist art, clay modelling, designing and/or making fashion, or jewellery!. Journalling those thoughts, and feelings, poetry, or story writing are some more options!. No-one has to see them, but you may well surprise yourself at how good you become, with experience!. Even if not, and you are totally dissatisfied with every single effort, it will still have served its purpose!. Use that emotional energy, and allow it expression, through an activity other than self harm!.
Teen resources are shown in section 13, on pages A, K, & T!. Free US calls!. Visit your school counselor on a semi-regular basis!. ONLINE THERAPY: http://www!.psychology!.com & http://www!.onestepatatime!.com & www!.kasamba!.com & www!.onlinecounselingtherapy!.com &
http://www!.counselingservicesonline!.org & http://onlinecounsellingservice!.co!.uk/ (email, instant chat, or V!.O!.I!.P!.) & http://www!.asktheinternettherapist!.com/ (telephone, email, chat, and audiovisual counseling mediums) & www!.onlinecounseling!.co!.za AT: http://www!.freeonlinetherapy!.net/ the first 20 minutes is free!. SKYPE: http://directory!.skype!.com/en/skypeprime!.!.!.
Options: Try: http://www!.mayoclinic!.com/health/meditat!.!.!. or http://www!.healthjourneys!.com/free_audio!.!.!.
Daily practice of a relaxation technique, including the ones in section11, at ezy build will help!. "I'm so scared for myself" - View section 6; page N first, and try the EFT, in section 53!. Self esteem is addressed in section 38!.
Make a list of all your good points, strengths, and achievements!. Put it somewhere so you can easily refer to it, from time to time; perhaps on the refrigerator door, or print it; (large typeface, or capitalise) have it framed, and place in your bedroom, or in a position of prominence, such as on the television, or lounge room wall!. Consider volunteering, even from home, at first - "I've never really!.!.!.comprehended why I'm here, what I'm good for!.!.!." this comes later, but, in the meantime, you can make yourself useful, and boost your self esteem!.
It's also a form of occupational therapy, and provides a realistic basis for the daily affirmations: "I am a good person, who is valued by my community, because I!.!. (insert activity here)!.!."!. Section 47 also refers!. Learn to identify, and confront your fears: a fear confronted is a fear reduced, but a fear avoided is a fear strengthened!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
Relax, sweetie!. Listen, people many years older than you have tried to comprehend why we are here and what the meaning of our lives are!. That alone makes you part of this crazy business we call life!. I am many, many years older than you, but have been and felt exactly what you are feeling now!. In that sense, we are sisters under the skin!.
When you live longer, you will find that we females are ALL sisters under the skin in one way or another!. We are connected and many of us care for each other - sight unseen!. I am very concerned for you!.
You have had some terrible emotional traumas what with moving, your friend's sister being killed, and then a boy from your class and his little brother!. That's a LOT of stuff to deal with, even for an adult!. That would rock my boat, for sure!.
13 is a very, very hard age to be!. You are no longer a kid, but not exactly an adult!. You are not sure what you believe in, or even if you should believe in anything!. This has being going on for so very long: Shakespeare expressed it simply when he asked, "To be, or not to be!? that is the question!." (To live, or not to live!?) My point: What you are feeling is normal!. Don't let it frighten you into thinking you aren't normal!.
First, I want to ask you to please stop self-harming!. This wonderful body of yours has to carry you through your life and you really must honor it and take care of it!.
Becasue of your age and fluctuating hormones, you have been feeling depressed before all these tramas happened!. The tramas can cause post-tramatic stress syndrome, simliar to what men and women who return from war suffer!. You've got a double whammy, sweetheart!.
Loss is very painful, but the joys of sharing your life and love with other human beings make it worth it!. The pain of loss fades in time, but memory of special people and special times warms us during the cold days of despair!. I know despair, too, but hold tight sweet memories!.
This is what I want you to do: Find a teacher or another adult (grandmother, aunt) that you trust!. Tell them a little of what you are feeling and thinking about the tramas, including how hard the move was for you!. Ask them if they can either speak to your parents for you or help you arrange counseling!. Mental health clinics offer low-cost counseling!.
It's extremely important that you find someone you trust that you can talk to!. And know that if life were eternal on this earth and no one died, we would not consider life to be prescious!. It would just be "ho hum"!.
Sometimes we lose people as a reminder that life gives us no guarantee that it will be long!.
If you cannot find a way to get counseling, get on the internet or go to the library and educate yourself about overcoming bad times!. I'm sending you a few links that may help!. Please use them!.
You can and will get better with just a little help over this very bad time!. I promise that you will find that the search for who you are and what you believe in will not be depressing, but exciting!. You can try on different things and ways to be!.
I think that to find who we are and put ourselves to work in our intended life is the reason we are here in the first place!. Some people are meant to serve, like nursing, others are meants to sing or dance or invent things, or perhaps bring some wonderful children into this world!.
So, try emo and goth on if you like, but move on to something else if it's not for you!. You can be anything you want to be!. You can!.
You can be happy!. Life is really full of miracles and beauty and mystery, and yes, sometimes pain, too!. Even the pain is just part of it!.
You are a child of God, and God gives us the where-with all to help ourselves!. God bless you!. I'm going to have you in my prayers every night!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
When you live longer, you will find that we females are ALL sisters under the skin in one way or another!. We are connected and many of us care for each other - sight unseen!. I am very concerned for you!.
You have had some terrible emotional traumas what with moving, your friend's sister being killed, and then a boy from your class and his little brother!. That's a LOT of stuff to deal with, even for an adult!. That would rock my boat, for sure!.
13 is a very, very hard age to be!. You are no longer a kid, but not exactly an adult!. You are not sure what you believe in, or even if you should believe in anything!. This has being going on for so very long: Shakespeare expressed it simply when he asked, "To be, or not to be!? that is the question!." (To live, or not to live!?) My point: What you are feeling is normal!. Don't let it frighten you into thinking you aren't normal!.
First, I want to ask you to please stop self-harming!. This wonderful body of yours has to carry you through your life and you really must honor it and take care of it!.
Becasue of your age and fluctuating hormones, you have been feeling depressed before all these tramas happened!. The tramas can cause post-tramatic stress syndrome, simliar to what men and women who return from war suffer!. You've got a double whammy, sweetheart!.
Loss is very painful, but the joys of sharing your life and love with other human beings make it worth it!. The pain of loss fades in time, but memory of special people and special times warms us during the cold days of despair!. I know despair, too, but hold tight sweet memories!.
This is what I want you to do: Find a teacher or another adult (grandmother, aunt) that you trust!. Tell them a little of what you are feeling and thinking about the tramas, including how hard the move was for you!. Ask them if they can either speak to your parents for you or help you arrange counseling!. Mental health clinics offer low-cost counseling!.
It's extremely important that you find someone you trust that you can talk to!. And know that if life were eternal on this earth and no one died, we would not consider life to be prescious!. It would just be "ho hum"!.
Sometimes we lose people as a reminder that life gives us no guarantee that it will be long!.
If you cannot find a way to get counseling, get on the internet or go to the library and educate yourself about overcoming bad times!. I'm sending you a few links that may help!. Please use them!.
You can and will get better with just a little help over this very bad time!. I promise that you will find that the search for who you are and what you believe in will not be depressing, but exciting!. You can try on different things and ways to be!.
I think that to find who we are and put ourselves to work in our intended life is the reason we are here in the first place!. Some people are meant to serve, like nursing, others are meants to sing or dance or invent things, or perhaps bring some wonderful children into this world!.
So, try emo and goth on if you like, but move on to something else if it's not for you!. You can be anything you want to be!. You can!.
You can be happy!. Life is really full of miracles and beauty and mystery, and yes, sometimes pain, too!. Even the pain is just part of it!.
You are a child of God, and God gives us the where-with all to help ourselves!. God bless you!. I'm going to have you in my prayers every night!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
A feeling of worthlessness comes from parents that are failures at being parents!. The difference between you and a child that feels valued is parenting!. You have parents who did not feel loved, respected and valued by their parents, so they don't know how to give you that feeling!.
It's really not fair to you, because you are no different than the child who has effective parents (parents who are able to give their child a feeling of worth!.) You are not less valuable than that child, but you feel like you are!.
Babies are born with a built in love for themselves and their parents!. They have hope and love and want their relationship with their parents to be a beautiful, happy thing!. As the child gets older, if the parents don't know how to love, respect and admire their child, the child feels very hurt, their heart is broken!. I think that is why you feel there is going to be a terrible ending to things!. You've had a terrible ending to the love you expected from your parents!.
Can you have some sympathy for yourself, cry and grieve some!? Along with feeling unhappy for a long time, you've had the shock of these recent deaths!. I am so sorry that you are going through all this shock and sadness!. This is so much for a 13 year old to deal with, especially without emotional support!. I'm glad you have two friends who care about you, you deserve it!.
What you're good for is you are a human being who wants to be cared about and care for others!. You have love in your heart, but your heart has been hurt by disappointing parenting!. Now you don't believe in your own value, but your value is just that you're a person with love in her heart!. Use that love on yourself!. You're just a kid and you've been unhappy for a long time!. You deserve your own love!. I think the person who needs to rescue you is you!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
It's really not fair to you, because you are no different than the child who has effective parents (parents who are able to give their child a feeling of worth!.) You are not less valuable than that child, but you feel like you are!.
Babies are born with a built in love for themselves and their parents!. They have hope and love and want their relationship with their parents to be a beautiful, happy thing!. As the child gets older, if the parents don't know how to love, respect and admire their child, the child feels very hurt, their heart is broken!. I think that is why you feel there is going to be a terrible ending to things!. You've had a terrible ending to the love you expected from your parents!.
Can you have some sympathy for yourself, cry and grieve some!? Along with feeling unhappy for a long time, you've had the shock of these recent deaths!. I am so sorry that you are going through all this shock and sadness!. This is so much for a 13 year old to deal with, especially without emotional support!. I'm glad you have two friends who care about you, you deserve it!.
What you're good for is you are a human being who wants to be cared about and care for others!. You have love in your heart, but your heart has been hurt by disappointing parenting!. Now you don't believe in your own value, but your value is just that you're a person with love in her heart!. Use that love on yourself!. You're just a kid and you've been unhappy for a long time!. You deserve your own love!. I think the person who needs to rescue you is you!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
You need to find help yourself!. Sounds hard- but if you are strong enough to post a question here- you are certainly strong enough to make a phone call to one of the following sites:
Survivors of Suicide
Louisville, KY 40202
(502) 589-4313
The Crisis & Information Center
Seven Countries Services, Inc!.
101 W!. Muhammad Ali Boulevard
Louisville, KY 40202-1429
(502) 589-8630
[Crisis Line] (502) 589-4313
(502) 589-4259 TDD
(800) 221-0446 KY Watts
(502) 589-8756 FAX
Comprehensive Care Center Cumberland River
203 West Chester Avenue
Middlesboro, KY 40965
(606) 248-4949
River Valley Behavioral Health Crisis & Information Line
1001 Frederica St!.
Owensboro, KY 42301
(502) 689-6500
[Crisis Line](502) 684-9466
Cumberland River Comprehensive Care Center
215 West Tennessee Avenue
Pineville, KY 40977
(606) 337-6137
Prestonburg Helpline,Mtn Comp Care Center
18 S!. Front Ave!.
Prestonsburg, KY 41653
(606) 886-8572
[Crisis Line](800) 422-1060
Seven Counties Services Inc
130 Vine Street
Shepherdsville, KY 40165
(502) 589-4259
Lifelines
Route 1
Tollesboro, KY 41189
(606) 798-1227
Cumberland River Comprehensive Care Center Area OFC
285 Cemetery Road
Williamsburg, KY 40769
(606) 549-1440
You are worth it---it doesn't matter if you parents think this is a waste of money---this is about YOU!.
Also=every school has CONFIDENTIAL help if you ASK!.
Come on now---you can do this!.
Life really does get better --- you have to stick around to find out!.
Good luck-- you can do this!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
Survivors of Suicide
Louisville, KY 40202
(502) 589-4313
The Crisis & Information Center
Seven Countries Services, Inc!.
101 W!. Muhammad Ali Boulevard
Louisville, KY 40202-1429
(502) 589-8630
[Crisis Line] (502) 589-4313
(502) 589-4259 TDD
(800) 221-0446 KY Watts
(502) 589-8756 FAX
Comprehensive Care Center Cumberland River
203 West Chester Avenue
Middlesboro, KY 40965
(606) 248-4949
River Valley Behavioral Health Crisis & Information Line
1001 Frederica St!.
Owensboro, KY 42301
(502) 689-6500
[Crisis Line](502) 684-9466
Cumberland River Comprehensive Care Center
215 West Tennessee Avenue
Pineville, KY 40977
(606) 337-6137
Prestonburg Helpline,Mtn Comp Care Center
18 S!. Front Ave!.
Prestonsburg, KY 41653
(606) 886-8572
[Crisis Line](800) 422-1060
Seven Counties Services Inc
130 Vine Street
Shepherdsville, KY 40165
(502) 589-4259
Lifelines
Route 1
Tollesboro, KY 41189
(606) 798-1227
Cumberland River Comprehensive Care Center Area OFC
285 Cemetery Road
Williamsburg, KY 40769
(606) 549-1440
You are worth it---it doesn't matter if you parents think this is a waste of money---this is about YOU!.
Also=every school has CONFIDENTIAL help if you ASK!.
Come on now---you can do this!.
Life really does get better --- you have to stick around to find out!.
Good luck-- you can do this!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
Hi Hun, it's common to feel sadness, and feeling depressed, being depressed is actually a disorder!. Some think it's a chemical imbalance, and it's really something you can't help!. A good friend once told me there is no such thing as a meaningless person!. I used to feel just like you!. And when I look back, it was a waste of years!. If the deaths of your friends and others makes you so sad, why would you want to do that to yourself!? Would passing away solve your problems, no!. It's a permanant decision!. It's irreversible!. When I used to want to harm myself, afterwards I felt more horrible at myself that I would actually do that!. I knew I had to stop, so whenever I felt the urge I would pace my room telling myself "I will not!." and It was extremely hard at first, it felt like i wanted to scream at the top of my lungs!. Something at least to get the anger and sadness out!. I know what it feels like, and if you ever need to talk I am here!. There is no reason for you to be sad, there is light in every day and every situation!. Don't look at what goes wrong, but rather what goes right!. The shadow proves the sunshine, I was also told that!. Life is a cycle of life and death, it is natural, but through it you have to keep faith and love!. Love yourself for one, you will never lose yourself!. Grasp every moment, because you never know when it will be over!. If you can't escape this depression, why don't you try some medicines like Elavil!? They can help with depressions!. Suprisingly, these medicines work miracles and you'd be surpised how many normal looking people are on it!. And hey, I know it may seem cliche, but what about therapy!? Therapists know how to deal with kids like you and they are more than happy to help you through it!. There is absolutely know reason for you to feel like this!. Life is truly a gift!. I have felt in the darkness too, there's no reason you should!. Try antidepressants, try therapy!. Don't harm yourself for no reason, you did nothing!. Keep faith! I wish you the best of luck!.Www@Answer-Health@Com