Any other mummies feel like this?!

im 38 weeks in 2 days and the last few weeks iv been ignoring the baby as much as i want him and already feel for him i try and ignore his kicking im over being so huge i feel sad alone and like i pretend all the time iv had depression a few years ago and im scared its come back but i don't feel like i can explain to my midwife my feelings i hate myself more for feeling this way and at times think that my husband will be better off if i leave him and the baby and come back when i feel like me again i don't know how to describe all this and im stressed and crying and don't want to feel like this at times i wish he was out because then maybe my hormones would be more normal and i can get help talking with someone but i cant get any ones attention to get help and we cant afford to get private counselling as its so expensive, i don't know what to do i want to enjoy being pregnant but i cant even bring myself to put my hands on my tummy im wearing baggy tops to hide my tummy

can someone please give advice i don't wanna be like this anymore or tell me who can help me i live in melb australiaWww@Answer-Health@Com

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