Is this a bad thing to admit?!


Question: Is this a bad thing to admit!?
iam 31 have borderline pd and ptsd, i have had a very tough , unfortunate life with a lot of hardships , missed out on many things people take for granted : building relationships, being employed , getting qualifications etc - i live in a one bedroom apartment on disability , i have a criminal past, 8 years back, been in the loony bin 8 years ago also , presently iam working with the mental health services to get the right therapy, psychotherapy is not available in my area right now due to lack of resources!.

i have come along way, made alot of progress, especially with anger and rage, compared to how i used to be , anger outbursts, antisocial behaviour etc!.

my only goal left in life is to attain a job in IT computers , then to leave england, relocate to hot climates near coastal areas!.


theres been many times in my life where ive simply longed for love and acceptance , been desperate for it, that i have wished that i could ' make ' someone love me unconditionally and never leave me, be there for me forever !.!.

is this wrong !?

i have always suffered very low esteem because of the abuses in my life, always acted clingy, needy, desperate for friendship or acceptence that i always cause people to reject and back off me!.!.!.!.!.!.so no relationships have ever worked!.Www@Answer-Health@Com


Answers:
Of course it's not wrong!

What is wrong with wanting to feel loved!?

You know, deep down, that you can't make someone love you!. You can't walk up to someone and say "love me, now!." It's just not going to happen, and you know that!. I think this feeling of wanting to be loved is totally natural!. It sounds like you have suffered so much in your life that it is affecting your life right now and you feel as though you just want something stable - a loving relationship!. You can have this!. If you can bring yourself to meet someone, then go out to somewhere where you can meet others and socialise and get a relationship!. It's not impossible!. You've shown to yourself that you have come a very long way - you've come a long way with your anger, rage etc, and have stopped antisocial behaviour!. You are just after someone to love and someone who loves you for you!. You'll meet this person! Why not!?

Have you done anything about this job working in IT!? You could do a course to get yourself some qualifications and get yourself a job which will give you some stability!.

Keep on trying to get some help from psychotherapists!. This will help you beat your low self-esteem as you seem to think you can't hold down relationships/friendships!. Anyone can hold down a relationship or friendship - you just need to have some self-confidence which it looks like you're lacking a little bit!.

As I've already said, try getting some professional help or speak to anyone you can trust!. Best of luck!.Www@Answer-Health@Com

Its not wrong to admit that!. I think its commendable that you are trying to do something with your life, when some people would just give up!. Focus on your goal and attain it and that will boost your confidence and give you a sense of worth!. Then friendships and relationships will follow!. I reckon you will make it and you certainly deserve it!. Best of luck!.Www@Answer-Health@Com

Keep your mind on your goal, that's what is helping me!.
Aren't there any counselors at all where you are!? My drugs stop suicidal thoughts, but without counseling I just get stuck!. No improvement and no falling back!.Www@Answer-Health@Com

first of all where all equal as human beings and i guess you must of had your reasons doing what you did and paid for your crimes and at the end of the day only god can judge you!.
all i can say to you is that work hard to achieve your goals and join any clubs so you build new relationships with others and learn to be social and not isolated examples playing cards dancing a sporting activity and also learn to love yourself not feel sorry for yourself life goes on bro go for walks or go for a bike ride or a drive or to the beach or eat out or do you have a religion that you believe attend to that most people in religions are nice people!.
you have low self esteem your not the only one bro you got to help yourself example do weights or anything that your body allows you to do being that you have some sort of disability!.Www@Answer-Health@Com

Its not wrong to admit that!. And that is in fact the ultimate goal the drives borderlines!.
We want love to fill that whole!. Weve never had it and we think when we do it will all be ok!. Unfortunately Ive come to grips more with myself and my illness to find that this is why our relationships are so screwed up!. No one not even true love can fill that whole!. When it fails to measure up, as everyone will, we go nuts and get hurt!.

other than the getting disability and tack onto that bipolar 1 with psychosis I am you!. Just a 24 yr old woman!.

It is not wrong to admit!. And as a fellow borderline the idealized hope for that extent of completing love to make it all ok will go on!. Even if your better!.!.!. the idea lingers in the back of your head somewhere!. I am not saying real true love doesn't exist but what we think love is doesn't exist!. And because we still feel that hole we ruin what could have been or become real love!.

That hole and self hell can only be fixed by us alone!. And true love is not someone to complete us!. Its someone who can share their complete selves with us !.!.!. and we can do the same for them!. And until we are complete in ourselves we cant share it and we are ever seeking someone to complete us for us!.!.!. rather than to truely love us!.

Just some thoughts from someone who can relate down to the loony bin and the low self esteem!.

Just think about it!.Www@Answer-Health@Com

The inability to focus on your goal makes you unable to succeed anything you want to accomplish!.

You realize that this inferiority complex, sudden outburst of uncontrollable anger, is misplaced, but yet you suffer from it!.

Truth is, there's not much you can do about anger that you think is coming from within you, except to keep trying to control it!.

Personally, I have always resented the help of counsellors!. Their primary goal is to make money out of their patients!. The secondary goal is to help you!. This is how society works!. Because if they can't make money, they can't feed themselves!.

This is why i prefer to cope with my problems myself!. I'm not saying that it always works, but at least I get to know myself better!. And by every stumble and fall, I get to know myself better and better!. In the end, you become your own best counsellor!. Who knows you better than yourself!?

As for the inferiority complex, there's one little trick that works!. Women tend to compensate their lack of self confidence by using make-up!. But since you are not a woman, I suggest you try to buy some new trendy cloths that look nice on you!. They need to be of the perfect size in order to put emphasis on your body!. Make up your hair or go to the hairdresser!. Get yourself some new pair of shoes!.

Maybe it sounds a little bit expensive, but if you follow my advice on not going to the counsellor, you could use that money instead!.

Also, keep in mind that a human being needs social contact!. So try to have at least one or two small talks a day!. It will give you much more of a performance boost than watching tv or surfing the web for news, funny video's, etc!.Www@Answer-Health@Com

I CAN CERTAINLY RELATE - Sounds like you have had a ROUGH Life!. IF I WERE YOUR WIFE - I would LOVE you UNCONDITIONALLY and FOREVER and a DAY!. JUST LIKE MY THERAPIST has TAUGHT me to do!. I HAVE THIS REALLY COOL BIBLE I WOULD SHARE WITH YOU - But I must leave it to my DAUGHTER Jillian when I Die - But that would not be for a LONG time!. I WOULD BE THERE FOR YOU UNTIL YOUR Death (When you go TO HEAVEN to be with YOUR LOVED Ones and ME Eventually!. I LIKE TO GIVE SPONGE BATHS TO MY ELDERLY HUSBAND!. I am looking for a HUSBAND in a few WEEKS!. Maybe you will be AVAILABLE!. LOTS OF LOVE and KISSES and HUGS!. As you can TELL I like to TYPE/chat !. I LOVE YOU!. xo YOUR NEW BEST FRIEND!.Www@Answer-Health@Com





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