How do I handle this without another suicide attempt?!
Question: How do I handle this without another suicide attempt!?
Hello
I am 17 and I was in a psychiatric hospital for 3 months because I was depressed, self harming and trying to kill myself!. I have been back in the real world for 2 weeks now and I am doing ok!. Im setting up a boarding kennels (had my first booking yesterday!!!), doing an animal welfare course and trying to keep myself busy!.
I still want to die some of the time and my mother isnt helping the situation!. Today she gave out to me because on Monday morning I fainted and she rang her boss to tell her she couldnt work that day!. Her boss rang her back a few hours later and told her it wasnt fair that my mother had rang in so late and she cut out 2 days of her work!. My mother told me it wasnt my fault because her boss was just looking for an excuse to do this because of the cutbacks!.
Today she decided it was my fault because I fainted!. She called me selfish and went on at me for about half an hour!.
This made me feel so bad that I ended up thinking that all the work I was doing was pointless and I made a noose and hung it from the rafter in my kennels and stared at it for a while before walking away!.
I need to find a way to deal with these things in a calm way!.
I have tried to talk to my mother but she is just impossible to have any normal conversation with!. Im considering going back into the hospital, although this isnt something I really want to do!.
Help!.!.!.!.!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
I am 17 and I was in a psychiatric hospital for 3 months because I was depressed, self harming and trying to kill myself!. I have been back in the real world for 2 weeks now and I am doing ok!. Im setting up a boarding kennels (had my first booking yesterday!!!), doing an animal welfare course and trying to keep myself busy!.
I still want to die some of the time and my mother isnt helping the situation!. Today she gave out to me because on Monday morning I fainted and she rang her boss to tell her she couldnt work that day!. Her boss rang her back a few hours later and told her it wasnt fair that my mother had rang in so late and she cut out 2 days of her work!. My mother told me it wasnt my fault because her boss was just looking for an excuse to do this because of the cutbacks!.
Today she decided it was my fault because I fainted!. She called me selfish and went on at me for about half an hour!.
This made me feel so bad that I ended up thinking that all the work I was doing was pointless and I made a noose and hung it from the rafter in my kennels and stared at it for a while before walking away!.
I need to find a way to deal with these things in a calm way!.
I have tried to talk to my mother but she is just impossible to have any normal conversation with!. Im considering going back into the hospital, although this isnt something I really want to do!.
Help!.!.!.!.!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
Answers:
Well, you don't need to think hard to figure out why you've been such an unhappy child!. A mother who would blame a child for fainting, insult him and direct a verbal tirade at him when he's been suicidal is not a mother!. Your mother is only biologically your mother!. You don't have a mother!.
You need to grieve that, like any huge loss!. It is also very dangerous for your emotional health to live with her!.
You are doing very well being productive and starting a business!. At this point you may need to be at home because that's whre the kennels are!. However, you could look to the future and plan a way to make money that would enable you to get your own place!. Perhaps you could start with renting a room somewhere, or getting roommates to share an apartment!.
The bottom line is, you're getting healthy, and being around your mother will knock you back down!. She is an unhealthy, toxic person and she will never change!. If you want to hang onto the illusion that you have a mother, you will pay for it with your mental and emotional health!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
You need to grieve that, like any huge loss!. It is also very dangerous for your emotional health to live with her!.
You are doing very well being productive and starting a business!. At this point you may need to be at home because that's whre the kennels are!. However, you could look to the future and plan a way to make money that would enable you to get your own place!. Perhaps you could start with renting a room somewhere, or getting roommates to share an apartment!.
The bottom line is, you're getting healthy, and being around your mother will knock you back down!. She is an unhealthy, toxic person and she will never change!. If you want to hang onto the illusion that you have a mother, you will pay for it with your mental and emotional health!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
*Find a person that can brighten your day!.
*Fantasies about your wildest dreams!.
*The world is your oyster!.
*There are opportunities out there all around you!.
*Explain deeply how your mother is making you feel!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
*Fantasies about your wildest dreams!.
*The world is your oyster!.
*There are opportunities out there all around you!.
*Explain deeply how your mother is making you feel!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
Is there a chance in the world that your mother is the destructive one in your life!? I would seriously consider the root of the problem and get help to deal with it!. If it is your mom that has caused you to feel these emotions, do you have someone else you can stay with!? Someone who will support you until you get back on your feet!? Be real with what's in your heart and try to focus on making that pain better, and the rest will fall into place!. I wish you peace and success!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
Take a look at the book "the four agreements" by Don Miguel Ruiz, you can get it at most libraries, and find a lot of it online!.
And know this - - suicide is a one time "solution" to what is a temporary problem!. I give you my word - things wont always be this way!. It might seem like an eternity, but its not!.
Your mind lies to you - dont believe the hypeWww@Answer-Health@Com
And know this - - suicide is a one time "solution" to what is a temporary problem!. I give you my word - things wont always be this way!. It might seem like an eternity, but its not!.
Your mind lies to you - dont believe the hypeWww@Answer-Health@Com