Is there a problem with me? Why am I living a double life?!


Question: Is there a problem with me!? Why am I living a double life!?
Around my friends, I'm the most chilled out, hilarious guy (according to them at least)!. They call me the glue that sticks our group together!. I'm also a 'good' person in front of them as my friends are very naive and basically goodie goodie kids!.

My friends cannot relate to me exactly!. I have my phases that oscillate from being very happy to extremely depressed, for no reason at all!. I'm generally a very joyful and funny person, with HUGE mood swings sometimes!. I never feel sorry for myself, because I extract happiness out of my sadness too!. My friends don't know that I smoke cigarettes; and they don't know that I did dope a few times (and quit)!. My best friend Amanda (my other friends don't know about her) was a crack head, and her family refused to support her!. I was the one who helped her through rehab!. I'm stuck in between people like Amanda and my other 'goodie goodie friends', I'm not like either exactly!.

I do not want my friends to see the other side of me!. I'm afraid that if I tell them about the s**t I've been through in life, they wouldn't wanna be friends with me anymore!. I don't want to lose their friendship as they are a good influence on me, and I like that!.

I prefer to remain single unless its with someone who really connects with me, someone who is basically my other half (literally)!. When I look at her, I look at myself!. I'm perfectly happy with my 'double life' and feel good about myself and my 'loneliness' all the time, but I wish there were more people like me out there who had the same 'problems'!.Www@Answer-Health@Com


Answers:
I know what you are talking about!. With my friends i am one person and with my family and co workers I am completely different!. My family does not know I smoke weed or have done other drugs (which i don't do anymore) they don't know how much i used to drink, they don't know a lot of what I have done in my life, they know me as the good girl, who speaks her mind, and tells it how it is, but with my friends I am the hippie, who is hilarious, book smart, eccentric, who has issues, if you will!. It is hard to be just one person sometimes!. I hear you!. I spend quite a bit of time alone now days, mainly because i work the third shift, and when I am alone I am my true self, and no one knows who that person is, because i am a different person around them!. You are not alone!. And if you ever do show your friends the other side of you and they don't accept it, then they really aren't true friends!. It's hard, but you really should know who your true friends are!. I have been through a ton of sh** within the last year and a half, and throught that I did find out who my true friends were!. and its very few!. But it is better to have one true friend than 10 fake friends!. Just remember that!.

And I am not bi-polar!. I have depression with a personality disorder!. So my recommendation would be to get a mental health evaluation!. And if you have any questions make sure you ask someone who is a professionalWww@Answer-Health@Com

You should make an appointment with a psychiatrist!. Its sounds like you may have Bipolar disorder or some call it manic depression!.
Bipolar is where one can go from feeling very energetic and euphoric to extremely depressed!.

Please take care and make that appointment!.Www@Answer-Health@Com

Have you considered being evaluated for bi-polar disorder!? Read your question again as if someone else wrote it!. Please see a counselor and get some assistance with depression!. These different moods don't sound healthy for you long term!. Best of luck!.!.Www@Answer-Health@Com





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