I've always had suicidal thoughts most of my life. Why won't it end?!

Everyone goes through ups and downs!. You cannot let your down hold you well!.!.!.down!. I remember the other day, I felt like a failure after doing this horrible exam!. I mean, everything was turning out terrible!. Someone had stollen my Itouch and everything was going horribly wrong!. Even my parents said I was a failure and told me to quit school and go die or something, because of my poor attitude towards school!.

I tried super hard for the next exam, and at the same time made a list of all the people who could steal my Itouch!. The next day after my second exam, I realized how bitter sweet life was!. You could be feeling depressed, suicidal and the worst and the next day you could be feeling on the top of your world!. I went to school thinking that I was gonna fail another exam, and that there was no hope for me, but God always does his magic!. I think i did fairly well on that exam, and then after I called one of my suspects about the itouch and they had fessed up about comitting the crime!. She offered to come to my house and give me the itouch herself!. I was feeling great!. My parents even apologized for calling me such harsh things and reminded me of all the good times we had!.

Life is bitter sweet!. One day you could be feeling the best, and life is just the way you want it and the next day you could be feeling like you dont belong in this world anymore!. But just think about it!. If you dont belong in this world anymore, why would God create you in the first place!? I am sure there is a reason why God created us human beings, and the last thing he wants is one of his children to feel unbeloged!.

Suicidal thoughts come and go!. They are a way of life, and it all depends on how you want to express your feelings against this tendency!. I shrug it off and think this is against my religion!. I mean, God has provided me with such a wonderfull body to make the best out of this life and why would I simply waste it !? Why would I want to go against God's decision !? Why would I want to waste this life, that others are dieing to live for !?

Life is complicated if you make it!. There is always a way to make even the most complicated situations simple!. All you need is a positive attitude towards life!. I look at life this way , Live it !. Enjoy it !. Cherish it!. Live the moments, enjoy the up's and even down's!. There is a reason God gives you these downs, to make you realize what is going in with your life!. I remember when my Dad meant with a fetal accident!. His car was flipped over, and he got out of it without a scratch!. It was so mirraculous the way the worst things could happen and my Dad could never get hurt!. That experience made me realize God's true power!. My Dad is a very religious man, and in such a death experience, my dad got out with a scratch!. Even the paramedics were surprised to see this miracle!.

Enjoy and cherish these moments!. Some moments you could never have!. You never know what this world holds!. Some people say 2012 could be the end of world itself!. Do you know that in 2012, I wouldnt even have lived half my life !? So if the world was ending in such a state, I would have soo much things left undone!.

You should be thankfull of this body God has provided you with!. Please dont think your weak!. Everyone has a stronger side to them, you just need to reach inside and grab this strong side!. Sorry it got a bit long, I got into the answer!. = P

Good luck, and May God be with you always!. :)Www@Answer-Health@Com

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please dont die think of all the people that you would hurt even if you are not that close to them i know 3 people who have commited suicide and it is like the worst things ever! so find something that makes you truly happy and stick to that also think of all the great things that have happened in your life!. dont let your life endWww@Answer-Health@Com

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Suicide is a permanent solution to a TEMPORARY problem!.

Try not to think so much of everything, and you will not feel depressed!. You are probably expecting too much from things that don't have much to give!. Enjoy life and everything it has to offer!.Www@Answer-Health@Com

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I had these thoughts before and my friend did too just try to go out and help others it boosts up your mood and think about your family and how horrible they will feel if you left they love you and will most likely blame themselves if you did!. You can try getting medicine for depression, but i really recommend helping your community out like volunteering at a hospital or a nursing home!. Or an animal shelter!. Try talking to a friend about it!.Www@Answer-Health@Com

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You could be depressed and should get it assessed by a psychiatrist or therapist!. They will also be able to prescribe the right kind of medication, if you need any!. If you can, confide in a family member or friend!. Don't feel that you have to carry this weight alone!. Keep praying, God has a plan for you!.Www@Answer-Health@Com

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I recommend you check out this social networking community called LetsReflect!.com!. There are people there going through situations similar to yours!. They are great for advice and encouragement!.

The process of Self Reflection has truly changed my life

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