Eating Disorder I think?!
Question: Eating Disorder I think!?
I have always had an issue with body image and food!. In fact, I started my first 'diet' the summer before my 5th grade year!. Looking back, that just wasn't healthy!. Here I am, nearly 10 years later and I still have horrible body image and my food issues have only gotten worse!. I am not 'fat'!.!.ok well I think so but general consensus would probably disagree!. But I am not skinny either!. I know I don't have anorexia or bulimia but I'm not sure what I do have!.
Some days I binge like you wouldn't believe!. I do it when I am alone and am very very secretive about it!. Of the days I do binge, sometimes I purge and others I don't!. But I always feel guilty and worthless during the binging and after!. I eat past the point of fullness and even when I'm not hungry!. Basically I eat myself sick and either purge or suffer!.
That is half the time!. The other half of the time I barely eat, exercise like a maniac, and still feel guilty for being such a lard-****!. It helps balance my binge days I guess because I stay about the same weight and have for a couple years!. I write down everything I eat and the calories in it!. On days I binge, I write until I mess up!. Then I just mark it out and swear to do better the next day!. I'm always on a diet, always hating the way I look, always thinking I should do/be better!.
So what is this!? It's not normal, I do know that!. It's not anorexia or bulimia, or even overeating disorder I don't think!. Maybe a mix!? Is there a name for it!? And what do I need to do!? I'm tired of being like this!. No one knows about this because I'm away at college and it is really easy to hide and I'm ashamed for anyone to find out!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
Some days I binge like you wouldn't believe!. I do it when I am alone and am very very secretive about it!. Of the days I do binge, sometimes I purge and others I don't!. But I always feel guilty and worthless during the binging and after!. I eat past the point of fullness and even when I'm not hungry!. Basically I eat myself sick and either purge or suffer!.
That is half the time!. The other half of the time I barely eat, exercise like a maniac, and still feel guilty for being such a lard-****!. It helps balance my binge days I guess because I stay about the same weight and have for a couple years!. I write down everything I eat and the calories in it!. On days I binge, I write until I mess up!. Then I just mark it out and swear to do better the next day!. I'm always on a diet, always hating the way I look, always thinking I should do/be better!.
So what is this!? It's not normal, I do know that!. It's not anorexia or bulimia, or even overeating disorder I don't think!. Maybe a mix!? Is there a name for it!? And what do I need to do!? I'm tired of being like this!. No one knows about this because I'm away at college and it is really easy to hide and I'm ashamed for anyone to find out!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
Answers:
You ARE bulimic love!!! Why your like this only you know but its deep rooted and needs sorting - and only you can sort it!!! Please speak to a counsellor at your college, anything you tell them is in the strictest confidence or speak to a dr, whoever you speak to speak to someone! You are doing untold damage to your body, your bones, your mental health and are shortening your life span!!! One day you'll meet your soul-mate and your body issues will go away but it'll always be at the back of your mind that you think your not good enough!?!?!? Get rid of that nonsense before you get rid of the bulimia mate - the former will do you more damage than the latter in terms of your self worth! Speak out and stop it now before you do any more damage to yourself, you're intelligent enough to know that! Best of luck mate xWww@Answer-Health@Com