I think I am going insane... literally?!


Question: I think I am going insane!.!.!. literally!?
Please note that some of this may be disturbing to some!.

A couple years ago, I started to have some desire to get into fights with people and beat them up or something like that!. I just kind of shrugged it off and decided it was hormones or something along those lines!. But then later these desires started to get more severe!.

I started wanting to cause serious harm to others and then they got so bad I literally wanted to kill others!. I have dreams at night thinking about how I could kill a certain person!.

Of course I never acted on these desires, but they certainly bother me!.

I began to develop deep hatreds for people who were not my friends!. I wanted to get rid of them!. I wanted to cause them pain!. I look at others and think about how much I hate them!. When I get into arguments, I make threats and swear!.

So I started playing violent video games to help me try and vent this rage I have, but they don't seem to be helping me!. Do you think these games could be fueling this anger I have!?

I also have found myself laughing hysterically at things I didn't even think were funny!. I couldn't help but just laugh like a mental patient!.

Recently, I have developed some sort of paranoia, thinking things I knew didn't exist were hiding behind every corner, waiting to just jump out and kill me!. I have nightmares about them frequently!.

I also have thoughts of suicide because all these thoughts are truly tormenting me!.

I don't know why this all is going on!. I never told anyone about this and I am posting here for anonymity!. I do not take drugs nor do I cut myself!. I live a healthy social life as well!.Www@Answer-Health@Com


Answers:
Seems to me that you could benefit from some serious therapy, my friend!.
A few points: Yes, I think that playing the violent video games is counter-productive and is fueling your violent tendencies!.
A lot of behaviors you have described are worrisome, but the fact you haven't acted on them is good, and the fact that you are aware that they aren't considered 'normal' is also good!.
If your thoughts are tormenting you so much that you are even slightly considering suicide, you need to seek help, asap!.

I think the fact that you posted this, that you are concerned about it, and that you are aware that you need help and that this wouldn't be considered typical behavior, is an indicator that you are not 'insane', but simply troubled and in need of help!. Please get the help that you need!. Best to you!.Www@Answer-Health@Com

I think you need to have counseling, maybe an assessment, because it may even be hormones!. Are you in your teenage years!? Because I kinda went through similar but without the urge to kill someone, the desire was more to harm myself than others!. I would really seek help because most times its an underlying problem causing this!.Www@Answer-Health@Com

Nobody can help you if you don't say anything!. You should tell someone who can help you get real help!. I would also suggest finding God if you have not already!. Though it may be something physical going on adding God into your life never hurt anyone!. He is the GREAT PHYSICIAN!.Www@Answer-Health@Com

i don't think you are but maybe you should see someone i know it sounds completely stupid and no use but it will really help and they wont think your insane either!.

i hope it works out:)Www@Answer-Health@Com

You are not insane unless you act on it!. Like actually kill somebody!. But you should definalty ask a doctor if they can put you on anti- depresents, I am on zoloft and it has helped alot,Www@Answer-Health@Com

probably not insanity, lol its not its just not being able to regulate emotions and feelings, and beating up people is not cool, hey talk to a doc!.Www@Answer-Health@Com

Video games don't make people violent!.

I believe you should seek medical help though!.Www@Answer-Health@Com

What do the voices tell you!.!.!.!.Www@Answer-Health@Com

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Grab a punching bag beat the @(!& out of it and sit down and relax ;)Www@Answer-Health@Com

Had the same problem!.Www@Answer-Health@Com

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Dear X,

See, from what I see your problem seems to be a compound of problems on mental and spiritual plane!. First, stop playing violent games and reading violent stories!.!.!.!.!.they certainly fuel the anger and rage and give rise to fantasies and nightmares that are always worse than before!.

Secondly, I will suggest you to contact a trusted medium in your area as well as a psychologist!. However, if the psychologist starts toying with your ideas and do not gives credit to your feelings, he or she is not worth it!. Medium will help you get in touch with your problem on spiritual problem!.

Read good books!. Trust me, religious books like Bible, Quran or Geeta help!. Pick up any book you have faith in and read it - not as a holy book but as a book of learning!. Pray and meditate before going to bed!. You might feel as if I am preaching but I have been through what you are currently facing and I am telling you that it helps!.

Tell the demons that you are not going to let them win!. Whenever you feel hatred for someone, keep your mouth shut!. Avoid arguments altogether!.!.!.!.no matter how much you want to beat the crap out of the bugger!. Just turn and go!.

Whenever, you feel afraid, call upon God and your Guardian Angel and pray to them to protect you!. Then, keep doing things like they should be done!. Paranoia, Mental Problem or Spiritual Problem!.!.!.whatever it is!. It is You who has to cure it and You will, if only you trust in Your Healing Powers!. The more you starve Rage, Fear and Anger, weaker they become!. Don't give up the fight!. You are the one who is the Master of your Mind and your Life!. Don't let it be taken away from you!.Www@Answer-Health@Com

You are aware of these things, and yet you talk about yourself as if you are watching what you are doing as another person!.
Firstly, ask yourself this question; Do you feel bad about these thoughts!?
Secondly, are you willing to "own" these feelings as trully your own!?
If you aswered yes to both, then you will be able to get help from a counsellor!.
If you answered no to both, then you need to see a psychiatrist!.
If you answered yes to the first, but no to the second question, you need to see a priest, as you will need to confess and/or have a demon excorcised from you!. (Seriously)
If you answered no to the first and yes to the second you are likely to need to see a counsellor AND a psychiatrist!.
Believe me, I know about these things!. You could have a demon making you think this way; especially if they are'nt what you would normally be thinking!. Remember, demons seek to cause misery and pain to others!.
If you're not sure, talk to a priest whom you can trust (not a Doctor who will put you under sedation and quite possibly not understand what is going on- unless he has practised psychiatry)!.Www@Answer-Health@Com

Life, was affected by a demon in an earlier time and place!.Www@Answer-Health@Com

It sounds like you could possibly be developing a mental disorder!. More likely you are just suffering from a chemical imbalance!. However, the good news is that you recognize this kind of behavior is not rational, so you can do something about it!. You can get medication or find a outlet for your rage!. Buying a "heavy bag" for boxing is a great way to work off anger and frustration!. If you are comfortable talking to a medical professional, find one and discuss your feelings!. They can get you medication and therapy (neither of which should cause you shame or embarssment!. They are great ways to help)!. If you don't feel comfortable, then work on finding physical ways to divert your anger, like punching the heavy bag!.Www@Answer-Health@Com

I suggest you go to a mental health clinic or facility to be evaluated asap!. Also you should have a complete physical in case there is a medical reason for your condition!. There are all sorts of reasons for whats happening with you from schizophrenia to a brain legion or tumor/

Please seek immediate medical attention!. Good luck and please take care of yourself life is worth living and you can find joy once you receive the help you need, Also if you do not have health insurance or money to pay for your appointment then go to a free clinic or hospital!.
I would suggest you don't even wait for an appointment and go as a walk in for faster help if you feel you will soon act on these feelings!.Www@Answer-Health@Com

All my life I have never wanted to be around people, I litterally hate people!.I made several threats against a friends girlfriends life, It is pretty bad for me!.

I tried to kill myself four times, Now I think it was stupid to wanna die!. I have a very violent mind, and can't control ym thoughts towards people, as in wanting them to die!.

It seems I possibly have the same as you, I am not insane, I doubt you are insane but have some else going on inside!.

I have litterally nearly killed people, Yes I did get in trouble this!.

I think that you should seek some help, as i should also!.Www@Answer-Health@Com

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Do not feel bad or ashamed, but you should probably seek more help than just this site on the internet!. Everyone gets upset and has bad feelings!. Eventually they will turn around if you can change your life and be patient!.

The most important thing is that you do not get discouraged and hurt yourself or others!

Search for SUICIDE HOTLINE and call the number you find!. They will be able to help you!.Www@Answer-Health@Com

There are various psychological problems that's related to anger!. I think you have one of those!. I think you should better consult a psychiatrist!. There's nothing wrong in you!. You're not insane but still has some problems that needs to be solved!. If it's proven that you have some sort of ANGER DISORDER, it is necessary that you treat it immediately!.

HAve you ever heard of people being able to do unbelievable things just because of anger, then in the end, they say that they didn't mean it!? or they are totally unaware of it while doing it!?

There's nothing wrong to consult an expert for it!. That is, if you still want to live a normal life without being angry for senseless reason!.!.!. If you don't trust your family or friends enough, you can consult a psychiatrist for treatment!.!.!.believe me!.!.!. it's worth trying for!.!.Www@Answer-Health@Com

I've had the same problem!.

Hatred!. Thoughts about murder!. Hysteria!. Suicidal thoughts!. Hating everything!. Paranoia!. Thinking that your crazy!.

If you think that your going crazy, your usually not!. You can rationally define your actions and thoughts, and that is not something insane people can do!.

The solution!? you can go see a psychotherapist, but the thing that really worked with me is creating, as in writing, painting, creating art!.
I used to have the same problem as you, but when i started writing it was as if i had opened a gate somewhere in my mind where all my hatred was locked up!. I cleansed myself!.

Also, start thinking about what caused this, this can help too!.!.

I wish you the best of luck ;)Www@Answer-Health@Com

You "live a healthy social life" besides the fact that you are going out and starting fights!. I would say this is something you should look into seriously with a either a physiologist, therapist or anger management!.

If you do not work & live at home maybe talk to your parents about what is going on in your mind!. If you find that you are a danger to yourself or others admit yourself to your nearest mental hospital!. They are not there to judge you, they are there to help you!.

Saying things like "I also have thoughts of suicide", is a very clear sign that you need immediate attention!. Do not ever take thoughts of suicide lightly, because you never know if you go into a fit of rage you might actually hurt or kill yourself, & not be able to control it!.


I would give you a big hug if I could hun, I hope you get the help you need, & good luck!Www@Answer-Health@Com

a place where you can talk to others - http://www!.uncommonforum!.com/index!.php

start finding help here - http://www!.getmentalhelp!.com/Www@Answer-Health@Com

You need to seek medical attention as soon as possible!. Do not be ashamed, this is common!. I believe what you are is maybe a socialpath or schizophrenic!. It is NOT your fault! Seek medical attention and they will be able to give you therapy and medication to help this and you will be ok!. Do not hurt anybody as that will lead you down a road you do not want to go down!. Go to the emergency room NOW, call 911!. Please!. For your sake and the sake of others!. Good luck!. Take care!.Www@Answer-Health@Com

I am a RN!.Www@Answer-Health@Com

Studies show that violent video games do contribute!. I would talk to a doctor as quickly as possible!. You don't sound like a bad person because you know that these thoughts are violent and you wish to do that right thing and so I have confidence that you will!. Don't feel bad or embarrassed to see someone about this or talk to a counselor!. I used to feel embarrassed about my mental illness but now I accept that it is something I must work on and it's ok to not be perfect!. So please see someone!. I wish you the best of luck and support!.Www@Answer-Health@Com





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