Have you ever sought mental health treatment & didn't find it helpful?!
Question: Have you ever sought mental health treatment & didn't find it helpful!?
My meds don't help at all!. I see the Dr!. today!. The psychiatrist!. I kept telling her that there are no improvements in my symptoms of my OCD, anxiety, & depression, with the OCD intrusive thoughts being the worst!. After the 3rd time I told her that the meds aren't helping, she wanted to put me on Lithium, & I REFUSE to take that! So, ever since then, I've been LYING to her, saying that the meds are working, so she wouldn't put me on Lithium!.
I'm not bipolar!. I STAY depressed & NOT by choice or for attention! & I believe that my depression is situational, & I wish for a happy life, but people always look for excuses to take my happiness away from me by treating me dirty!. My family is OH SO DIRTY! Society treats me like trash because I'm different (hey, I had 2 strokes @ age 5!. Do you EXPECT me to fucntion normally!?), & everyone thinks I'm weird!.
Since this is a mental health clinic (not a private office), they make us see a case manager!. & the psychiatric nurse has been visiting my house, popping up unexpectedly with no warning!. The case manager used to do that to me, too!. I had such a rough time with her back in 2007, that I requested a new case manager, & she was highly pissed, but she wasn't helpful!. The case manager and the psych nurse make me angry & make my symptoms worse!. So, @ the end of 2007, I got another case manager, but she wasn't as bad!. But when she left, they put me back with the 1st one!. I'm like, "WHY!?!" So, I figured I'd give the woman another chance!. It didn't work out!. This case manager was ACTUALLY causing me more & more panic attacks, so I called her supervisor!. He didn't return my call, but he said that I have to have a clinical reason for why I want another case manager!. I remember last time, she came to my house & got confrontational & HOSTILE with me, so this time, I was afraid to say anything!. I'm thinking, "Why don't I have a right to freely change case managers!? I'm 25!. I'm an adult!." Neither the case manager nor the psych nurse listen to what I have to say, & they holler & scream @ me (in MY house), like a child & act like I can control my symptoms & use them as an excuse!. If that's the case, I don't need treatment if I can control it, right!? & they're very intrusive in my personal life!. The case manager 1 time went OFF on me because she asked me to tell her something positive!. I said, "I was happy last week for 4th of July, & I enjoyed eating 1 of my favorite foods (which I hardly ever get to eat) BBQ cheeseburgers!. & she started screaming @ me about eating "junk food"!. It was a holiday!. What do you expect!? & me & my twin sister's birthday was that next month, & she tried to make it like I had to have HER permission to have cake & ice cream!.
The day before me & my twin sister's birthday, I felt very down & depressed because my twin sister had been ignoring me, & I had no idea why she was treating me mean!. (We never got along since childhood)!. But she didn't even call me on our birthday, but she called my OTHER sister!. She COMPLETELY avoided me!. The day before, I was having panic attacks & calling crisis hotlines, & the crisis hotline people were very rude & nasty, so I went to the mental health clinic on crisis!. I wasn't feeling suicidal or having thoughts of it or anything!. I just needed someone supportive to talk to, & there was a psych nurse who was new, & she tried to have me locked up in the mental institution for my b-day & laughed about it & thought it was funny!. (I also suffer Tourette's, too & anger & anxiety trigger off the symptoms!.) So, she wanted me hospitalized BEFORE I even had a Tourette's outburst!. I basically got mad & tried to walk out of there & go home & cool down, & she hollered to everyone to call 911 on me, saying I was out of control & this & that!.
I've been seeing a counselor every week & have to pay a $4 sliding scale fee!. This counselor WAS nice to me & supportive at first, but then, she started to turn out to be fake, & I've been coming home angry after the appointments!.
I'm 25 with a college degree, & I can take care of myself!. I feel that the treatment, altogether, isn't helpful!. & the counselor and mental health case manager contradict what they say to me & then lie & say that they never said that!. I feel like they're playing mind games, & NO, I'M "NOT" PARANOID! I'm the same with or without the meds!. I even have explosive outbursts or have extreme panic attacks, even on the meds!. I feel like this medicine is nothing but poison!. The only effects I feel from these medicines are the side effects & no improvement in the symptoms!. A lot of things, I CAN'T help or control!.
& as far as things go, I'm not letting that psych nurse in my house anymore, & I don't care if they call 911 on me!. I don't even think I want to go to the appointment with the Dr!. & case manager today!. I'm tired of living in the "psych world"!.
Yesterday, my counselor made me angry because she always tells me that I have a right to make whatever decision I wWww@Answer-Health@Com
I'm not bipolar!. I STAY depressed & NOT by choice or for attention! & I believe that my depression is situational, & I wish for a happy life, but people always look for excuses to take my happiness away from me by treating me dirty!. My family is OH SO DIRTY! Society treats me like trash because I'm different (hey, I had 2 strokes @ age 5!. Do you EXPECT me to fucntion normally!?), & everyone thinks I'm weird!.
Since this is a mental health clinic (not a private office), they make us see a case manager!. & the psychiatric nurse has been visiting my house, popping up unexpectedly with no warning!. The case manager used to do that to me, too!. I had such a rough time with her back in 2007, that I requested a new case manager, & she was highly pissed, but she wasn't helpful!. The case manager and the psych nurse make me angry & make my symptoms worse!. So, @ the end of 2007, I got another case manager, but she wasn't as bad!. But when she left, they put me back with the 1st one!. I'm like, "WHY!?!" So, I figured I'd give the woman another chance!. It didn't work out!. This case manager was ACTUALLY causing me more & more panic attacks, so I called her supervisor!. He didn't return my call, but he said that I have to have a clinical reason for why I want another case manager!. I remember last time, she came to my house & got confrontational & HOSTILE with me, so this time, I was afraid to say anything!. I'm thinking, "Why don't I have a right to freely change case managers!? I'm 25!. I'm an adult!." Neither the case manager nor the psych nurse listen to what I have to say, & they holler & scream @ me (in MY house), like a child & act like I can control my symptoms & use them as an excuse!. If that's the case, I don't need treatment if I can control it, right!? & they're very intrusive in my personal life!. The case manager 1 time went OFF on me because she asked me to tell her something positive!. I said, "I was happy last week for 4th of July, & I enjoyed eating 1 of my favorite foods (which I hardly ever get to eat) BBQ cheeseburgers!. & she started screaming @ me about eating "junk food"!. It was a holiday!. What do you expect!? & me & my twin sister's birthday was that next month, & she tried to make it like I had to have HER permission to have cake & ice cream!.
The day before me & my twin sister's birthday, I felt very down & depressed because my twin sister had been ignoring me, & I had no idea why she was treating me mean!. (We never got along since childhood)!. But she didn't even call me on our birthday, but she called my OTHER sister!. She COMPLETELY avoided me!. The day before, I was having panic attacks & calling crisis hotlines, & the crisis hotline people were very rude & nasty, so I went to the mental health clinic on crisis!. I wasn't feeling suicidal or having thoughts of it or anything!. I just needed someone supportive to talk to, & there was a psych nurse who was new, & she tried to have me locked up in the mental institution for my b-day & laughed about it & thought it was funny!. (I also suffer Tourette's, too & anger & anxiety trigger off the symptoms!.) So, she wanted me hospitalized BEFORE I even had a Tourette's outburst!. I basically got mad & tried to walk out of there & go home & cool down, & she hollered to everyone to call 911 on me, saying I was out of control & this & that!.
I've been seeing a counselor every week & have to pay a $4 sliding scale fee!. This counselor WAS nice to me & supportive at first, but then, she started to turn out to be fake, & I've been coming home angry after the appointments!.
I'm 25 with a college degree, & I can take care of myself!. I feel that the treatment, altogether, isn't helpful!. & the counselor and mental health case manager contradict what they say to me & then lie & say that they never said that!. I feel like they're playing mind games, & NO, I'M "NOT" PARANOID! I'm the same with or without the meds!. I even have explosive outbursts or have extreme panic attacks, even on the meds!. I feel like this medicine is nothing but poison!. The only effects I feel from these medicines are the side effects & no improvement in the symptoms!. A lot of things, I CAN'T help or control!.
& as far as things go, I'm not letting that psych nurse in my house anymore, & I don't care if they call 911 on me!. I don't even think I want to go to the appointment with the Dr!. & case manager today!. I'm tired of living in the "psych world"!.
Yesterday, my counselor made me angry because she always tells me that I have a right to make whatever decision I wWww@Answer-Health@Com
Answers:
Absolutely!. The best thing I ever did for myself was quit listening to doctors and therapists!. I stopped taking medications and seeing a therapist and a psychiatrist and just started living my life!. I made sure to eat healthy and get tons of exercise and sunlight and just stopped thinking about myself as "sick"!. And it worked!. I've never felt better!.Www@Answer-Health@Com
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