Am i suffering from depression and anxiety? suicidal?!
Question: Am i suffering from depression and anxiety? suicidal?
i don't go out i get paranoid about people staring at me judging me.
i have no confidence
i think of suicide and can even see my self killing myself in my head
i'm crying because of the past i feel guilty
i was bullied in school, had family problems, couldn't concentrate all this has been happening since i was 15 i felt ugly and fat insecure i started burning my wrist to feel pain?
i get negative thoughts i just don't care if i died tomorrow i don't know who i am? i look in the mirror i start picking out all these ugly things about my appearance i put on some weight without noticing i can't even carry a conversation anymore i'm over sleeping and my sleeping pattern is bad every night this isn't hormones i've told my parents countless of time i think i have depression but they don't believe me.
i feel empty? like numb, worthless, just lock myself away in my room i just want to end this i don't go out i don't like people seeing me i get scared.
Yesterday i felt so lonely in my own family i went up the stair trying to hold back tears and just burned my neck with a curler tong i just can't take this anymore i keep seeing myself in my head lying in a bath of cold water with a slit wrist i'm scared i might do it i get tempted like hold a knife to my wrist i suffered child abuse when i was younger it effected me now in school i had a counsellor who wasn't much help like i felt like a freak i had emotional problems my guidance teacher got me a counsellor i was the only one who had the counsellor
i just want to die like 20% wants to live but 80% wants to get this over with just kill myself i lock myself in my room when i feel like everything is getting to me
i DO NOT want to die i just getting to the point where enough is enough
Answers:
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Bianca - first of all, it takes a lot of courage to be open about how you're feeling. You have a lot going on - the child abuse (I was sexually abused as a child); feeling fat and ugly (ditto, the guys who were in the same time period of p.e. used to bark at me when I was running the track at school); You sound like you are depressed. Increased sleeping is one symptom of this, but based on everything you're saying, it does sound like depression. As for the burning yourself, I started cutting myself because I was in so much pain, and the physical pain the cutting caused was better than the emotional pain I was feeling. So, what's the answer? I talked to my doctor and he referred me to counseling. If your parents won't listen to you, talk to a teacher - or tell you parents you don't feel good and want to see your doctor and then ask to speak to the doctor privately. There are also suicide prevention phone lines that you can call who can tell you how to get help. Bottom line is you need to talk to a professional and get through what's causing you to hurt inside. You are the only one of you God made, and that makes you priceless and precious. The Lord loves you more than you can know - please seek help and don't give up and don't hurt yourself anymore, ok?
Former depression sufferer, former cutter, former paramedic - fully healed emotionally and employed in the medical profession
Print the completed quiz via 8m.com, below, and if indicated, take to your school counselor, and/or make an excuse to see a doctor. I only recommend antidepressants for those less than around 24 in exceptional circumstances, due to the demonstrated increased risk of suicide, homicide, or aberrant behaviour, in addition to the other risks, and side effects, such as sexual dysfunction, which in some, rare cases is permanent! Also view http://articles.mercola.com/sites/articl… It's alright to OCCASIONALLY tell a close friend that you are feeling down at the moment, and ask if it happens to them, and what do they do about it. Professional advice is to go out with friends regularly, even if you don't feel like it much. In "Feeling Good - the new mood therapy" by David D. Burns, M.D., from your bookstore, or Amazon.com, he recommends that you estimate beforehand how pleasureable it will be, out of 10.
Then, some few hours after returning, rate the actual event. Keep a journal for this, and the other things he advises, and examine your progress.
Practice a relaxation method, daily, and when needed, such as: (free) http://www.drcoxconsulting.com/managing-… or http://altmedicine.about.com/cs/mindbody… or http://www.wikihow.com/meditate... or Yoga Nidra, (no flexibility required) at http://your-mental-health.8m.com/blank_1… (Depression is addressed on pages 3, & b; anxiety; see pages 1, & i; extensive teen resources are on page 2). Suicidal thoughts; view page d, and emotional though stopping is on page y. View http://drbenkim.com/vitamin-d-facts.htm & http://articles.mercola.com/sites/articl…
There may be no single answer to your problems, but the sensible approach is to adopt the core treatments for depression; test for vitamin (optimising vitamin D3) and mineral deficiencies; correct, and ensure good levels of Omega 3 fatty acids. Dr. J. Cannell advises that the co-factors necessary to optimise the absorption, and utilisation of vitamin D3 are magnesium, zinc, boron, and vitamin K2. I recommend using either health food/vitamin stores, or Googling: " ... ; supplies" rather than risking any old, or substandard products at supermarkets, or even on pharmacy shelves. The best dietary source of vitamin K2 is natto.
Use the core treatments on page 3 at 8m.com. If also using a RECOMMENDED* brand of St. John's Wort (take with meals to avoid possible stomach upsets; check out the websites on St. John's Wort via page B), and if using UP TO 50mg of 5-htp daily in addition (or UP TO 200mg of 5-htp if NOT using the wort) take with a very low protein meal, to maximise the amount crossing the blood/brain barrier, with no, or extremely little protein 2 hrs before, to 2 hrs afterwards. Alternatively, take SAMe with the core treatments, but don't use anything else.
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