Bad case of social anxiety + panic disorder? Need help?!

Everyday I try to pretend I'm normal...... I try to hide it when I have anxiety attacks and panic attacks but I only make a fool of myselfa nd embarass myself often. I go to college, and almost everyday i have a bad day because I panic in class and its so embarassing people think im crazy or something and i feel bad. I have horrible trouble making eye contact, I feel like people are staring at me and I can't beat the feeling..... I can't even see good in class like if anyone eyes can amke contact with mine my vision goes really blurry and i can't see much its like my pupils are turning smaller so i can't see other peoples eyes cause in my mind they are a danger to me and my body reacts to fight a danger situation by making my pupils smaller so i can't see them in a way.... how can i just be happy and make my life normal?