feeling very depressed and wanting to cut?!

Now, if anyone says anything harsh - don't listen to them. This is actually a very common problem. Most women cut not for attention, but for control over their own lives which they feel is out of control, and because of the endorphines. Sometimes, even self hate comes into the mix for an amalgam of horrible feelings that give you urges. After I was raped when I was 17 I started cutting, I finally stopped when my life normalized and I do take xanax. Heck, if you're able to see doctors and have good insurance (which not too many people have these days), then maybe you should try xanax and cymbalta. If you're in a place where medicinal marijuana is legalized, that's one of the best things to par take in when you have that urge. Meditate, find your innerself, let this give you a chance to grow! Also, stand up for yourself! I know it's hard but you deserve to be happy. Avoid confrontation, think about how superior you must be to your verbally abusive family in your mind and how they don't understand you. You will regret the scars my dear, because it shows to everyone and perfect strangers that they should stay far away (even years after one has stopped cutting, they're still there but can lighten up if you don't go too deep).

Empower yourself, maybe if you're religious you can talk to free psychologists at temple/church or whatever, even if you're not super religious. Depression hurts, and sometimes families even lash out when they don't understand or can't control the way you are; you might even have a medical problem that's causing your hormones to go crazy which can be regulated. Also, any antidepressants or anything, check all the side effects. Sometimes they make people worse than better, which is why most doctors I know recommend marijuana behind closed doors, you don't want to O.D. because you'll probably snap out of it (even if it feels like an eternity).

life experience,old scars on my arms, plenty of friends now that my horrible sister is out of my life, psychology in college along with premed

You need to talk to someone who understands and can help. Start with calling the National Suicide Prevention Hotline

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Things in this world are hard enough without having personal issues.
It is nearly impossible to say go get a job in the outside world and get out of your shell.
It isn't happening for the best of us.
You recognize that you are better with your friend. You recognize things aren't working properly. That is a big part of doing something about feeling depressed .
You need some one to be talking to about things. I am not saying therapist, I think they suck.
A friend or other relative who will give you some time. School counselour? What about some chat rooms or someone far away to use as a 'pen pal'
I don't think talking about your depression would be the best subject, but talking about stuff would be.
Your friend hasn't given up on you. She/he finds it hard when things aren't easy to fix.They get frustrated too. You aren't the only one with feelings that get hurt. Say 'hi' to her when you have the chances.She was doing good by you at one time.

You are a human-being you should have so much more confidence in yourself. Be happy with who you are. I have social anxiety and have no friends either. I stay in my room when i'm not working or at school. So, I decided i was going to become better than those people that gave me problems through my life and use it as fuel. Don't take the easy way out, its selfish. We have all experienced the same hell, and felt the same pain just through different means. It's how we deal with it that makes us accomplish true happiness. You will find someone to confide in, don't worry about that. Just don't forget your goals in life. Don't let this drag you down. Your in the prime of your life with so to look forward too. Don't hurt yourself... please. I know its not as easy as i say it is. You might need someone to talk. "/ I really hope you feel better...!

Remember that sad feeling pass. You wont feel this way forever. Find people to talk to. These feeling will pass. You have a long happy life ahead of you!

Been there