is death my only way to be happy?!
Question: Is death my only way to be happy?
i havd overdoes's and since then, im so lonly even though i have people around me, feel like i'm going crazy, because i hear and see things that ant there.
I make sure people are happy, and not feel the way i do, i always ALWAYS make sure.
i think of people before myself, and so they all want to know, but they push me away.
i cry in my room and sometimes cry my self to sleep ( sad, ant i ) but i curl up and think why me? why do i feel this way? cry and scream and panic and anxierty kicks in. and my chest hurts and i have soo much in side me, and i can't let it out, but when i get mad i see flash's of my overdoe's and my car accident, and then all a sudden, im happy? and high energy, thne next min i try to find pills, i run and scream all over the house for them, i mean really run and scream and smash up things then i'm happy? and the littlest thing somebody says to me about my overdoes i cry and cry and cry, and always think of self-harm, + i don't eat or drink i smoke so much! and i have too much sleep, i can go to bed at 3am and get up at half 4 the next day then keep sleeping.
so i think, if my life was easier i could be far from everybody and never feel upset?
i had to always lok after my self on my own depend on my self since i was 4, so mum and dad never help.
can anybody help?
Answers:
Hi,
It sounds like you're suffering from depression and you need to get some help so you can feel good and live a normal life. You deserve better than this. Take a look at this website and get some information. Then, see your Doctor. Take care and live well.
http://www.medicinenet.com/script/main/a…
No Its Not you could mentally hurt many people if you kill your self.
You need to talk to your doctor.
Or just sit down with some of your friends and Speak to them.
Maybe talk to your family.
You can always get threw it.
No matter what.
You should be talking about this with your doctor, not strangers on the internet.
You need a rehab center where you can sit and talk to somebody, with no
distractions.
You are not the only one with this type of condition.
You better head on down to your doctor but if you do not have a doctor find one at a local hospital.
If you can get an accurate diagnosis, and get the proper medical and medicine advice you stand a great chance at recovery.
I know many people with mental illness and it is not to be something to fear or ashamed of,
Get to a doctor pronto. ASAP have a great life don't give up. People get this way sometimes. even without being mentally ill. depression is a very serious thing and I sympathize with you.
wow this sounds like me.. I went trough all this too. I was going trough depression and at the end I ended up committing 4 suicide attempts. They didn't work either that when i realize that why didn't i make a change and try to be happy. I think you should talk to someone.. sharing whats inside of you soul makes you feel relief of allot of things. I am starting a web-page. about suicide, depression and other things. I don't know if you will mind taking a look at it.. Well hope you get better and if you ever need to talk to someone. Here is my page.. and on my page there allot of way you could contact me:D
http://isabelllopez.webs.com/