I'm in big trouble. Help?!
Question: I'm in big trouble. Help?
Ok I'm 19. I've come across a serious problem. Ok I've never had a girlfriend. I'm heterosexual, but I don't want to have sex with girls. Turns out, I'm more of a gentleman than a real man. Like I'm attracted to womens' personalities, but I don't think about having sex with women. Then people wonder where my sexual urges go. It turns out, the only thing that turns me on is death. Death, pain, & suffering. Not like women & children suffering, but mainly men getting hurt. I started lifting weights a year ago & doing boxing. I've been looking into MMA & Krav Maga fighting. I just want to hurt guys. I want to see them suffer. That's a turn-on for me. I don't know why. I have to get counseling or something. This is no joke. I'm turning into a monster. I'm going to college, but I don't talk to anyone unless they approach me first. Girls try to talk to me, but I always pretend like I'm busy. I could get a girlfriend. Sometimes I want one, but I hate sex. I hate romance. I hate being touched. I hate happiness. I hate being happy. I love being alone. So I have no friends as well. Noone knows this about me. What do I do?
Answers:
no one on Y answers could ever tell u the proper course to take. go see a psychiatrist because this is too absurd to leave unhelped.
Play around BDSM tools and people. It can be done in a controlled and healthy way. You've got to accept it before you can channel it.
you seriously need to go to a psychiatrist.
maybe ur too shy?