Why is it that I don't fit in anywere? I feel like no one gets me ... even !


Question: Why is it that I don't fit in anywere? I feel like no one gets me ... even my own dad calls me mental?
I suffer from OCD. I have an Obsession with cleanliness. I wash my hands more than 20 times a day. I have an Obsession with keeping my hands clean. I spend over an hour in the shower. I am a bit of a germophobe and don't like touching anything dirty. I don't like using public toilets and sometimes I may use tissue to lift the toilet seats or to open the door. At one time my OCD was really bad and I had a breakdown as I wouldn't stop washing. I was constantly scrubbing myself. I even blew the shower up as it went it on fire coz the wires overheated. I also flooded the bathroom so much that the ceiling caved through. I bleached my skin raw. I also washed everything in bleach such as all the floor and nearly collapsed over the fumes. I washed all my phones and computer and they like broke. I was crying all the time. I eventually broke down and overdosed myself. I got admitted in a psychiatric hospital. My OCD is alot better now but its stil lingers there as I stil am quite a germophobe and wash alot. Sometimes I also worry about my health. At one time I kept running to the hospital as I kept thinking there was something wrong with me. I got sectioned in a psychiatric unit again over that. I am also quite religious and like to learn about religion and pray. My family and friends aren't really religious like I am though and don't seem to understand it. I also have self esteem issues. I very insecure and always obsessing over my appearance. I wear loads of fake tan, make up, eyelashes, hair extensions, fake nails. I just try to make myself look good but i'm never happy and don't think I look good enough and I desperately want surgery. I have become depressed over it lately and haven't been going out much anymore. I also kinda hate myself and regret many things I have done. Everyone thinks I'm crazy, My family, my friends all say i'm mental and none of them seem to understand me and I don't seem to fit in anywhere. I just feel like an outsider. They don't understand my OCD and my insecurity. They all say i'm pretty and they don't understand why I obsess over it and why i'm so depressed and want surgery. Even my Dad calls me mental which really saddens me surely I am not crazy. I don't like it when they call me crazy. They say I need seek help and that i'm in denial but i'm not. Just coz I obsess over cleanliness, my health and my appearance does not make me crazy. I just don't understand why I don't fit in anywhere. everyone says i'm mental sometimes I think maybe I am. surely there someone out there that understands me. Do I sound crazy to you?

Answers:

Best Answer - Chosen by Voters

Piss-bottle Jones says

100% certifiably batshit crazy, your behavior is not normal no matter how you try to justify it so you can sleep at night, get help



You are not crazy! Having OCD is compleely normal. I think you should watch this show called Monk. There are always reruns on USA Network & Sleuth Network! I know some people who watch it & feel better about their OCD. They see that even though it's fictional, it's possible for somebody to do these things! Also, look online for a website with stories of how OCD has helped people instead of made them "crazy" which they aren't! If you were actually crazy, you WOULD be put in a mental ward by somebody no matter what! There is always a person who will do that if they knew a crazy person. You're not!

To P-BJ: You're crazy ok?! Don't be rude unless you know something about this disorder. Im guessing you don't have a few friends with it like me. Oh wait, with your atitude, I don't think you have ANY friends! Goodbye!



Your not crazy! When someone calls you crazy just say "i know you are but what am I?" Just ignore those people and dont get mad at your dad he's just teaseing you. Dont get depressed just calm down with the washing madness. Like you can use a hand sanitiver when you touch something dirty. Buy a small hand santizer. Im ugly as ****! But people say im pretty. When they call me pretty I say thank you. I would never ever get surgery! I dont wear extensions but when i see a girl with it they look gorgeous, you just have to know how to wear it. The fake nails are perfectly good just remember fake nails makes your real nail weak. If you take a shower that lasts 1 hour it really doesnt matter just dont shower over an hour. Public tiolets are gross i agree! I also use tissue to open the door. Your not crazy just calm down with your germs concept. Just be confident! Of yourself because if people tell you that your pretty then YOU ARE!! xoxo ;)




The consumer health information on answer-health.com is for informational purposes only and is not a substitute for medical advice or treatment for any medical conditions.
The answer content post by the user, if contains the copyright content please contact us, we will immediately remove it.
Copyright © 2007-2011 answer-health.com -   Terms of Use -   Contact us

Health Categories