How can i get over my fear of eating ?!
Question: How can i get over my fear of eating ?
i'm a fifteen year old male (if that is important at all...)
ok what i want to know is:
how can i get over my fear of eating?
what could have caused this all of a sudden?
first things first i have a severe nut allergy and i have to carry epipens with me wherever i go, but i feel myself like i'm just using this as my excuse for not eating.
in the past i have been fine eating food i know i can safely eat, but recently (the last three or four days) i have acquired a fear of eating, anything.
i'm not anorexic and i'm perfectly comfortable with my weight but i worry that it could become anorexia if i don't sort it out soon.
i have panic attacks for up to half an hour after i have eaten anything (but a side note is.... i'm fine eating fruit)
an example is, i was made dinner by my dad and i couldn't physically eat it (he has been making my food for all 15 years of my life and i've never had a problem with his cooking) i told him i didn't like it and i'll make something for myself (i later explained the real reason for not eating it).
so i made some scrambled eggs, consisting of nothing but eggs and oil, as i had made this food myself and i knew it was completely safe but i still had to force myself to eat it and i found it a real effort to swallow it, it took me nearly 15 minutes to finish it.
(in contrast i can quite happily eat an apple or a plate of strawberries)
i don't believe i will become anorexic as i will force myself to eat and i will never starve myself.
also just so you know i'm not one of those people who thinks it's cool to act depressed, anorexic, bulimic, etc
i have personally been diagnosed with clinical depression (runs in both sides of the family... lucky me!) and i think people who act like they have a disorder are disgusting.
also could it be stress related? things haven't exactly been smooth sailing at the moment...
-my parents recently went through a particularly nasty break up,
-i've recently temporarily been removed from school with my gcse's looming (i go to a private school and we don't have enough money for the fees at the moment, although i am still studying),
-we don't have enough money for the rent on our house (and the only reason we still have a roof over our heads is because the landlord is a pretty decent guy,
-this culminated this week, with my mother leaving the country earlier this week (without contacting me) and doesn't plan on coming back.
sorry if it seems like i've gone off at a tangent but it was quite relieving to vent...
anyway opinions please... thanks in advance guys x :D
ok what i want to know is:
how can i get over my fear of eating?
what could have caused this all of a sudden?
first things first i have a severe nut allergy and i have to carry epipens with me wherever i go, but i feel myself like i'm just using this as my excuse for not eating.
in the past i have been fine eating food i know i can safely eat, but recently (the last three or four days) i have acquired a fear of eating, anything.
i'm not anorexic and i'm perfectly comfortable with my weight but i worry that it could become anorexia if i don't sort it out soon.
i have panic attacks for up to half an hour after i have eaten anything (but a side note is.... i'm fine eating fruit)
an example is, i was made dinner by my dad and i couldn't physically eat it (he has been making my food for all 15 years of my life and i've never had a problem with his cooking) i told him i didn't like it and i'll make something for myself (i later explained the real reason for not eating it).
so i made some scrambled eggs, consisting of nothing but eggs and oil, as i had made this food myself and i knew it was completely safe but i still had to force myself to eat it and i found it a real effort to swallow it, it took me nearly 15 minutes to finish it.
(in contrast i can quite happily eat an apple or a plate of strawberries)
i don't believe i will become anorexic as i will force myself to eat and i will never starve myself.
also just so you know i'm not one of those people who thinks it's cool to act depressed, anorexic, bulimic, etc
i have personally been diagnosed with clinical depression (runs in both sides of the family... lucky me!) and i think people who act like they have a disorder are disgusting.
also could it be stress related? things haven't exactly been smooth sailing at the moment...
-my parents recently went through a particularly nasty break up,
-i've recently temporarily been removed from school with my gcse's looming (i go to a private school and we don't have enough money for the fees at the moment, although i am still studying),
-we don't have enough money for the rent on our house (and the only reason we still have a roof over our heads is because the landlord is a pretty decent guy,
-this culminated this week, with my mother leaving the country earlier this week (without contacting me) and doesn't plan on coming back.
sorry if it seems like i've gone off at a tangent but it was quite relieving to vent...
anyway opinions please... thanks in advance guys x :D
Answers:
First of all know that I think you are about the strongest 15 year old I have ever met! You are so strong, its unbelievable! And definetely it can totally be stress related! And it seems like you are covering it up because of your nut allergy...you see it as a comfort zone. You are a really smart guy and I would love to talk to you if you want to contact me...I would love to help. I dont want you to go through this alone. Dont hesitate to if you even just want to vent. Thats fine too :)