Want bad things to happen?!

You're really brave to ask that question, and I admire your courage.

It also sounds like you're really in touch with yourself, which is essential in facing & overcoming your problems. I have faith in you.

You're not crazy. You're just hurting. You want to know that someone cares because you're in emotional pain & it's not visible. If you want to understand why you're feeling this way, you'll need to get some answers from people who understand it better than anyone on yahooAnswers.

I encourage you to turn to experienced people who understand what you're going through & have helpful resources to offer you. A priest, a pastor, a counselor or ask your insurance company for a "mental health provider" reference. Many times they offer free or low-cost counseling.

I don't know if this resource is reliable, but I want to offer you something. You can check it out at: http://www.wellness.com/find/psychiatris… .They can help you find a professional.

I wish you the best, and remember: you are not alone.

It sounds like you want attention.

Everybody gets this to some extent.

You need to realize that you will find people that will care about you, and I'm sure many already to although you may not notice it. Everybody has somebody crushing on them.

However, you know a quicker solution? Have yourself care about yourself. Ask yourself, "am I a good person?" Then ask yourself "Do I deserve to be happy?" Then "is there anything keeping me from being happy, except myself?" Then "So is there really anything keeping me from being happy?" When you realize the answer to this final question, smile, because you just gave yourself a reason to.

Love yourself, and know that people will see how wonderful you are and love you for it, even if you haven't met them yet. Be happy until you do.

Even though I dont know you, I truly care. Its hard to be ignored and thats one of the worst things anyone can do to you. But think that better times while come. Pray to God he will hear you. Remeber he loves us all too. Us humans need attention and affection because thats the way we were created. I hope u feel better, and just dont think any of those things. Life is beautiful and you should enjoy it. Choose your friends wisely and think in what you can become better. Show then how much ur worth! :) Take care! I love you!! :))

Münchausen syndrome

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/M%C3%BCncha…

It def sounds like Munchausen's but there are many things to understand about this, first of all that you are not a snob, you need emotional response that you are not receiving and are in so much pain that you are willing to go through these horrible things to get it. When people say it's 'just for attention' it hurts but it's true. What they don't always say is that it is for attention that you need, you are only trying to illicit the emotional support that you need. There are many forms of therapys that can help 'train your brain' to not need such a high intensity of emotion or help you find other ways to acquire that attention than hurting yourself or wishing for harm. And if you feel really bad about it just know this, anyone who claims they DON'T want attention has much bigger problems, denial for starters usually. Good luck and don't let this make you feel like you're not a good person!

http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/munchau…

When i was a little younger i was exactly the same way.. for years i tried to "accidently" break a bone or hurt myself bad enough to get attention.. it NEVER worked.. probably because more than i wanted attention i didnt want anyone to think i was faking or that i was just trying to get attention.. weird i know but my point is i totally relate! if i may ask how old are you.. i guess i just feel like i matured and grew out of it.. i dont like the expression but its the only one that seems to fit.. i think it will go away on its own but i dont have any advice- so sorry!

experience

I had moments of wishing (vaguely) for things like that, years ago, when I was in high school. My parents were in the middle of a bad divorce, and I had trouble fitting in at a new school. I remember feeling pretty desperately lonely, and ignored.

If you want advice about what to do about it, here are my 2 cents. You sound kind of young to me so I'm speaking to that:

- Talk to your parents, even if they're preoccupied. Pick a calm time, not when things are dramatic (if they are). Say you would like to spend a bit more quality time with them, that you feel sort of lost in the order of things. It's important to express these feelings, so you give your parents a chance to respond! If things are bad, they might not realize what you're going through.

- Get busy. If you're artistic, use your emotions - put them into drawing, or whatever it is. Even if you're not artistic, writing things down in something like a journal will help you destress, and work things out for yourself. Another thing you could try is to do something really physical to distract yourself. This is good in a different way - you'll expend some of the negativity for a little while at least.

- Some of these activities will give you a chance to meet other people in a structured way. This takes the pressure off getting to know people - you're all there for a reason (drama club, running, whatever). You might not get the closeness you're looking for, and probably not right away, but it'll open the door to new friendships.

- Plan and suggest things to do with people you like, like seeing a movie or something. Sometimes it's up to you to take the initiative.

- Appreciate the people who DO make an effort. Sometimes they're not the ones you wish did, but I'm sure there are some people who see your qualities, people you might be ignoring. And be accepting of people getting things wrong - no one's perfect.

I promise that this intense feeling will pass, with time. But it also takes some effort on your part.

Take care.