Anyone whose recovered from an eating disorder?!

not intended as a solution for anyone else lol but I got pregnant and literally had to tell myself and the voice in my head that I was on termporary leave that I was aware I had been bad but had to temporarily be fat for the sake of the child, I messed up a couple times but am a really comitted mom so I ate well most of the pregnancy and after he was born I freaked out and did eat for several days until my husband really came down hard on me about it, it kind of just clicked, I still feel Im overweight but its not like before at all, before I was easting 3-400 calories a day and seriously psychotic, the pregnancy gave me time to become a little more normal so I was practised at eating a healthy diet so when I decided I wanted to be normal I already knew what to do

uhm i was anorexic a while back and it literally destroyed me i'm in ballet and I let it get to me i ended up weighing 103lbs at one point but i could barely dance then i found Spencer, the love of my life he literally told me "i like you, i know your sick. Do you wanna go out to dinner?" by nature i refused but later on he texted me saying "i wanna be the one that saves your life dont push me away" and i couldnt he goes to counceling with me every week and he's the best thing thats ever happened to me, he literally saved my life, i went from eating less than 50 cals a week to now i eat 350 cals a day im not 115lbs
Thanks Spencer