Self harm; whats your story?!


Question: Self harm; whats your story?
i've self harmed for about 3 years- it was after my parents when through a terrible divorce, after i stayed in a shelter, after i constantly got hurt by him. A little while ago things started getting better
until i got into hardcore drugs and i would black out everytime i took them. which made me vunerable. one night i was at a party,
took drugs, blacked out, woke up to a man inside of me. and i lost my virginity that night. I have no coping skills at all, which is why i self harm.
It helps me cope and it helps me erase the bad thoughts from my head.
it helps me feel something.

whats your story?

Answers:

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I don't self harm, it's not good for you. I think you should try therapy instead.



In Jesuschrist name Emily you can get over it, pray and confess it to the Lord do not try to carry alone with your problems get some help, as you have noticed we seems to need help every now and then. God is there always and he has a very good plan for you accept him and your life is going to change dramatically, once I self harmed too but that's gone and so many other problems in my life. Life doesn't become easier with age but rather you change and get prepared and ask for help always. God bless you.



My dad is abusive, mostly emotionally but he does get physically abusive if I don't do what he says. The worst part is that my mom knows that it's happening but she won't do anything about it. The only reason they are still together is because of money issues. I cut when I get frustrated, upset or sad. I get stressed from school because it's important that I do well; it's the only way I can get out of the situation I'm in now.



My self-harm story is that I support Leeds United.



I've been self harming for almost my whole life. I had a very abusive childhood physical, mental, people in my family trying to kill me, even molestation. I didn't understand it at the time but around 5 I had built up anger from things I experienced. I thought "why would they do that to me?" I was so little though I didn't understand that this world is full of sick people. So, in school I started taking my anger out on other students until I was about 7. I'd hit, bite, scratch, do random harmful things to them. But I kept getting in trouble and realized that wasn't right. I was hurting them like my family hurt me. So I started digging my nails into my skin until I was bleeding, hitting myself so hard I'd be covered in bruises, poking myself with sharp things like safety pins or needles, and doing things like intentionally jumping off the jungle gym to somehow get hurt. (I actually nearly broke my leg because of this.) When I got older, my tweens, this behavior evolved into cutting. Whenever someone would hurt me I'd find something sharp and punish my own self for their wrongs. It got to a point where I got caught cutting in class because I was addicted. Now I'm 17 and finally recovering. I still admit I cut and do other forms of self harm but over time it's getting less and less. I hardly do anything like that now. I hope you can do that too. It's really bad, I mean... it feels like you're helping yourself at the time but no. Hurting yourself isn't the right way to deal with things.(neither is hurting others of course.)



Sorry to hear that. What kind of drugs cause i too fell into them, mainly cocaine.
Only time i self harmed was when this girl i was dating cheated on me with a really close friend so i triied to off myself by overdosing on whatever there was (was bloodpressure pills etcetc), had to get my stomach pumped at the hospital and nearly died. After i was put into a psych ward (crazy house) for acouple months (i stabbed someone in there with a toothbrush XD added some time cause of that). He threw his bread at me so yeah thats why. After i got out i was a total mess which is when the drugs came in. Thankfully i stopped taking EVERYTHING and have to say was the hardest thing in my life. Now im a clean and feeling good enjopying life...hopefully you will to.
Lifes too short. goodluck



Well my parents have been constantly fighting so much. I hate my dad for being such an abusive ***hole. Seriously......he tells people my family's business and he put my mom through some serious cases of ACS. From his big mouth, he's been telling people that my mom has been abusing us. I LOVE HER AND SHE IS NOT.........He made up these libel stories and my mom hates him so much...She has to put up with him because she can not work due to her legs not functioning properly(she can't really walk).

One time I exploded and brought up EVERYTHING to hurt my dad's feelings and he just walked away in tears. I really didn't care.

Usually the parent thats going to be abusive is the dad. I hope he drops dead...

sorry for all of the bad things I said, its wow....

Aquarius



I can't really do any blaming, it's just that my family is full of mental illness on both sides, on nearly every branch, my family tree is just sickly, and well good things rarely come of sick people to the psyche of small children, but they can't be blamed for anything, their sick. I just hope that they didn't pass any off it on, in their less than ideal gens to me. But since right now I'm answering the question 'what's your self harm story', they could have. Well basically I don't even remember a time when I didn't know were all my scares or anything came from (myself). Then I didn't know what it was, I just knew that it probably wasn't ok to do, and kept it to my self. I was probably maybe about 6ish when I started little stuff like intentionally throwing my self down on black tops, and such, or scratching of sections skin and then after it scabbed picking at it for weeks after. It wasn't until maybe about 9 years later that I started cutting, it wasn't until after a few times of that, that I realized the full social stigma agenst what I was doing, all of it, I didn't think the durning was that bad, but I never have gotten to the point of burning that badly, because I hate how even after it's healed, it still deadens my sense of touch, and I was afraid if I burt my hands to badly I wouldn't be able to sculpt anymore at all, ever. And well the first time I cut, sorry to add to preexisting stigmas, but I was thinking, 'I'll slash my wrists and be done with it', I just had a blunted end 4 safety, serrated kitchen knife, needless to say i didn't get anywhere near killing myself, but at that first cut, I felt so much better, I did it agin and agin, not wanting to kill my self. Those ones didn't even scar, if you looked at my wrist now it would look relatively normal, eve if you were looking for something you would only see very small traces, I hide them a lot better now. I haven't told anyone about any of it (that you know knows me by my actual name) though one friend did find out, but she lives a long ways away now. It's so hard not to cut, not even just my pain drives it, I literally am a bleeding hart, I can't bare to see other people in pain, and if I fail in helping them, or just can't do enough that sometimes drives me to cut too, if it was only me I cared about in this world, I'ld be the happiest person in the world, or at least I could deal with it. But other people in pain, it's not that I see that as my fault, I haven't been around for ever, I couldn't have prevented it, but I fell responsible if I can't help them. Which I know is super stupid, but you asked why. Self harm, cutting in particular, just makes the world seem smaller, more manageable, makes me fell less insignificant, it's like a life preserver when I feel like I'm drowning, but also sometimes part of the shackles around my feet, that keep me from just being able to just swim. I hate that I need it. And if anyone who doesn't hurt themselves reads this, please don't do it, it will really just make everything worse after the initial wave of it's better, the it just comes back to you worse, it's like a drug, don't do it.




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