why do you self-harm/self injure? self harmers only (i want to hear others reaso!

um, i do it because all the time i'm so low.. and then i feel numb and to cut myself i can feel something again. and because i want to put my body in pain i love how it feels, it like a weight of your shoulder.. a lot of people do it for different reason's and that's mine because i love how it feels, and that i want to put my body in pain, ive had 3 overdoes's and i don;t know why but i love pain!

- You need help love! all that? i don't know how you can cope? um, get rid of him he's not health for you and please eat i know i don't but please eat. i hate to see people how i am :/ makes me feel horrible!
snowy_221@hotmail.co.uk - there's ya gooo!
x

personal..

F*ck, the people's stories on here make me a complete whiner.
I'm a selfish weak b*tch. That's why.

I used to do it because when I was 9 years old I was molested by an older girl and 2 older boys. They also happened to be people I trusted. When I was 16 my boyfriend raped me in my own car. When I was 18 my 2nd boyfriend was always forcing me to give him oral sex or else he'd tell everyone I got raped by my 1st boyfriend. I stopped doing it.

I recently did it but stopped again because I think I may be either lesbian and or bisexual and I don't want to be that because my family would disown me.

There's a few reasons why I self harm at the moment, it's not always for the same reason every time but these are the usual reasons:
- I have depression and get suicidal thoughts..Cutting takes those feelings of misery and wishing I was dead away, even if it's just for a few seconds.
- I have obsessive thoughts..Cutting gets rid of them/is a way of punishing myself for having them (even though I can't help it).
- I have anxiety, so cutting makes me feel less anxious and sometimes prevents panic attacks.
- It makes me focus on something else other than the emotional distress.
- Honestly, I just love it and hate it at the same time. I mean, I hate that I have to do this to myself in order to cope, but I just love pretty much everything else about doing it..I love having scars, I love actually doing it, I love how it gives me that adrenaline rush. But having said that, it's not worth it to have all these hideous marks on my arms and legs that won't fade for ages..and I feel so guilty and dirty afterwards. I'd give anything to stop, but I can't.
- Oh yeah, I'm addicted. I would probably stop if I could.

Message me if you wanna<3

Your most serious problem right now is your suicidal behavior. I am so sorry that you have experienced such sadness and abuse in your life. Please go to the nearest emergency room and tell them what you are doing. You need to be admitted to a psychiatric unit. Don't let that scare you because it could be the best thing that you have ever done for yourself. You will be assigned a psychiatrist who will diagnose and treat you with the right medications that will change your life for the better. There are group therapy meetings with people who are suffering just like you. You will learn skills that you never knew and learn from others in the groups. This will serve two purposes, it will get you away from the abuse and stress for awhile. And you will leave as a much stronger person who can solve the problems of your life. You don't have to suffer the way that you are. You deserve much better and the best that life has to give.

Because of the abuse that you have suffered in your life you never had the opportunity to learn the healthy skills to manage your emotions. When you cut it releases feel good chemicals called "Endorphins", but the relief is only temporary. You can learn the skills that you need to manage your emotions in healthy ways and would get a good start in the hospital. Most people don't understand "cutting" and don't understand why they do it.

I'm an ex-cutter.
I first started cutting when I got yelled at by my father when i was 12. I heard about people "cutting" or pain inflicting, and so I tried it. I used a sharp, think wood toothpick and stabbed it into my forearm and dragged it down, scraping away massive amounts of skin. My biggest fear was always being yelled at by my father, so that's why I tried it that day (I knew cutting was supposed to make people feel better). the sensation I got was actually good; it actually felt strangely nice.
After that, I started carving initials of a crush on to my ankle with a razor. I didn't do it because it felt good, but because I wanted to show my devotion to the one I loved (although I knew he'd never see)
After that, I started cutting when I broke up with a friend who I was secretly in love with. I cut my wrists with a razor because it took my mind off the emotional pain I was going through. I'd cry and cut at the same time.
So I guess you can say I had different reasons, multiple times.
I no longer cut.

Experience