depersonalization (depression/anxiety linked into it), again. help please?!
Question: Depersonalization (depression/anxiety linked into it), again. help please?
I feel helpless, alone, when i think of my childhood, like in primary school, i feel so depressed because i was normal and happy then, now im messed up, i have these worries that trouble my reality and everyday life. i cant lead a normal life like this. i feel so messed up... i feel so messed up, confused, alone, lost, helpless, in dispare, you name it... that even when my mum practically knew something was up a few weeks back, and when she was questioning me whilst hugging me to tell her what was up, saying she needed to trust me when i said i was fine, i knew it was the perfect time to tell her, but something was holding me back, it was like this wall, standing there, so i couldnt tell her, like i'm not in control of my mind to tell her anymore... i really don't know what to do, i can't tell her, it's just like a wall standing in the way of me telling her. What do i do, i'm so confused, terrified, like i can't explain how i am anymore, and detatched from reality (slightly literally) in my mind. I looked on facebook, went back to when i first got facebook, which was around 2 years ago, and in the first few months of having depression, my status's were cheesey and innocent, i wasn't as messed up and crazy as i am now at all. I feel like i've changed and become ALL depression. I've just had a good 3-4 days without seriously worrying too much, but i've just become depressed again, i've just begun worrying again, like i thought, i'm still depressed and it's not gone, i can't escape.
I think, the world is pointless, life is just a bunch of senses, emotions ect. The technology is too complex and crazy to be real, the world can't be real. Also, the teacher kept me behind to have a word with me, and when she was talking to me, i started panicing, thinking, it can't be my conciounce she is talking to, it can't be me that she wants to talk to. Also one more thing, i'm going to a theme park in 2 weeks, i want to go on the big roller coasters, but i don't want my light headed type affect to get in the way on the rid, another thing is, I also feel really confused with who i am anymore. please help me. or give me some advice about all of this??
right now, i feel depressed, like i don't know who i am, lost, alone, like there is no point in life, because life doesn't benefit anything, all everything is is just rock, so there is no point of us living. I'm scared and it feels like i'm losing contact with who i am, please help me, Thankyou so much
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Will, there are just three points I will make to help you. They are extremely important...
(1) Your mental illness started at about the time you entered puberty.
Conversely, it may simply and quickly just vanish, like adolescent acne does.
(2) I am *not* a psychartrist but it appears you do have 'Depersonalization'.
It is not helped by the obvious fact (from your writing) that you are highly intelligent. You write better than most adults.
You need to see your counsellor soonest, where she may refer you to an expert.
(3) There is *no* way someone so young as you now, and back when something awful happened, should feel guilty.
You are still a child, someone who is allowed to make mistakes without formal punishment.
Please be brave enough to write back telling us what the guilt trip is about.
You are called Will. Show us that you have the "will" to enjoy the rest of your life.
You can do it...
Life experience!
stop worrying about the what ifs! just do it, if something bad is going to happen it will happen, stop thinking about worrying it helpss.
what is vitally important is to choose your healing route- for this problem ----- carefully from good information—that means knowing druggs/meds treatment for this can/will be damaging to your mind and body .drugs only mask the symptoms they do not cure.
This info well –it will save ---years of suffering = if you apply it ..
All treatment recommended by the doctors should be tested and approved and quite rightly so.
That makes sense
It costs millions of pounds to test and approve just one treatment.
Drug companies pay for most testing and will only and I mean only look at treatments, which show the promise of good deal of a profit, --they will actively dismiss any therapy which does not have profit potential— thus your doctor will only recommend therapies that have been tested with profit potential in them.
Despite The fact that some of these other therapies mentioned below do have overwhelming benefits some, which have saved massive amounts of suffering
Drugs are not the answer for any mental illness-- at best they mask symptoms
This is a fundamental principle grasp this fully –
Have you heard your local doctor recommend, Massage Spiritual healing, reiki Light therapy, Colour therapy, the violet ray therapy, Osteopathy, Electrical Frequency devices. Karma therapy and u wont because no one can put a patent on these powerful therapies .
For much more info/ detail and research behind this protocol
Go here http://uk.groups.yahoo.com/group/theholi…
Upon joining this group you will be sent a file giving the info –or go to the files section within the group and u will see it there
Print this all off save it and enact it and share it --- of course someone to help you get these therapies in your life is invaluable but do not be swayed by anyone trying for short cuts …
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1,get someone to massage your back and legs at least 3 times a week use peanut oil or a mix of 50-50 olive and peanut oil.
2 use the violet ray machine an Edgar Cayce device google search this --- 3 times a week on the other days especially on the spine….we use it every day with very positive results
3.get a tent sleep out side 3times a week utilising earth energy - nature can help big time especially with how you feel how much energy you have
4 study and apply good nutrition— adele davis books =protein minerals =iron essential fatty acids omega 3 6 9 protein etc
5 ensure your thyroid is working well get it checked
6 ensure you do at least I hr per day some kind of voluntary work when you are able..the reasons you are ill , or poor or have allsorts of bad things happen to you is because of karma -----usually from past lives but some from this one –voluntary work will offset your mistakes--- how much it offsets well that is down to god and how much you do. Healing us is in direct proportion to the help we give others ie your healing comes with helping others achieve theirs so if people are doing very little in helping others ---they suffer more and longer...and if they are doing a lot they get well faster....so now you know what to do ,,and like a lot of us are already doing being of service.
7 be amongst people who are giving, friendly who have time for you who love you , choose your friends well . choose your company well.
8 get to a place which personally love or like
9 do some work which you like or love
10 ensure you do no acts which hurt or inflict on anyone –don’t want to add to your karma do we !!!
11 spiritual healing and reiki find good therapists who offer this service in your area many spiritualist churches which are all around offer this for free as part of their vocational offerings to the divine.
12 focus your mind - think good positive thoughts, laughter, look at comedy, play good uplifting music,
13 avoid at all costs exposure to violence, murders, suffering ,death ,tragedies, -feed upon good things uplifting things, things that feel like a breath of fresh air..
14 Positive affirmation- t programme your self in the mirror , thoughts are things words are things actions are things , all have influence, few people realise these things can have an effect on themselves .
15 get a detox ------ toxins can influence how you feel big time
16 hugs get plenty of them in your daily life you would be amazed at how people feel after a few decent hugs.== find a big tree and hug that.
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17 loads of exercise running walking climbing but something which you enjoy
18 light therapy sunshine /light box and vitamin d and ensure water intake 2 litres a day
A total cure however is tied up with karma so you can imagine just how important is the voluntary work. The more u do the better u will feel .
Get the spiritual healing /reiki in place asap
And remember this
Voluntary work for you is a very good idea especially when u consider this principle
,.all our healing and happiness - yours and mine is linked right alongside our efforts and contribution to others.in direct proportion to the help we give others
ie your healing comes with helping others =so if people are doing very little in helping others ---they suffer more and longer...and if they are doing a lot they get well faster...
.so now you know what to do ,,and like a lot of us are already doing being of service.
Do not even dream of healing to come to you if you are doing wrongful acts , wrongful words , wrongful thoughts. All you are doing is making more of a burden for yourself
1 hour a day will make a difference to you and to others
it happnes kid, it happened to me. you have to want to beat it tho. you have to clear your mind go out and have fun. stop worrying. if you think the world is pointless then whatever youre gonna be here for a while you might as well go do some fun things. i sometimes feel the same way like what do i have to look forward too? the answer is that youve been givin this life, go do something great with it. keep your head up.
me
If you type in to your search engine "free Christian Counselling" you may find a drop in centre where you can talk to a counsellor. This is what I did and it was an enormous help. Try some prayers too. God always answers prayers.
Everything you said makes sense and reminds me horribly of some times in my life
13 is a *really* difficult time - it does get easier
You really do need to go back to the doctor - if you don't want counselling or the wait is too long, don't leave til they have sorted something for you.
Pills are not always the answer but no-one thinks twice about taking pills for headaches caused by stress or anxiety - if it relieves the symptoms, then that's good enough for now
I got some citalopram prescribed and though I didn't want it, it was absoultely the right thing and probably saved my life. Medication can be very effective - the hardest thing (for me) was admitting that I needed something
I would take a print out of what you have written and give it to your doctor - its so well written and so compelling that I can't see them ignoring it.
There *ARE* things available that help
My sincere best wishes