I'm never happy...serious answers only...?!

i was kind of in a similar position as you, until i realized i just needed time for myself and do the things i like instead doing the things that i really don't care about. im not saying you should stop being responsible but stop worrying about school so much and start doing stuff because YOU like to do them not because somebody else wants you to do them. ( I DONT MEAN STOP DOING YOUR SCHOOL WORK, KEEP THAT UP!) go somewhere to distract urself, you dont need 50 friends. you just need the people you care about most to have fun. I can go with my best friend (only one person) couzins or any family member (anybody who puts you up when your around them) anywhere and i have a blast. and believe things will get better, they always do :)

If you feel bad about your looks then the charisma is often at the bottom. You should try to improve your self-esteem a bit. Buy new clothes and go to the gym to improve your looks, Change your hairstyle, make-up, come on, you re a woman, there are thousands of ways to change your appearance.

have a hobby, make sure you enjoy it

whatever you do, don't kill yourself please. you have so much to live for

Can we start by putting away the Whip!! You can add 30yrs to you age and you have mine!! I could give you a name of a book, if i knew you better, here is a tip that worked for me, for every one negative thought think two positive, if you don't think any good of yourself, no one will think good of you, and SMILE, you sound beautiful, If i can say that, and finally put out positivity and you get positivity!! this has worked for me, it took me years!!!

There is this saying that says At the end everything is alright, if it's not alright, it's not the end. It helped me through my depression that lasted four years. And it wasnt until recently that I decided to share my story and how I overcame it with other teenage girls who are going through the same thing I did. It's a terrible thing to go through alone, and no one should feel that way. This is why I feel like I can help. You can take a look at my blog and message me please if you just want to talk or ANYTHING. Please dont go through this alone because you dont have to. Take care and know that everything will be ok soon! <3

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My past 4 years

I think that what you should do is still keep in close contact with your best friend in every possible way, me and my best friend never get to see each other because we live far away from each other I always talk to her about everything still and she is always there to listen to me. I don't have many close friends at my school either I only have really only a few people to talk to and I feel lonely as well, I try to always talk to them and keep a conversation going but they don't put any effort into keeping it going. I started keeping a journal about how I felt and what was going on in my life and my personal thoughts. It really helped me actually I got this weight of my shoulders since all of that wasn't in me anymore. Since you feel self conscious what helps is buying a really cute top and getting compliment on it, it always helps when you know people like the way you look even though its really whats inside that matters ;) also try listening to up beat music helps, and when you see people talking about some new movie or a new book or something else like that try to be like 'oh yeah i saw that it was really good' or 'yeah i've been wanted to read that was it any good?' I hope some of this helps