Am I a closet case killer? Or just insane?!

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You've experienced lots of pain, more than anybody in this society. No one can understand nor is willing to understand what kind of pain you went through. You don't play society's game, you're beyond that. I have no advice for you, but I feel for you. You're obviously smarter than everyone, I am serious, the math is quickly done, suffering leads to seriousness, and intelligence, it's very simple. Pain is the deciding factor.
Actually I will give you advice, keep it all in, keep your superior knowledge of the depth of the rabbit hole. Make fun of people when they're being ridiculous, just follow your path and stay cool.
You might help a lot of young minds with your words of truth and REAL persona. Lots of minds desperately need this...

Who thumbed me down? You asker?
...oh it's 2 ppl so weak throw aways...

You're damaged, and it's time to step up, and take responsibility, get some help, talk to a psychologist, or psychiatrist, because keeping it in is what's messing you up.

You need to talk, to give what happened to you a place where it doesn't consume you. And stop entertaining ideas of killing people, that's just plain unhealthy.

Well, first of all, of course it isn't normal.
Second, the calmer you are, the more likely you are going to go along with your plans.
Please get medical help, before something bad happens!

Do it.

Aww how cute

Clinically those are called obsessions or invasive thoughts. They're able to occur because of some anxiety that you're been experiencing recently. If your brother's death was in the past month or so, this is not exactly abnormal. If it's been a long time, then you have to find what's causing your anxiety and work to stop it. Maybe that means putting aside some important goals and taking time every day to do nothing but relax, but if you keep it up you'll find that you can't do anything as well as you should be able to because of these anxieties and invasive thoughts haunting you.