Plz m a victim of depressiion, need advice not medication?!

hy ppl dun hav any frnd so sharing it wd u. M a muslim born in a strict family, 3 years bck i met sm1 on
my cell phone he lives in another city, slowly slowly v started feeling dat v r in love. Blv me i think its da
most precious gift, loving n being loved dis was something new to me. Iam always neglected n
underestimated in my family but he is the only human being who understands me. Da only prob is nw
after 3 years(though v havent met yet) v want to get married, his family iz vry supporitve but m afraid of
my family dy r not supporting me, my mother knws abt us but she is afraid of my father, i cry all the time, i dun like coming out of my room. If my father cumz to knw abt my affair he'll never forgive me. And i
cant leave him, hez da only 1 who understands me. I want to shout at da top of my voice that i love him
but m bounded, this depression is runing my life